/ because we're stronger than that! (II)

CELLO: Cheese in ICE CUBES!

2008-10-01T22:44:00.003+08:00

HELLO HELLO! We have changed our link to THIS

Nevertheless, we'll still keep this one running because we like the feeling of having many many many posts :) BUT DO CHANGE YOUR LINKS TO THE NEW ONE YES?!?!?! :D Sorry for the trouble. HEE HAA! And thank you for being so hard-working. YOU'RE ALL AWESOME!

ice-cube love from,
m.chelle.

2008-09-25T16:22:00.002+08:00

HUHUHU! Surprise! Well not really. Michelle here. Blogging on the bali's laptop! Mel's here with me going high with the keyboard :P I've been good. Preparing for the O's and stuff HUHUHUHU! Anyways, this was just a short little update! One of the reasons why is because i don't have anything to say. HAHAHA but i'll get back..soon :D

HEHEHEHE Loves!

i've known you this long.

2008-09-24T15:24:00.007+08:00

heart to heart.

I'm in BRUNEI! I arrived on Sunday, and it does feel awesome to be back! I'll only be staying for a week. I had a good time seeing everyone in school! To see how everything in JIS has changed slightly, attended English Lang and Biology with friends. So that was good!

My house has a different smell....... okay maybe its because i haven't been here in quite sometime, and typing on my PC feels weird too haha, oh well! I stayed over at Von's house yesterday and it was gooood, went to huaho to eat jollibee! (yes something singapore doesn't have! nyeh)

Marie Digby!!! :) has entered my favourites. Its superduperly cool how people can get famous through YOUTUBE! that reminds me YOUTUBE DOWNLOADER! :)

Well nothing much has been happening, i'm going for a movie with my parents later, good family bonding time :) I was just doing some thinking, because tomorrows my sisters 4th year. Time is like flying by, even though some days we drag to go to school and sometimes we have longggg days. But its here the 4th year. Wow. My mum told me to write in the bulletin this year, but i couldn't think of anything to write, is it safe to say that i'm still missing her? She'd be 20 this year! haha so old raeeeee, Man i miss celebrating birthdays with her urgh! She'd come up with best birthday suprises and fooood (her pasta still beats my dads! lol.) I know if Rae were still alive she'd love Marie Digby! and Youtube, and she'd be still bullying me, but then I wouldn't quite know how'd she be like by now, being 20 and all (mature?) haha. Well at least a little bit...

I love having a sister, but its okay that shes not here, i still have her @ heart. :) and I thank God for her life - 15 years! Praise God! Shes still in my heart and forever will be. So i have something to say about her.

My sister, Rachael. She had a heart for the lost and broken. Even though at times she was the victim of a terrible situation, she'd always put people before her, she loved to express her feelings through poems and songs, i'd hear them through her door almost every night, yes even pass midnight. The passion I saw in her laughter, in her songs, in her writting, i admire her the way she would score so high for english - then having my mom telling me that i should read more. haha! She loves the beach and watching oprah. The last proper movie i watched with her was "Ghost Ship" and this was after she came back from Acts 29's P3 camp. I got so scared during the movie and i squeeze my butt into her small chair - suprisingly she didn't complain, she'd tell me in the midst of me being scared that she had prayed for me.

I didn't know what any of that meant, but i've grown to understand now. She would normally get me into trouble yes, we're sisters. People couldn't see that we're related and we were happy that way. She'd stare at me in school, and i'd stick out my tougue, you know normal sister stuff. Painting nails, doing hairs, making cards all those. One thing we had in common, we loved to keep things, we're sentimental. Every chocolate wrapper, stamps, stickers, tissues, paper, you name it we had it! We'd compare and trade, believe me this was when she was 13 i think. She wore power ranger glasses in year 5, and i'd make fun of her... I had this recording where we were interviewing each other and i said in the beginning :

m: so this is my sister rachael lee kah mun
r: shut up mei! your ruining it.
m: so she is so pretty, and she has power ranger glasses HAHAHA *runs away*
r: STOP IT!! THIS IS NOT A INTERVIEW!
m: she has one two three...*gets smuthered*
r: i kiss you ah i kiss you (MUAHMUAHMUAH)
m: screams in horror!!

haha if you were wondering what i was counting, i was counting the number of pimples she had. hahahahahaha :) Oh how i love her and her sillyness, her creativeness, her smile, just about everything! I must say that i do feel bad for not being there for her, but i couldn't do anything - by then we were pretty much in our own worlds, until i faced the fact that she was dying - it changed then.

My sister wasn't a girl that loved to party, get peircings and all that craziness, yes she loved those things, but behind that she had a passion for a "Change". She had the heart for people. The things my mom showed me in her diary, really opened up my eyes to this girl that was so fair, wore glasses, loved oprah, hate mustard, my sister was all about. Its like i met her through the poems she made, and really got to know her - although i missed the chance to have this part in life with her, i'm alright with that :)

So, please don't feel sorry for me, i've told you about her. I have to say live each day to it's fullest - laugh everyday, share, make new friends, say i love you to your parents and siblings - Rae's last words were 'mei i love you, goodnight'.

When we were much younger then,
you know when i was seven and you were 10,
those were the best times with you,
where our childish games had no rules.

We'd stick gum in each others hairs,
we were selfish, even sweets we didn't share,
then threatening me with your kisses,
i'll always remember you, my dearest sister.

You were taken away,
without my last say,
when i read your words on paper,
did i then realise later.

"If tomorrow starts without me" you said,
my heart fell as i read,
you said you'd always be here,
even when i was far, or when i was near.

The last words will forever ring in me,
they brought me on a journey,
that you've always loved
you've always loved me.

I'll never take that for granted,
even as things become wanted,
i'll hold on to those words you meant,
and remember your heaven's sent.

When we were much younger then,
you know when i was seven and you were 10,
those were the best times with you,
where our childish games had no rules.

Okay i had a go with my poem skillssssss, ahah not that good but oh well! i'll update soon. :)

this is for you rae - "Unfold" by Marie Digby

cheers.

maylee

because i'm free - :D

2008-09-12T19:44:00.005+08:00

Hello!

So I'm updating because i'm free :)

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, about how 'feelings' can really change you. I say this because I've seen it happen to people and experienced it. I thought about how 'feelings' could destroy you when they're not good 'feelings' if you get what i mean. haha But yet we still fall into these 'feelings' and things just go allll wrongggg.

When we see friends or even random people cry, get depressed, starve themselves etc... because they allow 'feelings' to to take over and they're heart on the wire. They blog about it, they take pictures of themselves crying, and some of them try to keep it to themselves when its eating them inside out. oh gosh I'm beginning to sound so emotional right now, haha it is the point. So what are 'feelings' exactly?

I remember the ultimate break up haha yes i call that now, I no longer feel it. Although i remember I went through a bunch of tears, sleepless nights and all that drama rama haha. But thank God that I no longer feel it :). ANYWAY, back to my point... It is then when God really open my eyes to the term of my 'feelings' and my heart, and the whole function of it, and how it could really CHANGE you.

How having your heart broken felt like you couldn't move on and standing up physically was even hard, but it was all in my head. He showed me that feelings are just 'things'. He too showed me how his heart beats for me, beats for people. How the blood that flows with every pump from every time we inhale. When we let 'feelings' consume us, we no longer breathe in the breath of God - thats why it feels so painful when you get your heart broken. We sing in praise/worship songs, that we want a heart like Gods, one that is compassionate, one that loves people like he/she loves God. When we sing to God to ask him to renew our hearts, and to then have a heart thats 'all for Him' - that means taking that step to lay down your heart and your feelings all for Him.

It was then, did i realize how painful it was to break my heart and turn away from someone because I knew it was consuming me and turning me away from God. What about you? Does your heart rely on 'feelings'. Nothings holding me back, because i know that 'my chains are gone, i've been set free' - I'm living for someone, whos beyond anything and anyone, and He is going to watch over me, bring me to new stages in life - overcome it with me, as i walk the footsteps that he has already walked for me, all i have to do is follow. He has my life all planned out and i definately know that i'm going to have more DRAMA RAMA MAMAs to come, but i know that through those experiences, mannnnnnnnn i get stronger. I truely believe that i'm the strongest person alive! hahaha joking! You've got this person, who loves you endlessly, laughs with you till your stomach hurts and face too! haha, who listens not to your thoughts and your heart, who knows how your feeling, who wants Your life to SHOUT HIS FAME! He is Jesus.

ANYWAY, thats a bit of a thought there! I'm just lazing around on my ikea table and chair heeee, getting a bit tired. I had dinner already and honestly i have to cut down on how I eat! Its like eating in Brunei wasn't enough! ugh! stop eating melissa! hahahahahaahah Well hopefully i'll be able to burn it off tomorrow; I'm going to FLAG DAY... Me and a group of friends are going to one of the MRT stations and collect money for charity if i'm not wrong its for charity. You know the coin thing? then you get stickers for donating! hahah yes :D

Well thats all i have to update! You'll be lucky if you get another update from me - if i get one of those 'empty, i have nothing better to do so i'll blog' dayyyssss.

CHEERS!

mElissa

2008-09-08T22:02:00.004+08:00

Ohmyhashbrowns! I haven't blogged in what seem like a super dinosaur ancient long time! I had and have so much to say yet words fail me. Fail to reason why i have not blogged for a long long time. So there are stories. Stories after stories after stories. Struggles after struggles. I don't know. But in the midst of everything, my God was still there. Still have been and always will be. Over the past few months, after finding out that i'm not gonna be SO active in church for a while, it's been hell. That didn't shatter my knowledge of who i serve. But it really disturbed my walk a lot. It went up and down. It was hard to pray. Hard to sing. Exams were so near. I couldn't focus. Everything was a mess that i couldn't get it all together. I tried to cry out but the hurt was so cut so deep that i couldn't say a word.

Rushes of insecurity filled my heart. I didn't know what i was anymore. I felt stupid at some point. Where i felt i wasn't as smart as the others. (cheap trick played huh?) I just asked God again and again. Why why why why why...why. I thought i had it all together. Then i felt Him saying, "Michelle, you have had Me in your mind..but was I in your heart?" I think there are lots of times we tend to do our devotions half-heartedly at times or nothing even. I think i tried to avoid that fact. It shows how important it is to really be true to God. Cause we can't hide anything from Him and He DEFINITELY knows our thoughts and hearts.

And constantly need to be reminded that through the many blessings and gifts that are given to us, we still have our backfires. Trials, temptations, MORE TRIALS. Yet we have an everlasting Solution, King, Saviour, Provider to overcome it with us. Just the name Jesus itself, is so power. So powerful to break and pierce through everything that we are and everything that we do. Jesus broke through our shame. Our sins. Even our flaws and became perfected in Him. Being not just a constant support and love but EVERLASTING even after the end of this generation. He'll still be the same.

No doubt that life is tough. Like, who doesn't know that? :P But God offers us SPECIFICALLY everything we need and its always what's best for us. Whereas the world may have everything we want but we don't need them.

Philippians 4:19
19 And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.

It's definitely a tough road down this life. But there's always one truth that will keep us standing and trusting Him..

indeed, He makes all things new (:

L FOR LINGUINI!
M FOR MICHELLE!

p.s : i might have to pull off a disappearing act once again due to the preparation of O' Levels. I don't care how much you demand for an update. You just have to deal with it :) I'm already giving and early notice anyway. NYAHHAHAHAHA!

p.p.s : jabali, i miss you. HAHA!

2008-08-27T19:58:00.007+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!

OKAY i know it has been long since i updated BALI! :) haha, Singapores really exciting! loads of things coming up in College, getting really tiring! BUT BEFORE I GO ON...

CONGRATULATIONS TO YVONNE LIM YEE WON!!! :D

for getting top in ART! A! I'm really proud of you dude, i read the message in theatre class and i wanted to scream but my teacher was talking haha, but hope you got my MESSAGE HEHE :) really happy for you! GO NG ZHI LING!!! :D

ALSO...

CONGRATULATIONS TO AHDRAH AZAMAN!!! :D

For getting accepted into LIM KOK WING! I knew you would get in! with your amazing grades like com'on! hahaha have fun working before leaving next year! update me! and also let me know when you come to Singapore :)

WOW 2 GREAT news today :D I know I sound really HYPER right now, but i'm actually really really really drained! NEVERTHELESS! I'm really HAPPY for YVONNE AND DRA :D I wanna hear more great news okayyyyyyyyyy

anyway back to today! Our combine class (theatre and music) went to watch a production in the morning, and it was CHAOS in the beginning because we all didn't know where SRT was, Singapore Repertoire Theatre. So the theatre group came up with idea of meeting up at City Hall Mrt at 10.30am - then from there go as a group to SRT by 11am. AND JUST LIKE BRUNEI, that when we tell people to come at 10.30 people started to come at 10.45 hahaha, and we still had to take a bus to the theatre from there. SO IF YOU HAVEN'T GUESSED YET. WE WERE LATE. hahaha and missed the first ACT. BUT ITS OKAY. :) The play was good :D laughed loads!

So after that we went to eat! (shh... i ate KFC... =x but i shared it with Anne :) ) haha we went back to school after our unhealthy meal, and it was raining cats and dogs! (so cliche!) BUT I brought my umbrella, however one of my friends called Anne, was wearing such lovely clothes and didn't have an umbrella, so i sacrificed the umbrella and gave it to her, and I used my really thin jacket and got drenched :). I was alright with it, i was wearing my white dress... (those of you in brunei should know which one! haha)

Me and Bryan got to school wet, since we were using jackets and we went to the 'green' to rest, and i was shivering crazy! haha and the dancers from our foundation batch came over and offered me clothes :D, and i gladly took they're offer. SO after that i was dry! and the MORAL of this story is? BRING 2 UMBRELLAS hahahahaha :P

We had class after that and discussed a bit of the play and why WE WERE LATE then we dispersed to our groups and practiced the play... My group did beat 1 and we turned it into a song, so a choir thing! :D We had to come back after awhile to perform hehehe, and my group was the first to perform! We had great feedback that Michael (teacher) wants the piece notated on a music score and use it at the end of this year! WOOOHOOOO went my heart! hahaha I was really happy because our whole group really put all their efforts yo. haha and APPARENTLY I'm now known as G.I.P in my foundation batch. which stands for. GOOD IN PURPLE ahahaha :) the shirt that i borrowed from the dancers were purple. (/break: THANK YOU DANCERS!!! \break) haha.

THAT WAS MY DAY! I know Chelle has just finished her exams today! so we should be hearing from her soon yes? :)

to truly live for You,

to truly seek Your face

to turn turn my heart towards You

a thousand times a day!

2008-08-16T13:07:00.004+08:00

HAIR CUT IN SINGAPORE! :O

hello everyone! 2nd week of college... So far so good, its been tiring walking and waiting for classes, but having loads of fun getting to know people :D. We've already had 1 drama haha. Scary i know. :o) but oh well! we've settled it already. muahaha. Anyway, i'm most probably going to get my mac (BLACK!) early next week hehe. I can webcam with YOU ALL :D. so yes. :)

So yesterday i went to cut my hair near by, and wasn't too happy with it, i asked them to layer and thin it a BIT. and yeah they went as usual OVERBOARD. but itsokay, this morning i woke up and took my shower and made it somewhat nice. haha, so im pretty much okay with it now. wooohooo, and yesterday i decorated my room for an hour, and got tired haha since it was very late at night already.

I bought this about a few days back, hehehe PIGLET :D

Haircut :D

The wall so FAR. this is 66/223 PHOTOS haha

THIS MANY TO GO!!! O_O. hahaha

well those are the pictures so far! I'll take pictures when im in Heart of God later :D hehe So excited. wehwhehwehwhehwe 8) i hope everyone back in brunei are doing great, CHELLE! goodluck in your mocks okay?! I haven't talked to you in ages! I know your going to do amazing! haahahah :D miss you dude.

thats all from me! singapore singapore singapore. :D

mElissa

2008-08-12T21:00:00.001+08:00

MOCKS COMING UP! NEW SEASON! NEW CHALLENGES! NEW WHATEVER! BUSY! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Yes, that means i will be away for a while. but i'll be back after all the crazy hecticness is gone :) HEEE!

L FOR LONGAN!
M FOR MICHELLE!

2008-07-31T19:03:00.002+08:00

I SEND GREETING FROM SINGAPORE! :D

hello everyone!! hehe, okay so theres this long update i have to do; because there has been so many things happening! i'll start from the beginning!

Monday:

I left Brunei at 12pm, :( thank you to everyone who sent me off at the airport, i tried my best not to cry but you know it'll always get to you one way or another haha. My flight to Singapore was alright, tiring because of crying haha... but i had Rachel to keep me company, talked about many things :)

When we arrived in Singapore, we went to Parkview to do some shopping and to kill some time, as we have to go back to the airport to drop Rachel off for her flight to Sydney. So we walked around and suprisingly things were on SALE! :D hehe, 50%, 20% off and so on. :) so i bought :

Faceshop eyeliner, masacara and the eyeliner sharper, a really nice OG yellow T-shirt, hairbands and hairties :) hehe. Walked around with Rachel, went to eat and dropped her off. :D hope your flight was good Rach! (thats if your reading) hehe. After that we went to my uncles place to settle our luggages and to just 'chill' haha, was real good to see my cousins and uncle and aunty! :)

Tuesday :

Got up super duper early to go to my school to settle somethings :) - then i don't remember what we did after that haha

Wednesday :

Went out of lunch with my other uncle :) then back to Lasalle to take my picture of my student identity card! :D then after that i don't remember haha sorry!!!

TODAY! :

ORIENTATION!!! It was good!! I made friends easily and although some people there are a bit yeahhhhhhh. it was good. We had this workshop where you were put into a group of 6 people, and then the lectueres would then give you a word... With this word you have to discuss with your group and come up with a musical piece that portrays the word. We were only allowed to use 1piano (with one people playing only), sleigh bells, a mobile phone and our body percussion. My group's word was 'friction' haha this was probably the hardest but we came up with a good role play and came up with 2 ideas of how fiction could destroy music but also bring it together, we got good feedback yo! :D

Oh and yes, i'm the youngest in my year hehehehe, everyone else is 18 and above haha, but its okay! hehe BURN BRIGHT! hehe

Well, thats the updates so far, i went shopping yesterday as well at BUGIS!!! hehe =) oh yes i'll update with pictures soon, sorry yeah, i kind of left my camera in my uncles taxi hahaha so i'll get it back this Saturday :)

Hope everyone in Brunei is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!! =D, i start school this monday, and my timetable is awesome, since i'm in foundation i get to do everything!!! hehe, from Aurals, theory, performing, YOGA!!!, gamelan, percussion, keyboard skills, improvisation etc... :) and each day i go to school at different times haha.

Monday - 11am

Tuesday - 9am

Wednesday - 12pm

Thursday 12.30pm

Friday 8.30am

if im not wrong ahah i just closed my time table!

Well i contacted Joyce and Heart Of God isn't having service this sunday, so my mom wants to go to New creation church :) and tomorrow got another busy day!!!

Thats all from me, enjoy reading guys! and keep pressing on YEAH! LET GOD BE YOUR SOLUTION :D

mElissa

2008-07-29T18:25:00.004+08:00

MEL I MISS YOU MUCHO! Please PLEASE PLEASE 1000x PLEASE take care of yourself properly okay. You gave me and M quite a scare just now but thank God you're okay :) ANYHOOS, i just came back from school like an hour ago. I'm dead tired! Especially my toes. I was wearing new shoes so i wasn't too used to it. So my big toes hurt like crazy. And my friend stepped on one when we were in the book store to top it all off. Like perfectly hit the spot. Ouch man - -"! So i just had my malay orals! I'm pretty glad to get it over with! It's so amazing what prayers can do even though you say such a simple one. I prayed with Rachel before going for it :) After praying, i wasn't as nervous as i was before. It turned out fine in the end anyways! The beauty of releasing situations into the hands of our God! He always ensures guidance when you ask for it :)! But we obviously have to mean what we say by saying that we TRUST Him. So i'll be honest. I've felt a little distant from God lately. It's so hard to do my quiet time and stuff. But i remember doing it yesterday, i think i heard Him saying about opening doors. THIS IS LIKE REALLY MY BAD! HAHA. But i'm amazed by my God! :) IM A CHRISTIAN AND IM NOT ASHAME TO SAY IT!!! (uhhhh .. facebook! :P)

I think many christians think that once they do something bad, they're likeee totally wrong already. And start condemning themselves! They get the idea that God will condemn them and will remember what they did. But that's not our Daddy man! Our God is like such a merciful God! And even if we've done wrong, we are still RIGHTEOUS in God! For this righteousness we possess is a God-given gift as us being His children! :) God doesn't condemn, God FORGIVES! :D Only the devil condemns people and keeps giving you disturbing thoughts, reminding you of what you did. SICKOOOOO! Hahaha, but RIGHTEOUSNESS IS ETERNITY IN US WHO BELIEVES! :)

and i'll leave you guys with this..

The outcome of an approximately 3-hour project! HAHA. So messy :S

This is what Wei Jin did to prepare for his orals. :)

WJ: Michelle bodoh.
M: Whatchu call me?!?!?!
*starts walking towards WJ*
*WJ starts backing away*
*Richmond comes and shoves WJ*
*starts taking out phone*
M: I'll call my brother!
WJ: Okay! OKAY! Please don't! I was talking to the other Michelle but just pointing at you!
M: - -"

Wei Jin is such a freak. :P HAHA but so funny!

L FOR LINGUINI
M FOR MICHELLE!

2008-07-28T20:02:00.002+08:00

Homagash. Mel left like *lost count*.. HOURS ago! I still feel a little yeah but it's okay. Not as bad as this morning. MEL, IM SURE YOU'VE LANDED IN SINGA---P-Pp-OORREEE already! DO TELL ME HOW TIHNGS ARE OKAY!?!?

-- and i left this like hanging for few hours. WOOPS. OKAY OKAY a proper update soon okay? :D I PROMISE THIS TIME!

m.chelle.

2008-07-27T23:48:00.002+08:00

I'm OFF in 12hours!!

takecare everyone, i'm super duper sorry that i can't text everyone! it's because i don't have that much credit with me :( so yeah! But i wish you all the best, my dear readers :) I'm going to most definately miss all the friends i've made! and even teachers! :O haha, its been a great time in Brunei! and i can't wait to see everyone grow up! I must admit, i was really upset today. It hit me real hard. haha, But i know that

"as we go onnn we remember, all the times we had together... as our lives change come what ever we will still be friends foreverrrrrrr."

AHAHHA, i have no idea, that just came into mind! Neways, CHELLE update okay?! :) i wanna read read read when im in Singapore.

Bah, this is it from me for now ;) hehhehehehehehh

mElissa :D

2008-07-23T09:31:00.003+08:00

PACKING!!!

okay so today i'm listing the things to pack, and so far im listing ALOT of things down hehe. But i think its because i'm making the list really specific for example:

Accesories:

1. toothbrush
2. toothpaste

HAHA! so you can imagine how my a4 paper looks like :D I'm bringing back loads of memories :) pictures and what nots. I just got home from Aunty Christina and Uncle Hong Kee's Memorial Wake, greatest and deepest condolences to the family. I'll be going to Mira's place later, to see her before she goes off for holiday tomorrow, and after that i have a dinner at empire! so busy day!

Mondays not that far away, its about 4 more days? I'm really excited!! Can't sleep much at night hehe, thinking about how first day of school is going to be like. I'm going to have oreintation as well, so hopefully i'll get to meet people there already. :D going to be really super duperly friendly haha, next thing you know i'm quiet as a mouse. heeeeee. My family is following me there, but after a week my dad will leave me and my mom. Please pray that we'll find either a HDB that is at a reasonable cost, or i'll get a space a this hostel.

I'll post pictures soon, but after i leave i won't be posting much as 1) i'll be really busy and 2) i don't think i'll have a computer, let alone internet access for awhile. But once i do, i'll post and update hehe, Michelle ah you better find time :) after your exams of course!! i'll be waiting to read the many posts. hehe

Haha i remember this :) huaho!!!!

Yes! its raining, i love rainy weathers!

MELISSA

2008-07-22T21:49:00.002+08:00

God, You are my strength
Through You, victory stands
In the hearts of those
Who longs for You

You reign forever
No eyes shall fail to see
That You are God
I wait on You, God.
I look to You.

‘ Surely your salvation is coming;
Behold, His reward is with Him,
And His work before Him.’”
12 And they shall call them The Holy People,
The Redeemed of the LORD;
And you shall be called Sought Out,
A City Not Forsaken.

L for lunch,
M for michelle.

2008-07-15T18:50:00.003+08:00

(H)

thank you chelle :), the post almost made me cry! haha, well i've got a busy week ahead and the last week...

Tomorrow - Miri trip with Von, (i've been waiting for this.)
Friday - Sunday - Down to KB and Miri with Charlotte and Euodia!
Monday - Going out with Desko!
Tuesday - Going out with Charlotte and Michelle! :D
Wed, Thur, Friday - FREE most likely packing, but if anyone wants to book :D i'll make exceptions! hehe
Saturday - TALENTIME :D
Sunday - Church (L) and outing hopefully with friends
MONDAY - bye bye Brunei, hello Singapore!

I'm gonna miss everyone back here! everyone single one of YOU :D hehehe, great stupid random weird times shared here, and definately i'll come back once in a while, not sure about coming back at the end of the year! But hopefully, if not, i'll send you guys Christmas Cards :)

okay thats all from me :D

MELISSA

ps:

I (f) chelle
I (tu) des
I (r) jess
I (*) charlotte

haha i don't know who else i've gave msn thingy-ma-bobes..

2008-07-15T17:55:00.002+08:00

Mel mel mel, I KNOW! You're giving me the silent treatment through this blog. Well only through blogs. But i don't blame you. HEE! :D Where have i been exactly? No where in particular actually. Just been really busy with COUNTLESS of activities. Some even came unexpectedly and had to be done on the spot. Which was tiring, crazy but keeps my life exciting anyways! I thank God for giving me friends. That did sound a little sad didn't it? I mean, GREAT friends. I've mingled with gazillions of people from different cultures, backgrounds, ages, names...WHATEVER! But through that walk, i've met really great friends. One will definitely be MELISSA LEE / SPONGEBOB / BALI BALI / HUMAN GLOWSTICK / it goes on :P Mel, i'm really sorry for not being able to spend as much time as i thought i could with you. We probably do run out of things to say when we talk online and PROBABLY not as close as we actually were back then. But that’s besides the point. I’m just going to be really honest about it all. It doesn’t matter how distant or close we may be. But as much as I can, I will still be here for you to listen and talk when you need someone. J The miss-yous still stand and will always be there. :P Can’t imagine you being far from me. I’m gonna miss those hugs that were so special (it almost made me cry), thoseeee totally absurd yet amusing conversations even when they never made sense at all. HAHA. I remember there was one where we talked about inventing a bubble? AHHAHAHA. I’d have a pretty good laugh at that if I still have that convo. :P

But as you go off to Singapore, I wish you the best of the best! :D You’re going to be fine there I’m sure. Life’s so exciting right!! Haha! I know you’ve gone through tough times, but you’re out of that now J God’s children always overcome I tell you! :D A new beginning ahead of you! Rawr but bring that old-time God relationship with you. J Heee. YOU’RE GONNA PROSPER SO MUCH I TELL YOU! :I’m so excited for you my dear! But thank you for bringing so much joy, craziness, lameness into my life. IT’S BEEN A GREAT PLEASURE! :P But I hope you take MY LAMENESS along with you to Singapore :P HAHA, one will definitely be the one where I couldn’t laugh like you. HAHA. That ‘muahhahhahahhaha’ thing. AHAHA BUT WHATEVER! I CAN TOTALLY DO IT NOW OKAY! :D But yeah, thank you! J And someday, maybe I’ll pop into one of your classes in a wig and shades and mah bling-blings to steal you away and you’ll take me around the place ;D HAHAHA. Okay? HAHA OKAY! MEL, I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH! J BANANA BOAT!

*Walks in a room*

“Uuuuu.. block of wood”

*Mel and Char laughs*

L for Liquorice.

m for michelle.

2008-07-03T17:01:00.002+08:00

hello hello,

We've got to keep this blog alive! haha, i know Michelles really busy for the past few days, its okay! Lifes meant to be filled with excitement and stress at the same time. haha i'm blabbering. Anyway, i've been at home for 5 days straight, and i need to go out and see people. :( I woke up today lazing in bed thinking about Singapore and how fast all this is going; i remembered the first day of year 7 for me and now i'm no longer am a Jerudong International School student. There were definately irreplaceable memories that i've created there ever since i joined JIS in 1997, where i met people like Yvonne, Rachel, Jordan, Shaun, Muiz, Annabell, Annarose, Jacob so on and so forth, and when i re-joined JIS in 2003? if i'm not wrong, i met, Dra, Jess, Pirng, Catherine, Ruby, Charlotte, Euodia and later on Karen, Janny, Diyana, and all these amazing people :)

Not only did i meet people, but after i re-joined JIS i met people like Bernard, Michelle, Ting, Derek, Ida, Vivien, Sam... people so full of life, and made my stay in Brunei such a unforgettable one. (haha it sounds like i was in Brunei only for a holiday), all of the friends that i've met over the years in Brunei have definately made me a different person, but the biggest person that i've met thats changed me inside out, is God. In 2006 (acts29 Elevate Camp), it was the most extraordiary encounter, and to meet people like Beverly, Angel, Desmond was just once in a life time!

I already feel homesick even though i haven't even left yet, i've got 24 more days and that sounds pretty long to me, but i know its going to fly by. I know i shouldn't make such a big fuss over the fact because i'm only going to Singapore which is only 2 hours away by plane, but it's just the fact that i won't see the people i usually see everyday. I know with time and with God, i'll adapt to Singapore life, and meet more interesting people to add to the collection :D So yes i don't have to worry because i know God will just take care of this future. I remember God spoke to me during a situation and this is a part of what he said...

"Focus on me, and i'll show you what i see."

So i was just "wow" haha, I just want to thank all the friends that i've made, even though some i'm not close to some right now... Thank You So Much, you have NO idea how much YOUR sharing, laughing, crying, annoying, eating, sleeping, running, cycling, jumping, rolling, farting and SO SO SO many more, has made this part of my life so exciting! :D Hopefully me and Michelle will keep this blog running, and probably when we're like 50? haha okay la 30, we'll look back and remember :), and i can gaurantee, i know this is isn't as good as it gets, because it gets better.

- MEL

2008-06-26T19:44:00.003+08:00

HELLO WORLD!!...again

Well sorry for the lack of updates from me, been really tired and yeah lazy to blog. So far so good! the holidays are alright :) I slept up to 4 today, because i was really beat after the 6 days of going out haha so yup! Been going to Qlap mall alot well for the past 2 days, to hang out with friends :)

SO far i've watched :

They're pretty much alright (: Satistfied with the movies i've watched. i've actually lost my mood to blog, so i'll just upload a few more pictures!

eh loh vee ee,

Melissa

ps: chelle i'm so very proud of you, learning piano by yourself and all!! ahah miss you!!!

2008-06-16T17:14:00.003+08:00

i am totally speechless and have nothing to say. But all i can say is that i am fine. Well pretty fine. hahaha. Mel, it feels like ages since we've talked and no matter how dead this is, we're keeping this up okie. HAHA. :) You're leaving like so soon. dang. hahaha.

legs > heart > lungs > heart > arms.
blood.
ahhaha. RANDOM.

untying the weight bags;

MICAH 7:8

8 Do not rejoice over me, my enemy;
When I fall, I will arise;
When I sit in darkness,
The LORD will be a light to me.

michelles.

2008-06-08T23:08:00.002+08:00

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see.

i love this. Great lyrics. Great vocals. Catchy song. I LOVE IT! I sing this like almost everywhere and anywhere i go. :P I know its always being played on tv and stuff. But to really capture what the song is all about is something not done all the time by people. Hahaha.

michelles.

I'm staying in Your arms today, Always and Forever!

2008-06-08T11:44:00.004+08:00

Goodmorning!!!!

OOOkay its 15more minutes till afternoon, OHWELL! Today is SUNDAYYY :D hehe, bohyy am i excited for todays service!! After this i'll be going to study a bit of Physics and hopefully some Business? :) 4 more papers! just 4 more! till i'm freeeeeeeee well i've got some stuff to things to prepare for the farewell hehe...

The recital yesterday was alright, it was a little bit too long if you ask me. I had fun performing, Von was panicking that she couldn't remember the lyrics, so i had to look at her when it was her part hahaha. Hopefully i'll get to perform somemore before i leave to Singapore, got to get rid of this 'stage fright' hehehe. so excited!! got around 50 days left in Brunei ):

God,

How could i ever thank you for all you've done for me, but give this life; all that i have, to You. You took the Weight of the World on Your shoulders. You did all for me, I can't believe i serve the King the ONE and ONLY, I can't wait for you move your fire over this place, ignite Your Fire. Before i ever called Your name, you gave Your life for me. You did it all for me. You've showed me LIFE. You have my whole 'life' all planned out, You want the BEST for me. I know at times i might fall, and doubt You, but i know i find my way back to You. Nothing can ever compare to that. I love you so much, thank You.

'Take me as i am, into your new scarred hands and when i run so far away, you always call me back again.'

my light, dedicated.

el oh vee yee;

mel

Mummy OH mummy (:

2008-06-05T19:30:00.004+08:00

" NA Happy Birthday "

a daily conversation i had with my mom :)

Me: maaaaaa did you buy and clothes recently?
Ma: ya why?
Me: can i see them :D
Ma: okay, their in my closet...

*opens closet.*

Me: wow. and this can fit you? hehehe
Ma: why not?! okay la, they might not...
Me: uh huh.
Ma: "NA happy birthday" *hands me the shorts*

HAHAHAH shes so adorable (: she was a bit blur when she said it because she was doing her 'own' stuff so i left with the shorts haha...

and i just realised that i'm taller than her now, and i look alot like her HAHAHA. yep this was such a random post.

5 more papers! :D

el oh vee yee,

mel :)

And i know You'll never let me go.

2008-06-04T20:44:00.003+08:00

Literature is OVER :)

It was alright. 2hours and 40minutes, endured! hahaha, i was honestly drifting of a bit... haha

Anyway last night, i couldn't get to sleep, 1am passed then 2am... it wasn't because anything was bothering me, i felt excited for some reason!! Wow man i just sat in bed thinking about what God has done for me, and what he has done for friends that have told me about their testimonies, and it just blows my mind. And the coolest part is... What more now? :) He's gonna do much greater things, greater plans!,... wow.

'Oh love in the shadows
Be the light who leads me on
You're love I will follow Be my guide,
you're will be done Oh Lord'

Life's greatttttttt :D, I've seen how much my parents have grown stronger over these pass few years, and although they continue to stumble during the hard times in life, i'm just so amazed at how they are able to hang on. Especially my Daddy, like man he works from morning (around when i leave the house which is around 7.) till, 12 in the morning when i'm asleep, and yes i hardly see him, but even so i still i feel so close to him. I wanna encourage you all who have parents who are still unbelievers to PRESSON. We've heard of people who've prayed for their mothers/fathers for years and finally see the breakthrough come to pass. It's just so amazing.

We know the King of Kings, the Creator, Saviour. The one who loves us to the Ends of the earth, the one that'll never let us down or leave us nor forsake us, i'm asking you, what more do you ever need? When you have Jesus, you have Everything.

I'm so proud of both you of you, you have NO IDEA.. World, meet My mommy and my daddy, the two most outstanding people in my life. They've inspired me so much to see that life is hard, but nevertheless you still 'fight' :)

I dare you to Dream big! 8)

lalalalalove,

Melissa :D

2008-06-02T19:12:00.002+08:00

Hahaha! Oh man! Yesterday, i made it to the blogging box. But nothing was touched. Well actually, i typed one line and then that's it. Been really busy with a lot of things. Even my blogging mood is slipping away. :P Hahaha. It's either that or i really don't know what to talk about. My business has been wrapped around school, my devotional time, issues and everything else. And i've honestly never been any busier in my life! There was Exams, Acts' Big Day, School, Magazine, songs, God.. man everything that makes my life so exciting. I've learned and been learning at the same time, to live life out of it. To really appreciate every single moment of your life like there's no tomorrow. But honestly, things feel very confusing now. HAHA. It's like half good and bad for some reason. I DON'T KNOW! HAHAHA. Sometimes i just think about too many things at a time, that i can't focus on one thing. But i'll sort things out, that's for sure. (: As much as i want everything to be fine and easy, i still need to face it that things aren't gonna be easy. I hate that fact but that's just life. But that makes it all exciting anyways. (: I've got my God, what more could i ever ask for?

jas, i miss you man.
MEL, i miss you so much too fishamazoto (oops, i think i changed it again!)
bev, i'll see you soon :) heehaaa!!

i miss Acts so much. seriously.

michelles.

Jesus, i pray so hard that You don't pass me by. If it is Your will, please take these away from me. ONLY According to Your will, God. No one else.

overcoming it.

2008-05-28T18:15:00.003+08:00

The truth is, its so hard. I've told myself over and over again, that it won't affect me, but in the end it does. I'm so sick and tired of it, i just turned to God. He told me to get rid of the past. At first i thought to myself i can't do this on my own, i don't know why...even when i'm OVER IT.

Today, i got rid of it. Well i didn't do it myself, but i told my mom about my continous nightmares, eating disorders and a lack of concentration, i also informed her about what God told me to do. She gathered all the things, and not even a thought she got burnt EVERYTHING. You have no idea how great i feel right now, the peace that i've been lacking ever since the nightmares. I'm over it completely. Jesus is my freedom, He is the Solution, He loves me more than my parents, He wants the best for me. How is it that i can believe in something that i don't see? It's the faith.

We have to face it, even if we're followers of Christ... Life is still hard, but with the God we find things much more possible than without Him. We're still human, we fall into things like love and what not. I just want to encourage you that God has that special person for you out there, and he's planned it ALL out man, so i learnt a long time a ago when Ling preached a message about something like this, and she said not to 'experiment' with God.

People have told me that their really amazed at how i could handle things like this. It's not me, it' s God. I realised that i can't do it without Him. (L) oh my my my. (:

Another day, Another problem, Overcomed! I.M.POSSIBLE!!

2008-05-23T18:32:00.003+08:00

CHELLE (like where are you?!)

okay, so Mich was meant to blog yesterday night, but she was busy doing something else, i can't stand the look of our blog looking so dead so yeah!!!!

Her exams are overrrrrrrrrr and mine are just never ending! i've finished...

English lang
Music
Chinese listening
Chinese reading
Maths paper 1
Business paper 1

yep! overall, all were... so far so good, except for maths :( i have to work REAL hard on paper 2 to get least a B yo! at least push my marks up a bit! Right now i have no papers for a week, till June, gotta take advantage of the 1 week break to study everything else! so far i have 8 more papers to go, im considered lucky man compared to others who have 11? or more than that! :S

anyhoots, my birthday was good, pictures are on www.xanga.com/smelly_butt if your one of those who only visits a blog for pictures :p ( haha im not saying thats wrong, i do that sometimes too =x) My days have been passing really fast because of all the revision and all the hOOhA! Thank you uber much to Euodia for tutoring me mad! She can really teach man! i think even better than some of my teachers. :)

Well this week we're launching the 3rd service on Sunday! it'll be our YOUTH service :D (i'm excited for that!) :O! We'll still be having our Acts meetings on fridays if im not mistaken however its just going to be foundation classes going on. So yep! I miss everyone back in Acts!! haven't seen them in AGESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

oh yeah have i mentioned that my finger nails are getting too long!!! their causing my typos (now i know how Rowena feels) hahahahaah Well i just got back from Business exam and i'm beat. I want to take a shower but then i wanna enjoy whats left of the weather toooo~ oh wellzah!

Well thank you all for making this 17 th birthday for me a memorable one! i loved the little suprises that i didn't expect. Special thanks to my friends in school and Yvonne, Jo and Bernard!! for suprising me :) much much much MUCHHHHH love, hehe..

HAHAHA :) messing arounddd during studyy~

WAAAA Sakai :p

oh btw, my mom talked to me about photography as a minor :O when i go back to singapore.

maylee (:

2008-05-01T21:28:00.002+08:00

CHELLE.

oh beautiful wonderful chelle, your so gonna get it from me when i see you man! but thank you for the sweet post below the OH SO *ahem* picture. you crack me up man!

i'll miss em moments but surely i'll come back and for definate there will be more! hahaha i swear man michelle here can be the LAMEST person on the face of this earth, she comes up wit the craziest ideas ever, thats why she cracks me up. Always there for me to text and wait for like 19854091 days for her to reply, if she had a car she'd come visit me :) thats how special i am to her! anyways, i just wanted to add a post to you know 'thank' you!

love,

meliSARS.

2008-05-01T19:53:00.004+08:00

VERY THE BALI!
I hereby present to you, the..person-who-looks-like-one-who-reacts-slow-when-slapped MELISSA LEE! Who happens to be promoting the facial product she's used. Haahahahhahahah! And while at it, she grew a beard! :) Mafia man! HAHAHA.

I've been *coughs* forced to write something about this woman! Hahaha! Haven't i done this like a couple of times? HAHA. Anyways, yeah. She's grown over the years. Shaped and disciplined by God. Makes her seem so perfect. (Right) :P HAHAHA. But she's this really really awesome girl with an awesome personality serving an awesome God! She can be so lame at times but i forgive her for that. ;) I think its safe to say that we went a long way back. From the hi and bye buddies to actually being really close. Hahaha, all those really random moments and names we'd have and come up with! The EMPIRE moments. It's something that i'd definitely keep in my heart man. HAHAHA. And who happens to be leaving for Singapore REALLY soon! HAHA. I'll definitely miss you! Haha but at the same time ecstatically excited for you and what God is going to do through you! God's going to ZOOM you into a future you could never imagine it to be. So much thrill and life awaits you. ;) We've GOT TO KEEP in touch man. Hahaha! Like on everything. HAHAHA. My Sponbob. Thank you for all the lame moments as well as, on the more serious side, all the support you've always been giving me. Truly a daughter of God. Never fails to win the heart of God in so many ways. Can't wait to see you grow dude. May God bless you abundantly in all areas of your life. To live a life of prosperity through Christ! Really reminds me of the parable of the mustard seed where it may seem so small at first, but as it begins to grow..it's gonna be HUGE! :D HAHA THAT WILL BE YOU MAN! God's going to carry you all the way. :) HEHA! Awu eh. Awsomely blessed to have you as a friend dear! :) And now i leave you all with the end results of the freakingly awkward yet cool picture earlier. :) HAHAHA.

love, michelles.

2008-04-28T21:27:00.003+08:00

woahwoahwaoh!

(: hey guys, things have been packing up with the exams, and what nots. Prom audtions are this week if im not wrong, and hopefully me and bils will be doing something. hehe we haven't even practised, but itsokayyyyy~

Well, i won't be going to the Hillsongs Conference after all, personal finance issues at home, but itsokay, i know there are still many opportunites :) Besides that, i just got the news that i have no where to stay right now in Singapore when i return, so mommy is going back there for 5 days to settle my 'apartment?' 8).... HEHEHE The thing is i have no one to share it with, like when my mom comes back... so yeah. But i believed that God's gonna take care of all of that... Mom's told me to get some things packed for her to bring back so that i don't have to carry a whole load back when i leave~ So been choosing the certain clothes and stuff (books * ahem *, guitar, piano HAHA ) so on and so forth. I'm really excited about it, can't wait to meet new and interesting people. I know Singapore ain't that far from Brunei and stuff, but its most definately a new enviroment to adjust to, like com'on; time over there is like 'CHOP CHOP' and the drivers...However, I'll be leaving my home, daddyyy, friends, my bed. :(, but i'll certainly come back for the holidays.

I can't wait to take 'Public Transport' again~ i remember my 3 years there, it was so much fun hanging with friends after school and taking bus and MRT rides ANYWHERE! :D unlike here in Brunei where you really have to depend on cars. I know the competition in Laselle is hard, i could sense it when i walked in, but i know i'm gonna have fun. Its what i've worked for, and what i'm so proud of! so ALL THE WAY BABY hehehe.

I'll be attending Heart of God Church, its been like i think 7 years? or less since i last been there. I can't wait to get plugged in and ready to meet the challenges ahead! Hopefully when i'm in Singapore i'll meet up with Bernard, Joyce, ling and Jeremy, it'd be nice. (: Then of course theres the shopping which i have to control... oh and yes have i mentioned? I have to work haha, its going to be busy busyy bussssyyy... but you know this will be my first time 'working' as in like a proper JOB.

Exams are in like 2 weeks, or so. Some people have exams this Friday (goodluck!) First exam is English Lang (for meeeeee). Which i'm 'okay' in. Aiming for an A, since i've been getting Bs. Well i hope everyones doing fine, and Von if your reading this Miss You dude! hope your having a good time. See you Wednesday!

Emerson!

love,

mel

2008-04-22T22:37:00.005+08:00

this was just days before.

Rae, even though we've moved houses. I think about you a whole lot, the times we fight over the the stupid tv, having dinner infront of the TV, tomyam challenges, you singing me to bed, faking sick just to make me a birthday cake, oprah freaks, i love and i miss you. I know you can hear me, right now the day you left, that exact feeling is hitting me again, yeah it hurts, and i've let go of you, i just miss you. I know thats alright right?

this much, so much, i love you.

2008-04-21T20:24:00.002+08:00

Hello bello! Kind of reminds me of Jelly Bellies. Hmm. (AHAHA Mel, popcorn flavour..uhh :P) Anyways, i'm serious running out of things to even blog about. Hahaha School was fine today. Was still pretty wiped out from yesterday's hectic schedule but it got a little better in the later morning! BUT AGAIN, things got slightly heavy in the afternoon. I was bothered with a lot of things. Well actually not that much, just two things. But the pressure kept pushing me harder and harder. I didn't feel so good. It kept bothering me the whole afternoon that i couldn't get myself to focus on studying. I was so so so desperate for an answer then. I needed an answer from God. Honestly, this is seriously the first time i've ever had so so much compassion over a friend. I mean, i'm not saying like i've never had on my other friends. I did but this one just feels really different. What the amazing thing is i'm not even close to that friend. I believe this is really what the passion for other people is all about. Having this great unexplainable compassion over the person that you'd wreck your brains out just to help him/her. So i was having my supposedly afternoon quiet time. I was all prepared and ready after singing a few songs and all, i was so ready to talk to God and everything until...........my mom came in to my room. NICE RIGHT?!?! She wanted me to do something. I was honestly annoyed but yeah i just sucked air in and did what she asked me to do. Then i continued my quiet time. It felt good. It's one of those moments when desperation calls out loud and you'd do anything. I felt that way. I really really needed Him to guide me. My heart was heavy and was carrying a load i knew i couldn't carry on my own. I decided to release it into His hands again.

And how i was telling Him that i wasn't gonna go anywhere until i hear Him. So in the stillness, i waited on Him. It didn't take very long for Him to answer me. He started encouraging me, even led me to the Word to confirm that it's clearly what He wants me to do.

That's what i get for trusting Him. HAHAHAHA WHICH IS GREAT! I just love my Creator so much! Knowing that i can always rely on Him. Reminding me again and again of how He'll carry me through times like these. I'm just so in love with Him man! His kindness will never depart from us. :) rawr! LOVE LOVE!

michelles.

2008-04-17T19:42:00.002+08:00

Oh happy day! Like, hello! :D I've been great! I mean, not all that great on the pressure of all the work, meetings, projects.. whatever. They kept coming and my head was full of junk. And knowing that times when all these happens, we get weak. But i remember 2 days ago if i'm not mistaken, i was really swamped with homework, (i couldn't even finish some of them) i was in my room just doing and doing my work while listening to music (I HEART REVOLUTION ♥) so i was doing and doing.. then i just stopped. I felt myself drawing more and more to the music and suddenly i found Him. I began to sing along and my heart followed. I felt His presence flowing into my humble little room. When i was suppose to be doing my work, i stopped and just worshipped Him. Then i just started praying and talking to Him about everything. As i talked to Him about everything, i started to release the weight off my shoulders. It just really reminded me of what Derek told me about you know, everything that we do, do and release into God's hands. No matter what it is, studying, just doing something you're talented at..everything. That's exactly what i did. And i felt way way lighter. SO much better. Really highlights the verse that i just recently love which is

Romans 8:14 :"As many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are Sons of God."

Really reminds me from time to time, that i have a God where when times are hard, and i feel that i really can't go on or make it through, He's gonna carry me through it! Because i am His daughter! (: Given a beautiful promise that He will always be there to carry me through it all if only I do one thing. Release. So many times we have problems in life, where we either panic or push it aside. They add more weight to our hearts. But God is always more than willing to take it from us if we’re willing to ask Him to do so. :D I just really wanna encourage you guys out there, probably reading this, when you’re facing difficult times, to learn to trust in God, to release it into His hands. But of course when you do that, you don’t do nothing right? HAHA. I mean like take for example, your studies. You don’t just say to God, “Okay God, I’m gonna just leave it all into Your hands!” and really leave it all to Him and not study at all. No way, God will help you! Haha! When you leave something in His hands, it means you also have to do your part. To study what you can but at the same time trust God that He will help you! :D AWESOME? YES? YES! hahahHHA!

Okay, I don’t have much time now. SO I’LL BLOG AGAIN SOON! :D LOVE YOU DUDES!

michelles.

2008-04-14T19:38:00.006+08:00

Psalm 23

i remember learning this verse in last years freshwinds.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, ^[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

I really love that last line. ' i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever '. Anyway, this will probably be one of my last posts before i head off to the 3months of revision and exams! So i'm sorry readers but nothing from me till after that. But i'll promise you a long blog today.

Its been alright so far!! Ling, Jeremy and Alex left today. :( Going to miss all of them. Ling and Jeremy have set great examples of leaders in Acts and i've learnt so much from them, even though im not SUPERDUPER close, but yeah. Their going to do great stuff in Singapore, and hopefully when i'm there i can meet up with them sometime :) And Alex!! i've only known him well like for 1 month? Hes really good to talk to, and a great encourager! I'll see him in July when i go for Hillsongs! :D

Through the couple of days, i've learnt a lot during my quiet time and from the TDJakes CDs i listen in the car on the way to school with my mom. That feeling of recieving the Word in the morning i tell you is so re-freshing and it really prepares you for your day ahead :) I love how the Bible relates to us in every single way and how ALL the solutions are in a book, with a great garuntee that you'll be able to get out of any situations or approach a situation the right way! I've also sang random worship songs in the early hours and felt the presence of God fall upon me, when i laugh histerically cus we all know we serve a funny God. full of JOY. And there are those times where i simply break down and cry because i feel so grateful that He gave all for me. We hear it all the time ' the Son of God died for you ' but when you really dwell on that, you open up to see theres more than just that. The meaning and purpose behind it. just wow.

I've been quite tired lately, waking up around 2 to study and do my homework because i find it easier that way. So yep, i've got to practise for my Chinese Orals which are tomorrow and yes i'm scared to the ends of the earth, but i'm going to have fun with it :) - makes it a whole lot easier yo!

Well, i would like to dedicate this post to.... MICHELLE!

Suprised? Haha, i wanna thank you for everything man! like through all that i've done you've always been there supporting me with powerful verses, and all :) When things just go wrong and i have doubtful thinking man i come to you first other than God, cus i know you'll always have a verse or just something encouraging to say, and it does make my day way way way better. I miss those days last year when we were much much much free, where we would talk endlessly on MSN (SAD I KNOW), but we'd shared great things together, and the inspiring things i find in her are just so incrediable HAHA it sounds like my perfect mate (EWW..) but yeah, one awesome person here guys! The lyrics that i read in your 'song book' were so touching and so powerful again. :) Those prayer times, where we'd just randomly say ' OKAY LETS PRAY! ' and right there and then, we would pray, would it be on MSN or over the phone.

You made my believe in prayers more and more, the persistance you had with me. I could've not thank you more. I hope your getting well! and Goodluck with the million and one things your doing! :) i know your superduperspongebobpatrickbob busyyy, so yep.

Well i hope post is long enough! i got to go now, revise for Chinese orals! i'll leave you with a few more pictures before i head off!

oh and before i forget...

there goes the hairrrrrr

much love,

Melissa

2008-03-31T19:08:00.004+08:00

Hello! :D Hahaha i'm actually on a study break. After 4 solid hours of nothing but maths. Okay it was kind of like homework but at the same time i was revising. Hahaha really wanna get into the habit to study. I think i'm actually making a progress. Praise God! And also this morning, i found my shakespear topic that i've misplaced over the holidays in my pencilcase (yes, all these time its been there.) And almost the whole morning at home, i was wondering how i'd tell Mrs.Manik about it. So i just snapped out of it and tell myself that i'd trust God. HAHA at first like i was just sitting in my seat staring inside my pencil case for fun. Then deep down inside my pencil case (my pencil case isn't even big) i saw this white paper. Then i immediately knew it was the paper. I was so shocked. AHH! God is amazing yo!

Every single day, i find myself hungry for more of God's Word. And really, i think this is the first time, in 1 year and something months since i've given my life to Christ, i've ever felt so hungry for more of His Word. I begin to love the Holy Spirit more too who apparently is the best teacher and guide in life. It is such an amazing feeling! Getting inspired by people like Stephen (He gave his life for the gospel), Paul (AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME ministry) and Jesus Himself (for being the greatest sacrifice for us and His ministry as well). Completely inspired! And feeling this way, i'm really starting to encourage my members in newGen to build their lives on the Word. And i'm really proud of them. A lot of them spend time with God daily, or 5 times, 2 times or even once a week. This morning i just encouraged them to keep pressing on and to keep spending time with Him. OH MAN! And i just realised..its been 1 year plus already since i've given my life to God. Feels really quick! Don't know why. I didn't know it was already that long man. And those years are just flashing before my eyes right now. I've changed so much. From a nobody to actually being someone. Though there were the many times where i fell and felt dry but that's where i get disciplined and trained. I'll never regret this life no matter how many times you ask. :P Hahaha Life is awesome! :D Oh banana! I might just explode into one. Hmm... :)

love,

michelles.

2008-03-28T19:41:00.005+08:00

THE TEMPTATION TO TESTIFY OF HIS FAVOUR :D

HEY GUYS! ROCK YOUR WORLD CONFERENCE was DA BOMB! It was seriously 'ROCKING', haha i had loads of fun with my group 'BLACKHAWKS!' i know we didn't win we came in 3rd and there were a couple of times we were leading, anyhoo! Well done to the Wild Hogs for being champions, their finale was awesome man! We're ALL CHAMPIONS! :D Joel Feebrey was awesome, like chelle said an awesome man of God, so young and so hawt. hahahahahaha THE ENCOUTER with God was amazing. and we all know that it doesn't stop there but its just the beginning yoh! As Michelle has mention in her blog already, that.... I GOT ACCEPTED INTO LASELLE! :D oh man this is a testimonayyy i have to share with all you readers! its worth the read trust me!

Around feb, i took a trip down with my dad to take a look at the school (Laselle school of arts), i was nervous as i entered the place, it was filled with so much life, from the music to the paintings to the designs of clothing and the art of dance. AND of course the awesome building! Many people were there either listening to the band playing or just having a look see. I went into the admissions and asked the lady for a application form. I didn't have my passport photo and IC which they really needed. I gave them all i had which were my MOCK results (which weren't really THAT good) and my certificates of piano grade 1 and voice grade 4. After applying, the lady scheduled me for an audition on MARCH 13th. I was told that i had to prepare 3 pieces, 1 original composition and 2 other songs. So i went back to Brunei, excited! I told Teacher Sharon about the audition and what i had to prepare, so we got to work IMMEDIATELY.

Not long, i fell really ill (oh my gosh i remember this), i caught the common cold that was going around and dreaded each morning with blocknose and sleepyness. To top it all off, i had courseworks that were dued in a week! :O! i told myself that this is too much i have to go to GOD, so i did. AND MAN!!!! After praying in my room, i slept like a baby and woke up EXCITED for my LONG AND PACKED day. My voice came back thankfully in time to practise. I composed a piece that reflected how that really 'ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE THROUGH CHRIST WHO SRENGTHENS US!'

So i was ready and i headed back to Singapore on the 12th of March. I wasn't feeling too well again. However i CHOSE not to think about my sickness. It got pretty worse and my voice began to 'go' during the practise i had with my accompanist in Laselle. I submitted myself unto God and told Him that i'm doing this to glorify Him, and that i can't do it on my own. I had a goodnights rest and woke up on the day of my Audition!

13th March 9.00am, i arrived at Laselle and registered myself. We were esscorted to the room where the auditions were going to take place! I recieved messages wishing me goodluck and everything (THANK YOU TO EVERYONE WHO DID!). When it came to my turn, i faced the teachers with confidence and sang my heart out as though i was singing to God. Although my pitching was a bit off, i smiled and continues singing. When they called me in for individual interview, they said stuff like 'You're still very young...', ' there's still room for improvment...' , ' You've got good potential'. I was very unsure of what they were trying to tell me. I told my dad everything after, flew back that night alone FOR THE FIRST TIME ahahaha, and i felt so much at ease that it was going to be taken care of.

I doubt it a couple of times, but God always came through for me! PRAISE GOD! that i, Melissa who was very sick and small in size( don't know what thats got to do with it but!), got accepted by Laselle School of Arts! I was so happy when my dad rang me up during the conference before praise and worship, and said ' Darling, you got into Laselle! ', i was in shock for awhile. I didn't really react only after the session!

God above it all! :) Thank you for all the 'congratulations!' :D but most of all THANK YOU JESUS!!!!!

I learnt so much! and i hope you readers see that God is just so amazing, its not a religion anymore man! Its a relationship with the most loving caring father ever!!!!! AMEN?!

Sadly, i don't have any pictures from camp. I forgot to bring my camera ( yes for 3 days ). Superduper sorry but i'm sure LOADS of people tooks pictures that you can visit them! :) but OVERALL man the presence of GOD was really there. It was mind-blowing, eye opening, hair- standing, firework explosions! everything! AMAZING.

the colour change - not much changeee x) anyhoojers, i'll update soon! school in how many days? :)

Take care readers!

2008-03-27T13:39:00.004+08:00

Okay i should just do this fast. HAHAHAHA. I mean like the blogging box thingoz has been blank for the past 1 hour. So i better just snap out of what i was doing. WELL OKAY! Just came back from Acts 29's Rock Your World conference yesterday. It was awesome. Like REALLY, i didn't want to leave the place at all. Joel Feebrey was just INSANELY amazing. Very very awesome speaker at such a young age and hot too. Hmm. Just a compliment. And...oh yeah!

A big thank you to all those who prayed for me! sooo soo much! Both at the conference and at one of the services. Thank you for all your concerns and for caring too. People come up to me countless of times asking me the same thing,"Are you okay?" I honestly got a little annoyed but sorry! Never meant that. :P But really, like thanks so much for being concerned. :) I don't have to go to the doctor now. Cause i'm fine. :) PRAISE GOD! Seriously. Like all these time, He's been right there with me.. all the way. There was a period of time back then, where i felt dry and couldn't get myself to connect with Him. But still He was there. I remembered what He said to me at the conference. Very clearly. I'll take care of you. When i was scared about the whole going to the doctors thingoz. Telling me to just trust Him. That really shows a Father's love man. I'm so in love with Saviour! Okay back to the conference. The phototaking session at the end was funny. Especially the poses Joel made. OH MY GOSH! I was laughing. Will be seeing him on friday again. CAN'T WAIT! :) Overall, life has really been amazing. After that long period of being dry and pushing hard to get out of it, i'm finally free. :) God is always faithful and merciful to anyone and everyone who is just willing to set things right in life. :) And loves us all the way. Everyone. :D Amazing yes? WOOSH! CONGRATS TO MEL WHO GOT INTO LASELLE (whatever the spelling is :P) MUSIC SCHOOL! Knew it right from the start you'd get in. ;) Glory to God yo! And all the best to Bernard, who is on his way to Singapore soon. Well he's going somewhere else first. If i'm not mistaken, it's Labuan. :P Really believe in you man. Thanks for all the crazy times and transport and cheering up and lame lame LAME jokes and support! A very enthusiastic, awesome man of God! I believe that one day, he's gonna be a history-maker. :) LOVE YOU BERNARD! Gonna miss you!

Rawr. ROCK YOUR WORLD YO! ;D

love,

michelles.

John 14:13-14 (New King James Version)

13 And whatever you ask in My name, that I will do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.

14 If you ask[a] anything in My name, I will do it.

2008-03-14T20:38:00.008+08:00

Friendship

What do you do when things go seriously out of hand? When no one listens to you anymore, when you get boyfriend/girlfriend and suddenly 'they' are all your about. Where do your friends go?

I realised so much after today. No, nothing happened to day. (NODRAMA! haha) I was just thinking about how as Christians, we have to really watch what we say because once we're born again, the devil attacks us the most. This is when we fall into sin. Anyway going off point...Among out group of friends, things were getting a bit confusing. We, even me approached it the totally wrong way. The Holy Spirit convited me today because of the things i said that i shouldnt have. After all, Loving God is all about Loving People AMEN?!

AUDITIONS!

I came back yesterday night at 11pm. Was really tired and i travelled alone for the first time, wasn't too bad ahahah. Auditions went alright... I was nervous but i had fun with my auditions. The teachers said that my pitch was a bit off and i have good potential. So i'm waiting for the letter - to find out whether or not im accepted!

www.c28.com ~ so creative!

anyway, camps around the corner!! i can't wait for it, so excited of the hand of God move during this camp! we're believing for 150 people to come. ROCK YOUR WORLD! the camp leaflet design was the bomb michelle! goooooddd jobzah! :D and yes i hope your feeling better. I haven't seen you in a longgggggggmonggggtime :P

anyway as for me, thats ittt! :D

2008-03-10T21:05:00.004+08:00

HELLO!! Hahaha, oh gosh. It felt like years since i've last blogged. Yes, mel are you happy now? IM UPDATING! :P Okay like, first of all.. yes i've been busy with the tests and stuffs. Honestly, i didn't do too well for my Maths and Malay and all. But its okay. Like BEV said to me, that failures in life happens so that we can be better! And i agree with that. :D I've been really packed AND AM gonna be packed. Especially for the Youth conference Acts will be having. Im really REALLY excited. Everything's gonna be freaking awesome! :D And is that Raspberry Mentos Dragees thingoz i see below! HAHA I LOVE THOSE! I have---well, HAD them but its all gone. Left with lemon flavour. RAWR! Okay whatever. HAHA, well, lots of things have been going on. Not too good. But i don't think i want to go any further with this. Things weren't just happening right but that's okay. I mean like, it's okay to fall. Not that i'm taking that for granted. But yea, there are times, even being a Christian, we have our times where we just fall to the ground. These are the times where things aren't easy at all. But i won't let this grab the life out of me at all. These things are just like little pythons in your life where they'd squeeze the breath out of you till there aren't any more to live on. That's how the pythons kill their prey. And the breath in us represents the spirit of God. Or basically or relationship of God or anything to do with Him at all. It's said to see so many lives taken away that way. Many did. Oh wells. :S OKAY ON A LIGHTER NOTE, mel and i were just .. you know.. looking into the future what we would be like 44 or 43 years later. Having a reunion in empire. Doing the things we did before or never got to do like eat ice cream. (forgot why we couldn't order them)

can you just imagine us doing this 44 years from now? I don't think our legs would bend that way anymore. Actually, i don't think our legs would even lift off the ground. :P

Mel, what fun we shall have then. :) All the sun tanning, block of wood stuffoz, jacuzzi! ;)

michelles.

2008-03-01T21:06:00.003+08:00

HeyHEYHEYYY readers!

This is probably going to be my last blog, till maybe before i leave to Singapore for my Auditions. So i'll make it last!

Well today, i went for my Theory exam! it was alright, hard but alright. I was developing a 'stress-fever' before the exam. For all of you who know me, i get 'red-cheeked' and feverish when im nervous or stressed. I met up with Wan Shing, to my suprise i didn't know that she took organ. So yep! i found it real funny though, because i think most of us in the room finished the paper within an hour. Most of us wanted to leave, but we were just waiting for one person to hand in their paper and go first. ahahahahha so Eventually after 1hour and 15minutes, one person did. Then CHAIN-REACTION! right after that everyone started handing in their papers and i think the room was cleared after 5minutes. HAhaha.

Anyway, after that i went to visit Aunty Choo and Uncle Choo, as Uncle Choo's sister had passed away and we just went to pay our respecs. But from what i heard, Uncle Choo's sister accepted Christ before she had gone to be with the Lord. Not just once but twice. She had even said ' i want to become a christian.' Wow. praise God! :) Had a short prayer before we left.

After that, i went for Composition Class back at Neoclassics. I have FINISHED MY PIECE. It has no title at the moment. Lyrics, melody and structure is COMPLETE! :D so i'm glad thats done. I just have to practise that and my ballad with Teacher Mark and hopefully find my 'up-beat' song soon~ If anyone has any ideas please feel free to drop them into our tagboard! thank you! I'm pretty nervous about the whole Audition now, though it feels far away its less than 2 weeks away. I hope what i've prepared will 'blow them away' :P AHaha (did you fart? cus i'm blown away!) I had a super long day, been out from 9.45am - 7.30pm. I was a bit tired just now, got some food into my system so i'm alll gooodd and full!

Acts was real good, we watched a 30minute video on Hillsongs mission for 2008! Wow. And we also watched a Sermon from Hillsongs. It mainly talked about the things that teenagers are exposed to nowadays and how we've got to stand strong to fight temptations and peer pressure. All of that was symbolized in the bible as the 'python', this is because unlike any other snake, the python's way of killing is to squeeze the very last breath out of its victim. So take smoking as a habit, if you smoke the python begins to wrap around you when a friend approaches you to try smoking, peer pressure. Then when you try smoking, the python starts to coil you - with each cigarette you smoke. Then when it finally comes, where your starting to have troubles breathing because of smoking, the python has already squeezed most of your breath out. You'll then begin to feel weak. Breath Symbolizes the Spirit of God. Don't let Pythons in your life take that away :)

All about Honouring our King, Loving people! :) cherrioh readers, till next time! takecare! :)

2008-02-23T20:21:00.005+08:00

GIVE ME ONEEE MOMENT IN TIMEEE~

My voice is going soon and my speakers aren't working!!!! -_______-' anyway, my auditions are on the 13th of March, and im half way done with my composition piece. I haven't found my 'upbeat' song yet, and i've settled with One Moment in Time for my ballad. :D. The song is real hard to sing, and to make things worse i can't listen to Whitney Housten sing it on YouTube becauseeee my speakers aren't working :( ( OH THE HORROR ) .

On the lighter note, TOMORROWS AFC'S 6th BIRTHDAY!!! Been having dance practises with the little kids from PLK, screaming at them to stay still ahahaha, but im really impress they could learn the whole dance within 1 week! Thats why me and Charlotte will be treating them to Pizza and Icecream (thats if we can) hehe. I haven't gone to Acts in ages :(, and i really miss it! But i shall be returning next friday! I'm feeling much muchhhh better today :D, PRAYER and medicine work real fast!

I learnt alot through me being real sick this time. For the 2 days when i was sick, i really had no energy and i just wanted to sleep the day away. I was grumpy and i let the flu get the best of me. So i'm SUPER sorry if i treated anyone badly. I was real mad at myself that i was getting sicker each day and i didn't really take into thought about prayer. I totally forgot about it. Then on the 3rd day of my sickness (by this time i was sooooo tired, restless and annoyed), while showering i was convited by the Holy Spirit all of a sudden. Just one word, 'humble'. Peace and assurance just filled my bathroom (ahahahah) and i cried. I told God that i was so sorry and i asked for forgivness straight away. I know by now you would have thought that i got better right? Total opposite!

On thursday morning i went to school, noseblock free and fever down! but towards the end of the day, i started to get stomaches and at the end of the day, i vommited. I didn't just vomit blood, but i threw up blood as well. It scared the Chickendaylights out of me i tell you. I just spent time praying in tongues, hoping that it wasn't anything. The next day, a lump appeared on my head near my neck. I told my mom and she said she'll bring me to the doctor at the end of the day. I was meant to go for dance practise with the kids (friday), however i vommited 4times in school, and my mom picked me up early to see the doctor. By then i was exhausted and all i could do was just pray.

Went for my check up at the doctors, i was scared as what! But Praise God, the Doctor said that the lump was nothing serious it was just a reaction due to my sickness and that i'll go away when my infection goes away!! Praise God!!!

Dearest rae,

The suara came out not a few days ago and the theme for it was JIS'S 10th Birthday. Before it came out, i receievd an email about asking me to write in it, since i've been in JIS for that long :). I was excited but somehow they didn't follow up with me after a few replies. I wondered why, but when i saw the suara, most of the articles done by those who have studied in JIS since 1997, have brothers and sisters who are overseas now. They talked about their siblings and all. I guess it would've been real hard to write about what happened. Yours friends like Yvonne and Sam wrote about their years in JIS, it was so nice to read about them. Oh gosh i miss you so much... i'm turning 17 soon rae, you'd be the big 20 this year. You'd be in University, and i'd be... i dont know actually. I wonder about the sillest things really, like how you would have grown and looked like now. More like mom or dad? Hahaha. We'd have great laughs remember? getting gum stuck in our hair when we were small and stupid ahahaha. Play pathetic games like 'kidnapping' where we tie each other up and time how long we could get out, and our reason? to train if we ever got kidnapped! ahahahah. We'd play cooking, shopping etc... I rememeber we went swimming at mabohai with daddy you'd teach me 'freestyle' and get so annoyed with me cause i couldn't breathe and move my arms at the same time ahahah. These SMALL TINY VAGUE memories i have with you, are gonna live with me forever. I still think about you and it hasn't hit me yet, it'll take time. I still think your sleeping over your friends place... I love you, jie.

because HE deserves the BEST. :)

2008-02-19T18:08:00.005+08:00

Oh ma gash, mel, after so long, YOU FINALLY appeared! :P Hahaha, i almost gave up. HAHAHA. Right, just kidding. Today was a great day with the little little breakthrough that has happened. Like, praying for my friend to come to school. She did. A few of us were really worried for her and all. Because she usually comes early but after a certain incident, we didn't think she would make it today. But she did. If you're ever reading this, we love you and know that. :) You know who you are. Weehehehe! Thank you for all the wishes and hugs and whatsoever! I seriously don't feel like I'm 16 but i'll get use to it. Been really busy as usual. Lots and lots of homework. Most of them are completing incomplete ones but yea. It's all good. Really glad to at least get some things off my back! The valentine's day event (this was really fun), projects, homework, blah blah blah. I don't have any homework today so i can finally do some studying tonight. And i got something i really wanted last week. A new heart. Something i've been struggling to get ever since the year began. Being a leader of something, really makes me realize how much i need God. As this phrase echoes in my head, that through God, we can accomplish anything. So after times of struggling, it's finally done! :D Acts last friday was awesome. The message was short, simple yet so powerful. We were given this paper heart. Then Ps.Ling talked about the things that have hurt us in the past or recently. And if any were related to what we've been through, we'd tear off a bit of the paper heart. The little emotional wounds buried and sewn to our hearts. Rejection. Abuse. Peer pressure. Loneliness. Whatever. These little things could crush our hearts to pieces. As i tore of bits and bits off my paper heart, i began to realise how small it was. I realised i was hurt by so many things. Maybe not as small as some others but it was never the size i expected. I think the deadliest one i've suffered was loneliness. What it almost led to before was just so pathetic. I mean i wasn't too WOAH. Because i knew my Saviour. But it wasn't loneliness. I just needed my focus back. That passion i once had. A clean heart. That was all i needed. So i ran to the altar. I was so tired i just surrendered it all to God once again. I was so tired of holding the load, the load that over and over i have tried to give but it just won't reach. It was great. (: And when we went back to our seat, we found a red paper stuck underneath our seat. On it was drawn a new heart. And every single heart has a personalized message on it. Mine said 'Superbly unique one and only.' :D

Our hearts have been broken by so many little things in this world. How fragile a heart is sometimes. People all around the world has definitely faced the storms of their lives and thinking that there will never ever be a cure to them. But they're wrong. :) We do have a Healer. Our God. Father. He's the one that truly unites a heart back together. He's like the plaster or tape that holds it back together. By the blood shed on the Cross by His Son Jesus, we are healed. It's not just the diseases but our broken hearts. God's love and mercy is indeed immeasurable. No one can love you more than He can. :) People come and go, but God has an eternity with you. :) It's proven over and over again, through testimonies, through the Word, that He will never leave nor forsake us. No matter what :).

Amazing, no? :D

Okay, i totally need to study! :D Toodlesbanoodles!

Mel, you're so much smellier than onions! Wahahaaahhahahahaahhahahahaha.....kill me if you can. Oh wait. You can. You do know where i live. Darn. :(

michelles.

2008-02-17T20:30:00.028+08:00

and... i'm back!

Hey readers!!! Sorry the lack of updates... Been really busy with coursework and studies. Before i start my OH SO VERY LONGGGG BLOGGG (with pictures :D), i just want to wish Michelle a very...

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!!! :D

Love you to bits!!! sorry i didn't message you at 12, i know many people did. But thank you so much for everything, you've been an amazing blessing to me! hehe..

Okay the UPDATE!

Things have been A.OK so far. I went to singapore to see my school, and it went well. Submitted my application form, and my results etc... and they gave me a audition date. So i'm working towards that. I'm a bit terrified about it, but i'm just giving it to God. Singapore was also a good trip because i got to spend time with my dad, and my old friends. Laughed, shopped and ate alot! of course its singapore!

yep those are pictures of my school, Laselle. It just blew my mind when i stepped foot into that place. I met up with one of my old friends Denise and her sister Delia. It was great we went to bugis street and DAYMM it was crowded. Shopped alot! and we took neoprints! Shes posted them over to me, i'm just waiting for them now. hehe

Miss 'em times alreadyy ahahahaha anyway, i also went to visit my sisters grave, to do some cleaning up. We got to get more colourful pebbles for RE-FILL haha. :) Miss you rae.

I must say, i really do look like my dad. Got his nose. ahahaha. We went to visit my dad's aunt, shes staying at home right now, and i was really happy to see her. Even though she use to steal things from me and my sister and claimed it hers, i knew it was because she was sick so yeah.

Okay now these are just random pictures from my trip! enjoy...

WWWMTD? HAHAHA 8)

dinner @ airport

i (L) you! daddddddy :D

taxii rideeeeeee

THERE WAS SWIMMING CLASS GOING ON DOWNSTAIRS! :O!

And that ladies and gentleman, concludes my blog. HAHA NAH just joking. I've got more pictures. :)

Before i went to singapore i think, me, charlotte, karen, jess, asha, dra went bowling and swimming @ empire just to chill after the mock exams. :)

and now, random pictures that are in my camera alright? :P

Okay, i'm getting kinda tired of uploading pictures, plus its ALOT OF pictures to go through, so i'm sorry this is it for today. :) i'll post again when i'm free.

Updates:

- Grade 5 theory exam 1st March!!!!
- Laselle Auditions 14th March!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Acts29 Youth camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Foods coursework deadline 14th March!!!!!!!
- Music coursework deadline 7th March!!!!!

i think thats about it? for now, i can't really recall much. LOADSA things going on. and to add on, i'm sick at the moment, got the CNY BUG. Apparently thats what their calling. Flu, fever and cough. But i'm still up, not really thinking about me being sick, but about how I'm not going to be soon! Because i serve a God that heals AMEN? I know being sick makes you feel so weak and tired, i feel that and to add on, i have tuition almost everyday now. But i keep thinking to myself, everythings going to be alright, because at the end of the day, when i sleep i think about How GREAT my God is that he helped me through today. When i was almost on my knees feeling weak and all.

Keep praying, keep loving, keep on running, because the reward at the end of the race, is something that'll be worth every effort you made :)

Godbless!

2008-01-31T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hosanna.

I wonder what would it have been like or what would have happened, if i didn't obey You. Just as we were about to take the wrong step, You warned me not to take it. Indeed You are amazing. Perhaps, THINGS would have happened if we didn't change our minds. I really wouldn't know what i'd do without You in my life. A million thanks, and it goes on. And also how important it is to have your godly friends WITH YOU wherever you go. Times when you don't know what to do, you can always turn to them so that we'd figure it out together with God. Awesome! I thank God for placing such people in my life. I got to hang out with friends today which i have not done in SUCH A LONG TIME! Been so busy with everything. We planned, and planned but never worked out. But all of a sudden today, we just did.

I don't know where did i go right to actually deserve so much from You. But again, that's love. Real love. What's best is that YOU are the love that NEVER runs dry. It all began when you CHOSE to think of us first. No force, but with a willing heart indeed. And how You sent Your only Son, Jesus Christ who was put to shame just for the sake of bringing hope into the world. That's just how much You cared for us. You thought of others. To give us a second chance to live a life so pleasing in Your eyes. Yet you only ask for one thing. A relationship with us. To be part of this one life we live. So many times we've taken You for granted in so many ways, but still You look at us with love, compassion, giving us countless and countless of chances that even if it took eternity, we can never thank You enough. That's the love that we need to give to every ends of this earth. We want to look at this world through Your eyes. Your ways. Filled with love, forgiveness and compassion over people. We wanna be more like You. Indeed, we wanna be the salt and light in this world. To raise a generation whose hearts are all out for You. As we gather, with one heart, worshipping one God. I pray that the passion, the fire..spreads. Let it overflow through this whole earth. And also that we continue to live a life for others just like You did. To give people what the world is made up of. Prayer, time, love, help. If there was ever a time where i took You for granted, oh God, i'm sorry. Times when i've hurt You. Times when i've forgotten You. I'm sorry. How i can be so stubborn at times, but You're always putting up with me. But again, You love undeserving people. You hate sin but love the sinners. No one else could ever compare to You. So with all that i am, i give it to You. So many find it hard to believe that You are real because they can't see You. Seeing is believing. But it's the other way around. Believing is seeing. As we begin to believe that You are real, You start to show Your wonders, great power. It still amazes me how You're only asking one thing from us. But then again, You are God. Words aren't enough to tell of Your greatness. Immeasurable. As we hold on to You in this crazy crazy world, i pray for our focus to be on You and only You. As we bring people closer to You, its your name that's to be glorified. Not ours. So let our lives be pointed directly at You. Be mirrors. Reflectors. Warriors for You. (:

so much more i could say. But to sum up the feelings and thoughts that fills my mind right now, i've came up with what i wanted to say.

i love You so much.

You're really all i need now and forever. Sometimes i just feel like disconnecting myself away from everything to go into that secret place where only you and i can go. Just for a while. To just stay quietly in Your arms to feel what it's like being just face to face with You. To sit down and laugh with you non-stop about the most randomest things in the world. I honestly will know that, i wouldn't know what to say when that really happens. :P But you know, that's just me. HAHAAHAHAHA. But even if i did, You'd know exactly what i want to say.

have i ever told You how amazing You are? :)

THANK YOU FOR THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE AND MORE TO COME! :) I give it to You.

That was seriously a moment. Where i just wanted to post things that are in my heart right now. Sometimes when we're overloaded, we're just so in need of a direction. A way. How we just wanna get away from everything. But then again, life isn't full of roses. Even being a Christian, things get tough. But we can't always stay in our comfort zone and enjoy ourselves all the time. We'd never learn or grow. So i say, don't give up hope! For Hope never gives up on you. (:

michelles.

2008-01-27T17:50:00.000+08:00

HEY COOL PEOPLE! Okay, i'm just here to drop ANOTHER quick one. (Even i know that it wouldn't be THAT quick as it ends up pretty long all the time.) Yes, as Mel is happily enjoying her break off from studies, i'm going insane over it now. I guess its my turn. :P Seriously, the homework never ends. I mean if it isn't many, it will be LONG LONG ones. Specifically, economics. Like there is only 1 question with like, 4 parts broken down. The answers are like for 101003012010102010192101 questions i tell you. Ugh. - -" Everything's been fine. Except for what happened like a yesterday morning. But it's okay. NOT A BIG DEAL AT ALL. It really made me realise that i needed feed myself more and more with God's Word. ANYWAYS, really excited for things to come. Been planning lots of interesting things to keep in prayer. New Gen has been awesome. Been growing and will keep growing! God has blessed us with a new room to hold it. :) Indeed people will come flowing in quickly! :D:D OKAY IM REALLY STRUGGLING TO END THIS! :S:S:S! Which i shall now. I'm sorry if this isn't proper but i really should be getting back to my work. But like yea, i'll update soon enough. MEL, i miss you still. HAHAHA. :) you take caree dude. AS WELL AS EVERYONE ELSE!

indeed nothing is too hard for You

2008-01-25T20:51:00.000+08:00

How Great is Our God.

Hey everyone! My exams are Over, but i have the 'REAL DEAL' exam in the month of May and June. The papers i did over the week, were... hard. It was expected because our teachers told us that they'll be harder than the actual Os to just prepare us. So yep, i found Maths paper 1 hard and Business 2. I struggled in Chinese as well, i felt alright with English. I'm just going to keep my grades in prayer, and if i Don't get my A's, theres always the Real exam to do extremely well! :) but hopefully the grades i get for my mocks will show signs of improvement hehe.

Well today, the NEWGEN group suprised Yvonne (eban) for her 17th Birthday, and i must say i'm proud of myself that i was able to keep the secret in long enough! hehe. It was allllll goooodd Happy 17th Birthday again Von! I hope you like the suprise. It didn't hit me that it was the last day of exams, until the end of Acts service ahahah yes yes i'm happy that their all over and i thank God that he helped me through it man! So cool i remember during my english paper i was stuck because i had to remember quotes on a questions, so i kept my COOL and just talked to God and he helped me remember the quotes just like that! Just so amazing, he gave me the strength to absorb everything was cool was cool!

For now i'm taking the weekend off, to just chill~ catch up on my sleep hehe. God's power is really moving in JIS. Its just so indescribable, breathtaking. Our NewGenGroup started with 2 people by the drain just praying. God answered and it increased to 5 people then 2 weeks later, it increased to 11 people and soon to be 12! Praise God! Presson! hehehehe Take the stand to reach out, be the one to lead those who are lost. Don't be a follower but LEADER. AMEN?! We've gotta keep on rising with FAITH and PRAYER then we'll see BREAKTHROUGH!!! believe me. What else could we ever ask for? Than the Favour of God, His love and blessing that we're heading in the RIGHT direction. He just wants the BEST FOR US.

When something begins to grow...

into something special...

its those times where we want to hold on to... :)

The weirdest things...

I find the most funniest...

When we make the decision to set our hearts for the ones we love...

To share the Love we found thats beyond this world...

to hold onto memories when we leave...

we'll always remember...

the gift we all have...

to laugh

To go beyond our limits and win

to love

to care

to look and find

to walk, to fall to get up to run to fight to breathe to fly beyond because when we make it, our reward will be so much worth it.

i go speechless.

2008-01-18T21:56:00.000+08:00

Its in your Hands.

!

YES! exams are just in 2days. i'm excited but nervous at the same time hehe. I want to get it done and get the Grades that are just going to make me crumble down like "APPLE CRUMBLE!" (which is a good thing!) hehe. Well updates, I've been studying and sick for the past week? Homeworks, and 'lastminute' topics to cram in lessons! Basically, its been tiring but alright!

Today me and my parents had a meeting with my head of year, Mr. Airdre about further studies. Talking about Laselle and what are the grades i need to get to 'get into' the school. Basically at least 5 Gcse grades C and above. i'm still aiming for my 4A*s and the rest As! Not gonna limit myself man! :D So I gotta do reallyyyyyyyyyyyyy well in the mocks! because Laselle will be taking those results first to pre-admit me? something like that. I'm going to singapore in Feb, because theres an 'openday' to let new students 'roam' around, talk to the teachers and to get more info! Then yep....

So thats studies... How do you spend your quiet times? I tried SO MANY ways till i finally found one that suits me and that i can have a fixed TIME, PLACE, PATTERN! hehe. I do it around 11pm at night, i start of by singing songs of worship and praise, its really true that when it comes down to praise and worship, its not about the music or the people around you. Its all about Jesus. Anyway after that, i begin to pray in tongues and talk to God like a friend tell him about my day (even though i know he knows what happened). I laugh sometimes and cry sometimes, and i pray for the things i need to. Then if God leads me to a verse i look it up, if not i read the book of John (still on it hehe), somehow i just don't want to say 'amen' in my prayer, because it feels like i end it there hahaha, so i just continue to talk to Him, turn off my lights and talk to him till i actually doze to sleep...

These were the days, when we had our GCSE exams at night? hehe

When it comes down to describing HOW amazing YOU are, i go speechless.

2008-01-15T20:06:00.001+08:00

Hey! I'm here just to drop a quick post. I realized that i've been going in and out of blogger hoping to post something up but never did. I'd always stop halfway through and close the browser leaving just a draft which looks totally awkward in the list of posts. :P Why that happens? No idea. First, i'd be all enthusiastic to blog and all then lose it in just a few minutes. Weirdness. There's just been so many things happening that i just can't find a way to get it all together. There's been school and tuition and homeworks, a project which i still am completely blur about (the teacher talked about it but i did not really understand what she was talking about.) - -" , designing so many things and ahhh..whatever! I'm really still in the process of just getting it all back together. Still in the process of getting this sentence in my head that in everything i do and am doing, I'm doing it for Jesus. And all that. It makes me feel a lot better and light as i keep that in mind. It stole lots of my time that i hardly have the time to just update myself with friends i really miss and all. Like Mel and Von and Bev and lots more. I really miss seeing and talking to them like super duper much! And it felt like a week ago since i've spoken to them and all! Except for Von, but i talked to her for only a few minutes then we had to go and stuff. And i'm gonna have to go soon to continue doing my homework. :P HAHA. But all the same, i still love the same God. It's never gonna change. The same God who's been with me and always will be. So faithful and amazing. I really don't know what i'd do without Him here with me. And i'd have no one to turn to and all. That's just insane.

Now that i've mentioned it. Its making me feel more pumped up to do a whole lot of reaching out to people. I want people to have Someone to turn to when they're not feeling right. I want people to really have Someone to love and at the same time knows that He loves them back. I want them to carry the Solution with them wherever they go. To have an amazing journey with our God. To make them see that a Christian life is more than staying in the four walls of the church, wearing nun-outfits and whatever. We're not 'square' but whether people like it or not, we're gonna spread ourselves all over. (: I just wish i could just grab them all at once and yea. I bet every Christians out there would feel that way too. When you're so desperate to see people saved, that's just how you would feel sometimes. But it's okay. I want to wait on my God and see what He has to say. (:

Mel, i miss you dude. I really don't know what's been going on and all but we'll catch up yes? :) Bali bali!~ And all the best to your exams yea! You can totally do it! :D:D:D! And here is your 'something to read.' :P

and that concludes your 'something to read.'

michelles.

2008-01-04T21:42:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

I just got back from HuaHo, went there with my parents to do marketting. My dads the weirdest yet the cutest person i've ever met i think, my mom too. I tickled her and she didn't react, so i asked her why she wasnt ticklish, and she said 'its because i'm not afraid of my husband' i didn't get it, but some how i found it funny.

Anyway, readers i'll be going on Haitus for awhile because i've got some revision to do! yepyep.

Acts was really great today, our first session for 2008! Although there weren't many people there, praise and worship was just so powerful! We sung so loudly so dynamically. Gods presence was ushered in so quickly. Well Done Worship team!! Schools starting soon! in threeee more days and i can't wait actually, but obviously we gotta get serious! ahahah but at the same time have fun! The more we hate exams the harder its gonna be to deal with it. I'm also wondering if they re-painted the orange buildings, like crazy man they re-paint it every year!! i think if they go any brighter, i'll go blind!

Newyears:

pictures - from yvonne :)

I can't wait for school!!!!!

the beginning of year 10 :O! 2006? september?!

AH EUODIA I MISS YOU!

MR THIN! :D

Business :) 06?

oh man i'm gonna miss you steph!

i must say the colour of the sky looks so pretty :)

' LETS TAKE A PICTURE FASTER ' ( this is the result.) i think we were in a rush or something ahahaha

photo day.

the long lushes hair. :)

EUODIA!!! :D

the night where were just a tiny bit high ahaha :)

SEE YOU ALL mondayyyyyyyyy~ (:

2008-01-01T22:06:00.000+08:00

i like shoes you like beans!
i dont know what kind of beans!
but you told me jellybeans!
So i like shoes..YOU LIKE JELLYBEANS!!

could i get anymore lamer? :S
But mel, these silly songs could be big someday, okay.

just wait.

2008-01-01T21:12:00.000+08:00

Welcome two zero zero eight!

There isn't much difference, i feel the same. ahahaha i guess its the same feeling when you turn another year old, sometimes you just don't feel different. But Yesterdays celebration was the bomb! i had loads of fun. During the countdown i think i was zoned out. I wasn't thinking about 10,9,8,7,6,5,... until everyone screamed HAPPY NEW YEAR! I was a bit slow on that.

Well the year 2007 was a good year! full of lessons learned! and great memories made. Nows time for a new year filled with more challenges to get through! I have to continue my studies, still got quite alot to get through (: but the one i dread the most is reading Lord Of the Flies. Its so long. But i guess we gotta learn to love it to deal with it!

Like Chelle, even though i know that school's going to be really stressing, im excited to go back. I miss classes and teachers. Odd no? But yeah. I miss the canteens chicken pieeeeeee :D But theres is deep desperation of seeing God's power in my school thats not going away and its so strong. We got to fight for the ones we love ? :)

In 2007:

i kinda re-met? This awesome friend that has the power of prayer and encouragement, shes so funny and she laughs at everything! she throws powerful verses at me when i'm have a blueeeee day. :)

CHELLE!

Laughed more than ever with her, she can sing and dance, ahaha yes. Another powerful person in prayer and knowing the Word! Talented and yes FUNNY. ahahahah and yes COOL. and shes looked out for me (:

BONBON!!!!!!!!!!

I teased her alot this year, and shes one great dancer. Shes helped me through alot of diffcult times, and we've laughed alot. even though i don't hang out with her that much in school, we always find the time to catch up!

STICK :) AKA CHARLOTTE!

I have other friends that i've gotten close to and many memories made! I can't wait for the exciting year to come! (; We are really blessed with amazing friends! (: Thank you all who've made this year a great year for me. but most of all, Thank you God, for the greatest gift, Life.

2007-12-31T16:25:00.000+08:00

There goes 2007! HELLO 2008! A new chapter of our lives has finally unfolded! :P I can't wait man! A new year, which somehow feels like a new life with God. Yesterday we had our New Year's Eve Celebration! It was awesome! :) HAHA the countdown was really great. We were really REALLY hyped up. It was such an amazing night and also to spend New Year's Eve with AFC! We really felt like a family. Awesome! Someone performed! :P HAHAHA Mel, you did REALLY REALLY well. Very proud of you. Me and Char were screaming our heads off. Well, kind of. BUT YEA, all that worrying for nothing. Apakan! It was all great, until i couldn't find Bernard after the celebration. He went somewhere. But at that time, we didn't know. So me and my brother waited for a while and all. But still wasn't there. So Darren's mom offered us a ride home. :) I slept around 2. Was reading my Bible for a little while. I really enjoyed the celebration man. HAHA. Wishing lots of people happy new year. People who have made 2007 a memorable year for me and others as well. :) AWESOME MAN! HAHA, i keep thinking about the time when Ling hugged me. HAHA HER AFRO WAS HU--HU---GEEEE!!!! So bushy man. HAHA. But she's an awesome person! She's always encouraging me and all that. Funky! WOO! Anyways, i don't really have much to talk about..now. HAHAHA But there is school tomorrow! :) HAHA! I've asked a lot of people if they are excited. Most of them said no. :P But for me, i'm pretty excited! I mean it sucks waking up early and all. But, i think there's a lot to look forward to and all. SO YEA! :D:D:D OKAY, now i'm gonna leave you with some pictures. :O

2007-12-31T10:53:00.000+08:00

There's always a better way
there's always a bridge that needs crossings
there's always the straight and the narrow
the wide and the shallow
But I know that you're guiding me
and the best is yet to come
You've given me hope for tomorrow
and I know some day


I'll wake up to find
Your glory defined
and I will finally bow at your feet
I will lift up your name in honor and praise
when I cross over Jordan
I know that I'll be running home to you

It's always the simple things
it's always the obvious that crashes over me
It's always in front of me
it helps me to remember
this is what I live for
and I can't wait

there's never a question in your message
never a moment without your presence
there's never a doubt in my mind
that I'll

NEW YEARS EVE :D~

2007-12-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

When you find no way, look to God and He'll ALWAYS provide a way.

It's getting closer now, Exams. I'm on the way to finishing my revision. Jess and Charlotte sleptover yesterday, because we went Ms. Green's wedding, it was a fun. For once i went to a wedding thats not that Formal, you know like chinese weddings? they're really formal, and there are ceremonies, so yeah i got to experience something like the movies. Soyep.

I've been listening to really good songs from Youtube. I recommend : -

- Healer by planetshakers
- Made to worship - Chris Tomlin
- Lifesong - Casting Crowns

They boost me up with Faith everytime :D

I have come to a point where i've put my foot down to make a decision and right now i'm working on it! I feel great! The Joy of the Lord is my Strength! I really thought that i would just have 'this' feeling for one or two days, but i've been feeling great i think for 3weeks now, after i made a decision that i want to LIVE for GOD. It really has a meaning when you say that your devoted to God. Its not just saying it like saying 'hello', its making a commitment. So 3 weeks ago i felt so annoyed with myself, because i had ON and OFF feelings. So i put my FOOT DOWN and said to God wholeheartly 'I just want nothing more but to LIVE this LIFE all i have for YOU', because i knew that i couldn't do it on my own. So i surrendered. and ever since then, i've felt Joy and i feel as though somehow i've grown wiser to make MORE wiser decisions. I read in 1 Thessalonians 5, that we have to really Praise God in whatever situation, He'll see your Faith and Bless you. I didn't really think that was possible, till i gave it a shot, I used Gods word in my life. Like...

When i hit a situation with my parents, and i hear them fight and i cry. but then when i remember that verse, i beginning to sing songs like ' how great is our God ' and ' none but Jesus ' and really, the next thing you know my parents are not fighting their sortting it out like adults. They've grown so much closer now, that my dad is actually being "sweeter" to my mom (: which i find really cute ahahah. even though sometimes when my dad manjas to me, and i find it annoying i still find it so cute that he loves his 2 Girls that he has in his life. (: I'm sure he's beginning to feel the Love of God through me and my mommy (: After this, oh my gosh, i hunger for Gods word even more. Its like desperation and the feeling of knowing and remembering powerful verses to defend ureself in a crisis.

Try it, and you wont regret it :D

Tomorrow is New years eve! and Von's coming back
( HIIII VON IF YOUR READING THIS MISSING YOU MAN! :D )

Gonna spend New years with Agape (: my family. and of course daddy and mommy and sri are gonna be there too :D hehe. I'm dancing for Emerald combined with Acts29 and PLK ! hehe. Gonna be a fun nightttzzzzzzz (: the theme is FUNKY and COOL ahahahahaha so yes. you can imagine how crazy we're gonna get with what we're gonna wear.

2007-12-29T16:33:00.000+08:00

UNCONTAINABLE!

Divorces. I hate them. God hates divorces. Many stars and celebrities on the television changes husbands or wives like they are changing clothes. The media makes it look so easy. So normal. But behind the screen, there reality is. Many divorced each other with KIDS. I think what hurts the most is seeing the kids suffer. Especially when they are still really small but big enough to understand what was about to befall them yet they have to pretend that they don't understand. And not having a chance to say anything even as the separation really did happen. All they could do is cry. And they'd have to live without at least one of their parent. And it suddenly becomes an emotional wound. And start growing up the wrong way. And all that. It's so sad to see this happen. I truly wish divorce doesn't exist but whether i'd like it or not, it's still here and always will be. The only reason why divorces happen, is that.. they pick the wrong ones. Oh yeap, they pick the wrong ones. And how they pick the wrong ones is because of no guidance. We need God. See, as you give your life to Him, and as you being to grow deeper in God, He sends us someone. He is the Holy Spirit. He indeed guides us through this walk of life. Gives us confidence, love, faith...whatever. Again, as you grow deeper and deeper, it will be so easy to hear Him speaking to you. Stopping you from doing something that is wrong. Encouraging us whenever we are at our weakest. Well yea, but really all you kids out there, who have divorced parents, you know who you are, if any of you guys out there reading :P, feeling hopeless and broken and thinking you have no reason to live anymore. Dang, you are wrong.

Psalm 34:18
The LORD is near to those who have a broken heart,And saves such as have a contrite spirit.

And you are definitely not hopeless as in Jesus Christ, all hope is in Him. There is hope in Jesus Christ. Things may seem so hard to accept, but as you faithfully just give it all to Him and hang on to Him, breakthroughs will come to pass. :)

Isaiah 40:29-31
29 He gives strength to the weary

and increases the power of the weak.
30 Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;
31 but those who hope in the LORD

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

God may be all powerful, and perfect but really, all He wants is to have a relationship with us. Like daughters and sons. Princesses and princes. To be a Father to us, a best friend, a deliverer, a very present help in times of trouble, our comfort, our EVERYTHING. God never intended for divorces to happen. God never likes to hurt us. Instead it hurts Him to see us hurt too. God loves young people. Whatever religion, races, nationality, wherever you are, God loves us all the same. He wants to give us so much yet all we have to do is surrender our lives to Him. We don't have much to offer actually. But what we can do is, offer up our lives to the one and only God who OFFERED UP His Son to give His life FOR us. His one and only Son, Jesus Christ. Whether we have turned away from Him, whether you love or hate Him, He still loves you. Endlessly. :) Only a perfect God like Him could do that.

Trust me, no one can love you any more than He can. Even though He is not visible here, but He is indeed alive. In so many lives of those who love Him and obeys Him. In my life. :) And you know what? He could be in yours too. He's so so so so so willing to give you a life that you will never ever regret. No promises that it will be easy but it's worth it. What do you gain from all this? Hope. Love. Faith. Strength. Eternal life with Him.

TRUST ME, it's a lot of fun. :) HAHA.

2007-12-27T11:06:00.000+08:00

Good morning! :D I already miss the day I spend Christmas with AFC. It was awesome yo! Anyways, woke up today and straight away got on my guitar and started strumming to a song called Breathe. ;) Haha, I just felt so ready to just lay everything down once again to my one and only King. To focus on the one and only truth. That there is no greater love than His. No greater sacrifice than His. To live on this earth alone is like..hell. But to walk it through with Jesus, it's just awesome and i know that nothing in this world can ever tear us apart. Father and daughter. :)

Anyways, yesterday i was going through something really ugh. It was crazy. But the Holy Spirit kept telling me, "Guard your heart..guard your heart.." So i listened obviously. So i was fine the whole day. :) Where would i ever be without Him guiding me. Like, really. SO THAT WAS GOOD. Anyways, yesterday i was reading up more on the book of Acts. And it was pretty much about sacrificing our lives for the Gospel. So there is this guy named Stephen. A guy so full of faith and power. He did lots of miracles and signs among the people. So the priests, the "captain of the temple" and the elders..whatever. They all complained against him because he kept preaching after how many times they told him to stop. Well yea he didn't stop. Now, that's really a HUGE HUGE HUGE HUGE step of faith man. People back then would stone you to death or whip you or hit you with a pineapple .. okay just kidding about the last one but still, that's what they did! if you don't listen to them. But again, Stephen who was filled with the Holy Spirit, he went on doing it. Until like they got so fed up, they actually stoned him to death. I loved one of the verses.

Acts 8:55 : "But he (stephen), being full of the Holy Spirit, gazed into heaven and saw the Glory of God, and Jesus standing at the right hand of God.."

Acts 8:56: And said,"Look! I see the heavens opened and the Son of Man is standing at the right hand of God!"

Well yea, then the people got angry and stoned him. And before he died, he fell on his knees and cried out the most sweetest thing ever.
Acts 8:60 : Then he knelt down and cried out with a loud voice," Lord, do not charge them with this sin."

This guy definitely really follows after our Christ Jesus. I mean all the way, he lived his life out for God. And it's obviously not easy. And he was full of faith and power. Amd I can't even stay calm in the simplest situation ever. And the only reason why he could do this is all from God. I would love to be like Stephen. I KNOW I CAN! WOO! We CAN DO all THINGS through Christ!

indeed, my God is amazing and the sweetest Dad ever!
not a single day is any better without You in me.

VON! i can't believe i'm saying this but .. i miss you :( TAKE CARE OVER THERE KAYS! If you'd ever read this. Indeed a breakthrough will come to pass. I FEEL IT! and know it. :)

michelles.

2007-12-26T20:57:00.000+08:00

Indescribable - Chris Tomlin

From the highest of heights to the depths of the sea
Creation's revealing Your majesty
From the colors of fall to the fragrance of spring
Every creature unique in the song that it sings
All exclaiming

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God

Who has told every lightning bolt where it should go
Or seen heavenly storehouses laden with snow
Who imagined the sun and gives source to its light
Yet conceals it to bring us the coolness of night
None can fathom

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
All powerful, untamable,
Awestruck we fall to our knees as we humbly proclaim
You are amazing God
Indescribable, uncontainable,
You placed the stars in the sky and You know them by name.
You are amazing God
INCOMPARABLE, unchangeable
You see the depths of my heart and You love me the same
You are amazing God
You are amazing God

What more could we ever want, but the Love of the Creator of this world.

I had a wonderful Christmas with Church. I loved the atmosphered that covered that place, His presence was truely there. I know school's coming, and i haven't quite finished my revision i'm on my way. I don't really want to stress about it, because as much as i try to study and force everything into my brain its not going to work. So today i went over to Karen's to do our Music assignment and we finished it, except one question. then we rewarded ourselves by taking a walk down to huaho and filling ourselves with Jollibee and DQ :)... So people don't stress yourself by setting a study plan which is unrealistic okay? Do it in small chunks, and you'll get it done fo' sure.

So i spent my time on Godtube today, and watched a few videos...

I think teenagers are stubborn. Saying this because i am one. Even Christians are stubborn sometimes thats why we need GOD! Most of the time, we come to God because we are in of need, or we're broken and we want to feel whole again. Gods not just there for that. When we've invited him into our lives He becomes part of us. He wants to know when we're happy too. He is our Father and Bestest friend (cool to know that because He'll never let you down) And sometimes we Teenagers think we can do it all on our own and the funny thing is when we know we're gonna get hurt we still do it anyway. This is when the World gets in the way of us and God. I do this too sometimes, and realise afterwards and come before God to repent. Just recently i found that God is a God of Joy. He created Laughter. So i started to talk to God anytime of my day, about anything. I talk to him as my friend, i found by doing so, no matter how quiet the house is, i no longer feel lonely, which is an amazing feeling (:

oh and after watching one of the videos on Godtube i learnt that we got to use every opportunity to reach out to the ones we love, because one day when its too late, when we could have told them about Jesus and they would have known the TRUTH, they would have not perished in hell but live Eternally in Heaven with our Creator. I believe 2008 will be a Strong year of Salvation, i feel it.

God i just want to say i love you,
through everything i have done,
you have forgiven me,
through the death of your beloved son.

God i just want to say Thank you,
for the amazing things showed me,
the way you've open my heart,
to let me see.

God i just want to say You are Indescribable,
praised and honor goes to you,
i offer my life,
with everything i do.

God i just want to say You are Irreplacable,
our Creator your love is to the ends of the universe,
Please let me long for You,
hungry and thirst.

I humble before you King of Kings,
may i shine in Your Glory,
for all the things i've done wrong,
i come before you and Lord, i'm sorry.

Use me to your extent,
walk with me,
in You i'll be found,
in You i will be free.

okay that was a random poem, haven't been writting much poems lately, but hey i gave it a shot.

another item to go up onto my wall, thank you chelle~~
I kinda miss my old hair :), but definately miss em 2 :)

do not ask why i stuck tape on my face :)

byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :D ~

2007-12-24T18:49:00.000+08:00

In Your Name
There is hope when all seems lost
There is freedom in the power of the cross
Let the world see

(Verse 2)
In Your Name
There is truth where logic fails
Understanding that makes sense of our days
You Are Worthy

(Pre-Chorus)

Hear the song of all creation roar
We’re crying out as
OneTo You our God
Now show us the way of Your love
And we will come running

(Chorus)
All for Jesus’ name
Your love displayed
We are alive in the mystery
All for sinners’ gainYour life You gave
We’ll sing Your praise for eternity

(Verse 3)
In Your Name
There is mercy without end
Overtaking us now time and again
Let the world see

(Verse 4)
In Your Name
There is love that never fails
And the promise that Your word will prevail

(Pre-Chorus)
Hear the song of all creation roar
We’re crying out as
OneTo You our God
Now show us the way of Your love
And we will come running

Everything's gonna be alright. Yes, i was on the phone with Mel. I couldn't take it. I spent so much time looking out the window. Not daydreaming but brainstorming a solution. Somehow. But i knew it didn't feel right. Why was i doing it on my own? I kept telling myself, no i can't. I need God. I need You. I know i can't do it on my own. And it went on all afternoon. When it did, my head felt heavy. And i got tired. This is my first time, REALLY my first time, that i was too tired to even think. Cause it was just so important to me and all. I've thrown so many encouraging words at myself. But i felt it wasn't enough. I somehow think i'm being tested here. Okay i was in my brother's room when that happened and all. So yea from there, i went to my roomm and just got on my guitar and then i started just pouring it all out to Him. Then Mel messaged me and all. At first i was thinking of replying her after i finished. But instead i called her and told her everything. I was talking non-stop that i didn't really give Mel much of a chance to say anything. (sorry Mel) HAHA. So we got down to "business". Prayer. It made me so much better. And really, i just wanna put my hopes in God. Cause nothing is impossible through Him. I've read it and now i'm really gonna do it. It's just that times when it seems so impossible, there's always someone for us to rely and hope on. Jesus Christ, the Prince.. my saviour. :)

I may be facing something right now, but i'll never cease to rejoice in Him. I mean, we don't rejoice for the problem. That's just weird. But in the midst of the problem, i'll rejoice in Him. :) AMEN? amen. ;D

okay mel.. here is what you call..something to read. :P hahahaha.

2007-12-24T18:19:00.000+08:00

You have, come into my heart turn my life around, You have, make me something new, turn me upside down, i will never be the same, show me how to change, always will my heart be true, because i want to live for You!

Well Christmas is Tomorrow!!!

I just got off the phone with Chelle and she sounded like she couldn't breathe i swear, while i was eating lays. But she hit a problem and we had a small prayer together and expected worries went away! Praise God :) Both my and Chelle have a good feeling in our hearts that everythings gonna turn out alright!! When you pray for impossible prayers, God will see your faith and He'll do something about it!

okay i just burst our laughing for no apparent reason, and i feel God laughing along with me. Hes a God of Joy. Its so true when you ask it will be given.

HAAHAHHAAHAHHA IM LAUGHING LIKE NO TOMORROW.

The ' COW ' CHELLE AAHAHA

Christmas Cake :)

Okay the photoshoot begins here. " Daddy give me the face when...

You win the lottery!

on a rainy day!

When you got caught by the police!

When you meet Eric Clapton!

_____FIN____
HAHAHHAAHHAHAHA

I mangaged to get her to do a silly face!

I got my sillyness from the one and only!

one minute we're fighting, the next we're laughing our heads off.

Shes been there for us for 8years! and counting...
mel : SRI MANA KAMU!?!?
Silence
mel : SRI!!!!!!!
Sri : APAKAN!!!!
mel : MANA KAMU?!?!
Sri : saya pergi bandar.
HAHAHA Oh man i love her.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!

2007-12-19T17:58:00.000+08:00

Pictures - Copyright http://www.xanga.com/PaperFramePhoto

Lovely pictures :) visit her site sometime, she got skills yo! Well, i'm about to head out to huaho to go grocery shopping with my dad, i realised that i need to do shopping for my bathroom! i need a new shower curtain (my other one ripped according to my maid), i need shampoo and conditioner and body soap! I dont have any Christmas wishes except A Laptop and Boots :D, and of course the Walk with God :) anyway, I just came back from piano/voice lesson i didn't have my composition lesson, because i didn't sign up ahaha so i had a double voice and piano lesson! more of voice than piano acutally. anyway, Von had her first Singing lesson with Teacher Sharon and yep laughed alot obviously! I stayed because she wanted to send me home? something like that. so yah!

Tomorrow:

Worship practise
AFC christmas lunch
Tuition
Study!

Friday:

Acts 2-6pm
Study

Saturday:

Nativity play! woohoo!
study

Sunday:

Church
Study

thats my plan for the weeekkkzz!

BUSY BUSY BUSY! and JIS people
ESPECIALLY YEAR 11s!!! we have...

19DAYS TO STUDY!
so get studying! HAhahaah :)

cherrioh~

2007-12-18T18:45:00.000+08:00

Kata-junga-pipi-willow!

Good evening! ;D Haha i really didn't do much today but i did clean my room like the whole afternoon. Which was good cause it kept me busy and away of thinking of something. :P And also i HAD to clean it so i wouldn't be grounded. Because if i didn't clean it today, i wouldn't be able to go out this week. SO YEA! My room was full of dust bunnies and small teenie weenie bugs (ew.) But i cleared those out anyways. I really wish i could clear off that AWEFUL AWEFUL nail polish stain on the wall but it just won't come off anymore. :( Sucks i tell you. NEVER PUT NAIL POLISH ON YOUR BED! Ughs. My mistake. Hahaha.

*happily pours breadcrumbs into a bowl* Breaddddddddcrumbs! ... *accidentally spills* .... oops.

so random. HAHAHA. I saw that on Christmas Cooks on AFC Channel. I think there are gonna be lots of events coming up that i'm just so lost right now. HAHA okay, so let me figure it out now :

BBQ at my aunt's place. (unconfirmed)
20th - practise
21st - Acts
22nd - Nativity Play
25th - Christmas service

Insane! But it's cool. I can't wait. Christmas is around the corner. SO EXCITED! I've already got my christmas wish. That one christmas wish. <3Mel and Von knows it? Hahaha, if you don't remember, OH WELLS! :D HAHA. Okay, this is seriously gonna be short. But let me post something up just for fun yes? :) HAHA.

awesome, no?

michelles.

You’ve opened my eyes to the truth that there’s no greater love!

2007-12-17T13:32:00.000+08:00

So inlove with You.

Well i finally got the chance to listen to the song michelle blogged - Second Chance. It really shows that we should give EVERYTHING to God, BIG or small. We got to trust Him. I wasn't feeling all that good when i woke up this morning, had stuff on my mind. So i dragged myself off my bed and went online. Talked to Chelle about it and she kept throwing words of encouragement and verses to remind me that God is a God of everything.

Watch the video i posted, its really good it reminded me of how Gods love is just not any love you can find. Its a LOVE that never FAILS you. Like the song says ' how could greater love than this ever possibly exisit. ' Think about it. That God loves you so much that he gave his SON his precious Son to die for you. He sacrifised. Maybe we wouldn't know how it feels now, but imagine a parent giving up his Child for the World to Live. I'm sure it hurt God so much to see Jesus on that Cross nailed, in pain and humilated. He did that for YOU. I can't find any other words to express how much He loves you and whatever you've done in your life, He still loves you and NEVER wants to punish you. You can't say that God does not exisit, because God is in everything. Hes everywhere whether you believe in him or not. Your his Daughters and Sons.

When my sister died, i thought it was the END OF MY WORLD. But when i found the love of God i found 'hope'. And he assured me that Rachael was in a place of Peace and Joy. Thats when i began to run this life, all that i have after God. When you humble yourself before God, he will Exalt you. Things that were impossible before for you, will become possible! I give it all. I surrender, don't try to be a hero and say that you can handle 'life' on your own. Because we all that you can't do it on your own. You need Jesus.

My faith has Risen like never before... I believe.

ONE>>to>>Follow>>>>J!

Just stop and think.

2007-12-16T20:29:00.000+08:00

Amazing truely amazing. Chelle watch this okay!

[ EDIT ]

please listen to this to. :) HEHE!

Make up your mind Brunei!!

2007-12-16T13:18:00.001+08:00

The weather has been really annoying lately. Its either, blazing hot sun, tornado wind, raining tsunami or just cloudy haze. but oh well~

The lawas trip was one experience i must say :D, haven't taken a trip down in a van for 6hours in a LONG LONG time so yes good wake up call. Von decided to join us last minute and we began our journey down around 8 and arrived Lawas @ 2 if im not mistaken, can't really remember, we had lunch and went to the tallest building in Lawas, the hotel we were staying, Shangsan hotel. So after we settled down, me and Von took a nap because were so tired. and woke up hungry at around 5.30 ahahha we had to go down around 6.30 i think~ so yep. Service started at around 8, and the place started to fill in at 7.30pm. Praise God man i heard this morning at celebration service that around 150 people came and that was not all, there was going to be 40 more people but they didn't have transport. There were little babies, children, youths and adults all jammed up a place to recieve Gods word :D. I was really excited when we had to open up the 'overflow' room to allow more people to sit. Truely amazing. Around 50 people gave their lives to Jesus, and amoung the few, some wanted to get baptized! Was really a good experience. Unfortunately, the next morning Von being butter fingers dropped her phone down a lift hole 5 floors down to the bottom which was water mixed with oil. Don't worry we got it out amazingly :D with the determination of the people there Thank God! we were praying crazy and believing with faith that they would get the phone out!

Anyways, Yesterday after i came back, i took a nice shower and watched Grey's Anatomy, hehe so addicted to it now~ :D I slept around 11 something because i had to wake up today for morning service at 8. So yep, needed rest. But when i slept i had a nightmare which woke me up crying. I was on this ladder ( i dont know doing what ) then i was pushed off by someone and landed on my back, somehow i felt the pain in my dream and dang did it hurt :(. i was on the ground screaming in pain, and then by suprise someone grabbed me by my hair and then dragged me onto my feet, and i stood, the person then held a knfie to my throat. I was just praying and begging. Then i woke up in tears. I prayed and fell back to sleep. but apparently my back hurts right now, im having trouble to sit. so yeah~

Okay i have 1 minute, so i'm going to go now~ time to have a date with biology, chem, physics and food tech :D

have fun in XINJIAPO! :D

2007-12-13T16:24:00.000+08:00

randomness. :) Hahaha.

What was Your last thought?
As You drew Your last breath ..

Second Chance;

2007-12-13T10:03:00.000+08:00

You called my name, reached out your hand,
Restored my life, and I was redeemed,
The moment you entered my life,
Amazing grace, Christ gave that day,
My life was changed,
Went from my shoulders, fell the weight of my sin

Chorus

So it's with everything I am, I reach out for your hand,
The hope that changed a second chance I've gained,
On you I throw my life, casting all my fears aside,
How could greater love then this, ever possibly exist
Consume my thoughts, as I rest in you, I'm now in love, with a Saviour,
Bearing the marks of his love

Chorus x2

Bridge

So I wait upon you now,
With my hands released to you,
Where a little faiths enough,
To see mountains lifted move,
Yeah and I wait upon you now,
Dedicated to your will,
To this love that will remain,
A love that never fails

2007-12-12T11:24:00.000+08:00

Finally got the energy and mood to blog. Yesterday was really great. It was productive just like Mel said and fun as well. It's really true when we choose to glorify God even when you're just hanging out, God puts everything else in.

Romans 1:16 says that for I am not ashamed of the gospel because it is the power of God for the salvation of everyone who believes. The more i thought of it, i should really live out this lifestyle more often. I mean i myself know i am not ashamed of God's Word. But i hardly live it out. Yes, as Mel told you, i was "preaching" by the pool as i wasn't allowed to swim and all. Then those two came up to us. And then we talked about it. And it gave us that nice feeling inside. To know that we're doing something right. It was amazing. :)

Okay then we went to the gym. I hurt my arms. :S Sucks. HAHAHA. But it was good. I felt pumped up after working out. Then we went for dinner where mel got 9 mosquito bites. =D HAHAHA. Overall, it was a really memorable day. Both enjoyable and amazing how we still spent time with God even when we're having fun. :) AWESOMEZ!

this would have turned out cool if i didn't move my phone too fast. We look like we're fading away. :S

mel! :P

Lord..GIMMEAWORD!! :) except i didn't have that face expression. :D

Char! doing the same thing.

2007-12-12T10:44:00.000+08:00

Everlasting your light will shine when all else fades~

I was just thinking in bed for more or less 5minutes when i was awaken by my aircon just turning off for some reason. I was thinking about yesterday, when me, charlotte and michelle were at the poolside in empire and since michelle was not allowed to swim, she just brought her bible and sat at the steps. where me and charlotte were just swimming near her, so we had our 'devotionals' in the pool basically. It was interesting where michelle would read random verses from the bible and we'd say 'amen' in reply. Anyway when michelle read a particular verse i said amen. Then she burst out laughing telling me that i look like a fish. Not knowing that there were 2 adults overhearing our conversation, i said ' i just said amen and you call me a fish?! '. Right after that one lady came up to ask what we were doing, and we said we're just reading the bible, she then asked if we were doing it for study or for fun, we said for fun. Then she said ' i'm impressed '. me, charlotte and michelle discussed about this later on and we think that she said that because she would have never thought people would share the WORD OF GOD 1) in brunei and 2) in the pool hahahaa, and also that we were youths.

So basically what i thought about in my bed was that WE teenagers have so much power to impact adults with the things we choose to do. Because again its all about choices. Yesterday was a really productive day. We shared verses and prayed for people, all this under the sun yoh! :D it was a good time. We laughed crazily everywhere we went i think. Michelle, especially was fascinated by many things (A block of wood?!) so yeah basically we swam, had devotionals, prayed, worked out and ate :D.

Today its time to study yoh and actually im excited. I'm starting with Biology and probably music or foods. I'll be study after lunch till evening with breaks inbetween :) I can't wait to see the vision God gave me of 4A* and the rest As, i think i'd cry. When we submit to the Glory of God he will Shine his Glory through you. Nothing is impossible for our God! (luke 1:37)

Neverending, your Glory goes beyond all fame.

2007-12-11T11:51:00.000+08:00

look at it. LOOK AT IT.

i want a laptop so badly and not just any laptop but a White Apple Macbook. I remember my mom promised me a laptop as soon as i turned 15? but it never came, and i don't want to ask so yep :) i'll just wait... patiently :) anyway nothing much going on, except i'm going out with Charlotte and Michelle to empire later to supposly 'work out' ahaha. Something very interesting happened today ... i lost my camera charger urgh! first i overcharged it and it wont work then now i lost it after getting a new one.

1 John 3:21-22

James 1:12

the amazing things happen when prayer comes in, The Power of Prayer.

one to follow. J!

I will live to love You;

2007-12-11T10:31:00.000+08:00

GOOD MORNING! :) Thank God it's sunny! It's been raining and raining. I hope it doesn't rain today. I'm really high on the Christmas spirit now! I'm totally looking forward to it. I haven't really been doing much lately except sit at home and watch tv. But i realized that this week i'm gonna be a little busy and all.

Will be meeting up with Mel and Char in Empire later. I don't know what's gonna happen later but i have a feeling it's gonna be a really memorable day. :) It's so funny how close you get with people when they're about to leave. Like so soon. But i somehow think there is a reason behind this as there is to everything in life. God sets a time for everything, leaving a note of reason after it which we're going to have to find. But sometimes there are just things we're not meant to understand and only God will. But i thank God for friends like Mel and Char too whom i at least got to know a little better. :) I thank God for putting such friends into my life to walk me through this life in such a cold cold world. Obviously I know i can't live this life alone. Seriously, i can't live a day without God.

But things are going to change. It's not going to be about me anymore man. I've got what i want. I think it's time to reach out to those who are yet to feel the joy and the wonders of how it feels to have God in their lives. I figured out that the only reason why Jesus chose to come down to earth to die on the Cross for us was because He thought of us. He thought about OTHERS. As He went up the Cross..He saw us through His eyes. That's how precious we are to Him. Each of us as individuals are more than just a face in a crowd. God remembers each and everyone of us. It just sounds so impossible to people who obviously don't know Him YET. :) But our God is a God of Wonders. So perfect, omnipotent and just so wonderful that words aren't enough to describe Him. It is redemption's hour. I want to see my friends saved through the blood of Christ. Cleansed from the inside out. Just being able to experience the love of God and to witness the power of our God and to know that He has HUGE plans for us. Great plans, not to hurt us but great plans! :)

Never doubt what prayer can do. God hears you. :)

mel....HOMAGOSHYOURFACE! HAHAHA.

this perfect love i can't explain.

2007-12-08T09:55:00.000+08:00

YES...

Well, schools over and today was probably the first time in a very long time i could sleep in :). However i've got piano/voice later and im actually excited because i'm moving up a level in both subjects! which leads me to my results of my exam! I got DISTINCTIONS for both voice and piano!!! PRAISE GOD MAN! i couldn't have done it without him! i got 91/100 for piano and 92/100 for voice :) anyway! after piano/voice lessons today, i'll be heading to Jess's place to watch movie? and hang out? yes. and eat MUAHAHAHA

okay anyway, Freshwinds was just amazing, mindblowing, wake-up call :) Pastor Satish a powerful annointed man of God came to speak, and the WORD OF GOD that he implied on was really dynamic and i could just feel the presence of GOD flow amoung the congrigation. i'll blog more about his messages the next blog, because i've got loads of things to get through hehe. Yesterdays Acts message was really good! Ling preached about 'water' and 'purity' and having boy and girl relationships. Its true really when its not our time to get married or to be 'serious' in a relationship we shouldnt, because thats when the devil will bring people that will distrupt our walk with GOD and it really just wastes time. She talked about the holy spirit and how its EVERYWHERE we go, GODS presence is always there, so we can never escape it.

i didn't take that many pictures during freshwinds, sorry. but i can tell you i was too busy being in Gods presence to take out my camera and take pictures!

Well, during the last week of School, we had our last PALS session. Okay first, PALS is a group of year 11s that go to year 7 tutor groups on tuesday mornings before they start school and we talk to them, play games and 'bond' :), my tutor group was 7PG. Others that were helping in 7PG were, Charlotte, Jess, Dra and Cathie. So it was the 5 of us. We had so much fun with our tutor got to know them pretty well :) we had our last tuesday morning and we spent it by telling them how it was a pleasure to spend our tuesday mornings with them, and we'll see them around school next year. They made cards for each of us. i found that really sweet, mine said ' to mel, the best pal ever!!!' haahaha

and finally,

yesterday was HOUSE MUSIC FESTIVAL!!!!!! :) Sadly, blue came in 3rd, green in 2nd and red in 1st.

But we had a blast and a good LAST DAY, although it didn't feel like it.

believe it this is my maths class =)

WOOHOO, yes well thats all i've got! till next time :)

Be true,you fool :P

2007-12-07T19:47:00.000+08:00

Weee! Legs aren't tired. Really pumped up for Jesus. I love how He moves in me. I love how He moves in others. I love just the way He is. Reached AC2 by 12.40+ i think. It was great to see everyone back ..(with coloured hair. :O) Awesome! Everyone looked great with their super hoody jackets. HAHA. Did ushering and singing back up today. It was really last minute for me to sing and all. I never expected it until Derek called me in the studio. Hahaha. I thought he wanted me to be one of the ushers to keep out for the other sliding door of the studio or something. I had to replace Melvin because of his back being injured. I was like.. i don't know because i've been eating heck lots of candies lately. Can you just imagine the phlegm inside? ew. But i just reminded myself again who i was doing this for. So i sang back up for Jeremy. :) I really missed seeing Ling and Jeremy so it was great to see them back looking hip and funky. HAHA.

We played with a keyboard, acoustic guitar and sang. It was great. My voice wasn't perfect or was ever perfect at all but it was good considering how much sugar i ate for the past few days. BAD! Need to stop that. Hahahaha! The Word was awesome today. It was basically on thirst. How important WATER is. :P "Water." Hahahaha! Telling us that we need to read our POWERFUL BOOK! Which is the Bible, doh! And also to hang out with Jesus more! :) To avoid DEHYDRATION! Because He is the only one who can satisfy us. The Word came to life once and died for us. And now is still alive in the ones who feed on His word daily. :) I long to see God move in mighty ways in the hearts of young people and as well as people. And He's already started! AWESOME YO! And also Ling talked about having the fear of God in you. This fear is not the .. "thou shall not steal or you're going to get it from God!* Not that kind of fear. God is MERCIFUL. But to know the word of God. And to know His love. To follow Him.

Anyways, i'm so excited for Christmas. Lots of events coming up. Going to be busy busy busy! There are so many activities that i'm mixed up with all of them. HAHAHA. But i really can't wait. <3

Me : Mel! Mel! I've got something to tell you.
Mel : Yes? *concerned look*
Me : I...like....SHOES!!!!!

MEL! Let's work out until we get what we want. MUSCLES! HAHAHAHA. Let's make Char get muscles on her too. =9 HAHAHA.

HAHAHA, Mel, i just love talking to you. HAHAHHA!

michelles.

2007-12-01T16:28:00.000+08:00

Mel mel, i miss you man! Jabaliness! Hahaha, it's so weird not talking to you but i hope you're having fun there yea! Obviously learning lots of things! :) I can't wait to hear all about it man! I just came back from Soph's place like 57 minutes ago i think. HAHA. It was okay. But i got a little dizzy because we were ALL in the living room and everyone was talking at the same time. I just stuffed my head under lots of pillows. I think this whole holiday is great for me. Though i do suffer boredom at times but usually it's always being cured in the end. :P HAHAHA. To get myself together and to prepare myself for what's coming up next year and all.

oh christmas! (:

michelles.

2007-11-28T20:22:00.001+08:00

michelle. no other hope than hope in Jesus Christ! says:
JABALI HABALI HEY!
michelle. no other hope than hope in Jesus Christ! says:
DEEPAVALI
michelle. no other hope than hope in Jesus Christ! says:
JABALI JABALI JABALI HEY!
michelle. no other hope than hope in Jesus Christ! says:
HABALI DEEPAVALI!!!!
m ^ ; yes, You've won my heart (: (L) says:
HAHAAHHAAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

i find this chant completely absurd. :P HAHAHAHA. but i'd "chant" it to you anyways. HAAHA. EMPIRE YO! <3

michelles.

2007-11-28T18:21:00.001+08:00

Almighty God, the great I am
Immovable rock, omnipotent, powerful, awesome Lord
Victorious warrior, commanding King of Kings
Mighty conqueror, and the only time
the only time I ever saw Him run

CHORUS:
Was when He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise when God ran

The day I left home I knew I’d broken His heart
And I wondered then if things could ever be the same
Then one night I remembered His love for me
And down that dusty road ahead I could see
It was the only time – it was the only time I ever saw Him run

And then He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said,
“Son do you know I still love you?”
He caught me by surprise as He brought me to my knees
When God ran – I saw Him run to me

BRIDGE:
I was so ashamed, all alone and so far away
But now I know He’s been waiting for this day

I saw Him run to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice I felt His love for me again

He ran to me, He took me in His arms
Held my head to His chest, said “My son’s come home again”
Lifted my face, wiped the tears from my eyes
With forgiveness in His voice He said, “Son”, He called me Son
He said, “Son do you know I still love you?”
He ran to me and then I ran to Him
When God ran

for you, mel. (:

michelles.

2007-11-28T17:02:00.000+08:00

PHEW!

i had a hard afternoon, got some bottled emotions out of my system! ahaha, was feeling a bit grey after i got home from school but you know its all okay now :).

FRESHWINDS TOMORROW!!!!! but Trinity exams first! i just had my last and final practise with my teacher. ALL THE BEST TO ME :D

I'm getting a fever now, this happens after i've been crying so weird but yeah ah well i'm going to pack for freshwinds tonight and practise piano ALOT but not so much of voice because i need to give it a rest, if i practise too much i might loose my voice. :S thats no good...

Well i'm gonna miss CHELLE! while im gone, feel loved? ;). Don't worry if i had money i'll get you something from there! Missing 2 days of school to hear Gods impacting word is so worth it hehehe...

oh yeah more info about Pastor Chi, i promised :)

Well his testimony was mainly about him and his ministry in China. I found it mind-blowing. He had died nine times (okay let that sink in first)... and everytime he died, God brought him back to earth telling him that it wasn't his time to die. At the age of 9 he fell into a well and drowned, at the age of 16? i think he got run over by a machine... and other times consist of heartattacks, electric shocks. He too the faith to preach the word in China, but it got him persecuted and he was in jail for 5 years. During that 5 years he had a heart attack as well. But during one of his deaths, God brought him to Hell then to Heaven. He described hell as a painful place where souls were continously tortured, and he described heaven as a bright and beautiful place, he felt at home. He didn't want to return to earth, but an angel told him that it wasn't his time to die yet.

Thats basically it. We're praying for China to have the freedom to worship the freedom for those who desire and long to hear Gods word. and the more we pray the more our prayers are going to get answered. like Pastor Satish said, we don't just pray because the sake of praying, we pray for RESULTS and AMEN we're gonna see God move mightly in China!

:) I can't wait to hear the WORD God has prepared in Pastor Satish's heart to preach to the congrigation in Freshwinds, and i believe that many lives are going to experience breakthroughs! that Deep burn inside my heart i can feel the fire igniting and ingulfing into flames the desperation to see souls get saved in JIS! OH Gods gonna move mightly in JIS, i believe i see it and with faith, prayer and desperation we'll see it!

till next time! don't hold your peee :)

2007-11-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

hello readers :)

my tuesday started with a late morning wake up call from my mommy, me, jess and charlotte were really tired... i seriously didn't think i would last until the end of the day. Chelle sent me verses and Jess kept singing 'i will love the lord will all my heart etc...' and it cheered me up and yeah i headed for my day...

I just came back from Prayer Meeting and Dang so many things happened. We met Pastor Satish the Pastor that'll be speaking in Freshwinds and he talked for a bit, Man hes so COOL! and we also met a Pastor Chi from shanghai dude his testimony will blow your mind. i'll blog about it tomorrow because right now im exhausted and i need rest, but lets just say that he died 9 times and hes still here..

my trinity exams are in 2 days and im terrified i got my grade 1 piano piece mastered! :D and im ready to meet my examiner, mr wilkinson?.. i dont know if thats how you spell his name. but yah. I'll be seeing him twice on that day one at 9.12 for piano and one at 9.58 for voice!! :D im actually excited but nervous at the same time...

ah well, chelle posted like 3 times in a row, im really piled up with crazy chunks of work. But im really proud that i completed 7/9 things for my holiday homework :D

so till next time! Remember that With prayer anything's possible!

2007-11-27T14:58:00.000+08:00

You are the light

That's leading me

To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.

You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.

You are the light to my soul.

You are my purpose...you're everything.

2007-11-27T11:18:00.000+08:00

Such a cold morning! Good morning! Started my morning by reading my Bible. Was reading up on Saul and Samuel. How Saul got rejected as a king. One thing that really caught my eyes was when God said He REGRETTED. He actually regretted setting Saul up on the mission to kill the Amalekites. Well, this is the NKJ version. But still, for some reason, it just stunned me! I think regret is such a strong word. But it was pointed more to that word in some other versions. NIV used 'grieved'. It was so bad that He even regretted it. Saul disobeyed God by sparing King Agag of Amalek and some fat animals. Haha. Really, fatlings. Anyways, somehow when i read that sentence. 'the LORD regretted that He had made Saul king over Israel.' I felt that sadness there, sensing that God was really THAT hurt to have done that. After putting so much trust in Saul. Yes, there is only one thing God cannot control. Our will. He could if He wanted to, but if He did, we will be like robots. God gave us the freedom to choose. :) That's why in life, we have to make lots of decisions. Thats why when God tells us what to do or when we ask Him what to do, we'd always say, "Let Your will be done." What I'm trying to say is that, to go through this life with all the super jumbo decisions that are needed to make, the best solution is always led back to God. When we live in the way He wants us to live, He promises us a safe and exciting future. Not only that, He promises us undying love. The most AMAZING thing about it is that He will never stop loving you. It doesn't matter who you are, where you are .. whether you are a Christian or not. He will still love you. I love that.

This is how much God loved the world: He gave his Son, his one and only Son. And this is why: so that no one need be destroyed; by believing in him, anyone can have a whole and lasting life. God didn't go to all the trouble of sending his Son merely to point an accusing finger, telling the world how bad it was. He came to help, to put the world right again. Anyone who trusts in him is acquitted; anyone who refuses to trust him has long since been under the death sentence without knowing it. And why? Because of that person's failure to believe in the one-of-a-kind Son of God when introduced to him. JOHN 3:16

God LOVED the world this much. He was so passionate about the people that He actually gave something. Not just anything, but His son, Jesus. Now, Jesus, in his appearance was a human as well, for a father to lose his son, wouldn't that be SO painful? He gave something to us so dear. He could have chose to destroy the whole world and have the whole wide open space to Himself or something. But God, is never selfish. He thought of us. INFACT, He thought of us long before this world even began. We are all so precious..so priceless in His eyes. He chose not to but instead He gave US His son. One and ONLY son. So that we may be saved through His son, Jesus Christ. And He only asks us for one thing. Relationship. To have a relationship with Him. An imperfect human with a perfect God. What could be better than this? :)

You stole my heart.
How can i stand here with You and not be moved by You?
I don't regret what i have with You. <3>

michelles.

2007-11-25T21:31:00.000+08:00

The tide is turning
This is redemptions hour
In the midst of a world lost for love
You are all we have now
The lost returning
Salvation is all around
In the midst of the world broken down
You are all we have now
For You are God and this hope is ours

So Father open the skies
Flood the earth with Your light
This is love
To break the world indifferent

Our hearts are burning
A fire that won't burn out
In the midst of a world that's grown cold
You are all we have now
The earth resounding
The anthem of your reknown
As we lift up our eyes
and look to Your glory

Call us out
Let the world see
You are God
and this hope is ours
So call us out
Let the world see
You are God, as we sing

Father open the skies
Flood the earth with Your light
This is love
To break the world indifferent
As we lift up our eyes
Fill our hearts with Your fire
In a world of sin
We'll be different, the difference
so call us out
let the world see
You are God, and this hope is ours

Our eyes are open
Every chain now broken
In this world
We are different
Let Your love become us
As we live to make You famous
In this world
We are different
So call us out
Let the world see
You are God, as we sing

Father open the skies
Flood the earth with Your light
This is love
To break the world indifferent
As we lift up our eyes
Fill our hearts with Your fire
In a world of sin
We'll be different, the difference
so call us out
let the world see
You are God, One and only
In this world
You are all we have now

michelles.

2007-11-25T16:10:00.000+08:00

9 homeworks? BRING IT ON!

Well, i've done my business, foods, chinese and biology! :D that leaves 5 more to go? im taking a break at the moment. Yesterday was the last time i was allowed to go out and i luckily i had fun! Now its time to study... mocks are not that far away. anyway, when i came home from Karen and Charlottes dance performance at JP Ampitheater, my mom said that she was stuck in Limbang, cus the border closed at 10 so yeah, i wonder how i was going to do to church today. So i nicely asked my dad and he got a bit fustrated so yeah... Told me to stay at home to do my work. So i did and even though i missed the message i told God to help me do my work so that i can glorify him in the end. I felt so sad that i couldn't go to Church since yesterday night, but then the holy spirit convicted me and told me to obey my parents so i did.

I asked Von how the message was and she said it was good, and that'll she'll tell me later after dying her hair :) so i can't wait to hear it. PLUS i'll buy the audio CD next week. Freshwinds is in 4 dayyyyyyyyyyyyys! We're taking a bus down so.... ROADDD TRIPZZAH! oh i found out that im going to sing in Clement Chow's team for all his sessions! My first time man and i heard that his Praise and Worship Sessions are LONG :D

BUT BEFORE i can enjoy all that i have to go through a...

piano and vocal exam this thursday as well in the early morning hours...Piano is at 9.12am and vocal is at 9.53am, i'm pretty confident in piano hehe grade 1. but as for voice im a bit nervous. BUT i know that i'm going to do the best and i'm going to get the grade and im going use that to GLORIFY GOD :D

I would like to say, WELL DONE TO CHARLOTTE AND KAREN, I'm proud of you guys :) thats what i call glorifying GOD!

2007-11-22T12:17:00.000+08:00

Okay! i'm going out soon to p&w practicez! But i thank God for what happened today. :D

First, i was STRUGGLING to find transport to AC2. And i was running out of time. But then God, saved me once again. My brother was allowed to drive so he's going to send me there. Then Nard will be sending me home. :) THANK YOU BERNARD IF YOU ARE EVER GOING TO SEE THIS! :P Sorry for waking you up.

Second, I GOT A POSITION IN CLASS! Finally man! :P Well it isn't much but its just the 6Th position. HAHA. But still, I've been unplaced for almost the whole year except for the First Assessment Test. :D I'm really happy about it. Cause all i wanted was to go up to form 5. And now this! :P MY GOD IS AMAZING! :) <3

Okay, i need to go now. :D

toodlezo,
michelles.

2007-11-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

Im currently on www.freerice.com!

its really fun, helps your english alot and plus you help people! dang am i far behind :(. ahah well i'm just here to blog about my day, its been alrighty! my solo recording didn't go so well tho, my teacher said i could have done better, but whats done is done! and im feeling well better.

Next to come is my Trinity exams which is Next week, but i realise after Trinity Exams, i'll be off to FRESHWINDS! :D WOOHOO 29th November people @ imperial Hotel, miri! oh if there is anyone out there that would like to join let me know :D its from the 29th Nov - 2nd Dec! I can't wait for it so excited!!!

Well me and my mom had a quite unpleasent ride home because i asked the 'question' again. i've gotta try to ask during the right time, seriously now. I was having a very small quiet moment on my way home, then the mood changed after i got out of the car, like all the tension that built up just went away, i know who did that for me :)

Today..

ENGLISH TEACHER: whats the time Abdullah?
silence for a moment while he checks, but before he could answer...
JORDAN: Its 2:17 on my watch
ENGLISH TEACHER: TURNS AND LOOKS. WHO PRESSED YOUR BUTTON?
JORDAN: i was just offering the time
ENGLISH: Nobody asked you for your offer.

so funny man.

2007-11-21T17:59:00.000+08:00

DADDY, i think I'm falling in love with You all over again.

there. i said it out BIG and LOUD. :) teeheehees.

--edit--

Okay, that was too short. But i shall blog anyways. Okay so, today i did the exact same thing which I've been doing for weeks now. I don't want to repeat again man. HA HA, Mel is currently whistling the nursery music, "Go To Sleep" and is not replying me. So sad. :P But i think today, i did a little more. I've spent almost the whole afternoon doing Min Yi's website for her. It's all done anyways. Then i talked to Von, Min Yi, Esther, Ying, Valeen and i think that is all. HAHAHA. Now i am talking to Mel, Bev and Valeen. I don't know why am i telling you all this. I've been telling everyone that i want to go shopping. HAHA. And i love this :

i wouldn't mind getting any of these for my birthday. Like, really. IT IS SO PRETTY! :(

michelles.

2007-11-20T21:33:00.000+08:00

HELLO! To whoever is reading. First of all, mel, doesn't mean you can suck up all my energy like this! :( HAHA! Anyways, welcome to balijecello which i keep mistaking as bajijecello due to a certain reason. But i shall not go into details about that. Baji---lijecello has a meaning to it. Hahaha, i think only Mel and I would understand. :) As usual I did nothing but stay at home. :D But i thinki slept a lot today. HAHA. Don't know why but i felt tired. :S Insaneeeeee! OKAY i'm running out of things to say but okay. HHAHAA!

mel, my grandmother can eat faster than you. HAHAHAHA. We're so cool that the ice cubes get jealous. :P

michelles.

2007-11-20T21:09:00.000+08:00

HEH HEY!

wow i haven't used blogspot in ages, ever since my blog with Jess and Dra like agesssss ago! ahaha well this was a random decision to share a site with Chelle :), firstly thank you oh so very much for handling it all the layout etc! you know your on holiday right =p so you have the time of the world so yah! Well i just finished revising for a chinese vocab test tomorrow, and im doing my solo recording again but my voice isn't quite there yet, still recovering from the flu :(. But i know i serve a MIGHTY GOD that will heal me AMEN!

Well nothing muchs been up, January Mock exams are just around the coner, and im starting to 'feel' it ahahahaha so yeah i better get my 'head in the game!' LAME. My english teacher told us about what we have to prepare for and all, and he said we had to re-read Lord of the Flies, Into the wind Shortstories, Poetry and Macbeth! I'm pretty nervous now since we gotta memorize quotes! But i remember i wrote this empathy paper on Lord on the Flies and i got a B :) pretty proud of myself actually! ;).

oh and yes to those readers who read my other blog, don't worry i'll still be updating that site (www.xanga.com/smelly_butt) its been with me for years now! i can't abandon it! so yes,yes...

i'll end with this. MICHELLE YOUR SO HUAHO!!

LOVE,

melisSARS :)

celloJABALI!

2007-11-20T18:54:00.000+08:00

testing! :D mel, you're so jabali. you know that? HAHAHA!