hello hello,

We've got to keep this blog alive! haha, i know Michelles really busy for the past few days, its okay! Lifes meant to be filled with excitement and stress at the same time. haha i'm blabbering. Anyway, i've been at home for 5 days straight, and i need to go out and see people. :( I woke up today lazing in bed thinking about Singapore and how fast all this is going; i remembered the first day of year 7 for me and now i'm no longer am a Jerudong International School student. There were definately irreplaceable memories that i've created there ever since i joined JIS in 1997, where i met people like Yvonne, Rachel, Jordan, Shaun, Muiz, Annabell, Annarose, Jacob so on and so forth, and when i re-joined JIS in 2003? if i'm not wrong, i met, Dra, Jess, Pirng, Catherine, Ruby, Charlotte, Euodia and later on Karen, Janny, Diyana, and all these amazing people :)

Not only did i meet people, but after i re-joined JIS i met people like Bernard, Michelle, Ting, Derek, Ida, Vivien, Sam... people so full of life, and made my stay in Brunei such a unforgettable one. (haha it sounds like i was in Brunei only for a holiday), all of the friends that i've met over the years in Brunei have definately made me a different person, but the biggest person that i've met thats changed me inside out, is God. In 2006 (acts29 Elevate Camp), it was the most extraordiary encounter, and to meet people like Beverly, Angel, Desmond was just once in a life time!

I already feel homesick even though i haven't even left yet, i've got 24 more days and that sounds pretty long to me, but i know its going to fly by. I know i shouldn't make such a big fuss over the fact because i'm only going to Singapore which is only 2 hours away by plane, but it's just the fact that i won't see the people i usually see everyday. I know with time and with God, i'll adapt to Singapore life, and meet more interesting people to add to the collection :D So yes i don't have to worry because i know God will just take care of this future. I remember God spoke to me during a situation and this is a part of what he said...

"Focus on me, and i'll show you what i see."

So i was just "wow" haha, I just want to thank all the friends that i've made, even though some i'm not close to some right now... Thank You So Much, you have NO idea how much YOUR sharing, laughing, crying, annoying, eating, sleeping, running, cycling, jumping, rolling, farting and SO SO SO many more, has made this part of my life so exciting! :D Hopefully me and Michelle will keep this blog running, and probably when we're like 50? haha okay la 30, we'll look back and remember :), and i can gaurantee, i know this is isn't as good as it gets, because it gets better.

- MEL

Hosanna.

I wonder what would it have been like or what would have happened, if i didn't obey You. Just as we were about to take the wrong step, You warned me not to take it. Indeed You are amazing. Perhaps, THINGS would have happened if we didn't change our minds. I really wouldn't know what i'd do without You in my life. A million thanks, and it goes on. And also how important it is to have your godly friends WITH YOU wherever you go. Times when you don't know what to do, you can always turn to them so that we'd figure it out together with God. Awesome! I thank God for placing such people in my life. I got to hang out with friends today which i have not done in SUCH A LONG TIME! Been so busy with everything. We planned, and planned but never worked out. But all of a sudden today, we just did.

I don't know where did i go right to actually deserve so much from You. But again, that's love. Real love. What's best is that YOU are the love that NEVER runs dry. It all began when you CHOSE to think of us first. No force, but with a willing heart indeed. And how You sent Your only Son, Jesus Christ who was put to shame just for the sake of bringing hope into the world. That's just how much You cared for us. You thought of others. To give us a second chance to live a life so pleasing in Your eyes. Yet you only ask for one thing. A relationship with us. To be part of this one life we live. So many times we've taken You for granted in so many ways, but still You look at us with love, compassion, giving us countless and countless of chances that even if it took eternity, we can never thank You enough. That's the love that we need to give to every ends of this earth. We want to look at this world through Your eyes. Your ways. Filled with love, forgiveness and compassion over people. We wanna be more like You. Indeed, we wanna be the salt and light in this world. To raise a generation whose hearts are all out for You. As we gather, with one heart, worshipping one God. I pray that the passion, the fire..spreads. Let it overflow through this whole earth. And also that we continue to live a life for others just like You did. To give people what the world is made up of. Prayer, time, love, help. If there was ever a time where i took You for granted, oh God, i'm sorry. Times when i've hurt You. Times when i've forgotten You. I'm sorry. How i can be so stubborn at times, but You're always putting up with me. But again, You love undeserving people. You hate sin but love the sinners. No one else could ever compare to You. So with all that i am, i give it to You. So many find it hard to believe that You are real because they can't see You. Seeing is believing. But it's the other way around. Believing is seeing. As we begin to believe that You are real, You start to show Your wonders, great power. It still amazes me how You're only asking one thing from us. But then again, You are God. Words aren't enough to tell of Your greatness. Immeasurable. As we hold on to You in this crazy crazy world, i pray for our focus to be on You and only You. As we bring people closer to You, its your name that's to be glorified. Not ours. So let our lives be pointed directly at You. Be mirrors. Reflectors. Warriors for You. (:

so much more i could say. But to sum up the feelings and thoughts that fills my mind right now, i've came up with what i wanted to say.

i love You so much.

You're really all i need now and forever. Sometimes i just feel like disconnecting myself away from everything to go into that secret place where only you and i can go. Just for a while. To just stay quietly in Your arms to feel what it's like being just face to face with You. To sit down and laugh with you non-stop about the most randomest things in the world. I honestly will know that, i wouldn't know what to say when that really happens. :P But you know, that's just me. HAHAAHAHAHA. But even if i did, You'd know exactly what i want to say.

have i ever told You how amazing You are? :)

THANK YOU FOR THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE AND MORE TO COME! :) I give it to You.

That was seriously a moment. Where i just wanted to post things that are in my heart right now. Sometimes when we're overloaded, we're just so in need of a direction. A way. How we just wanna get away from everything. But then again, life isn't full of roses. Even being a Christian, things get tough. But we can't always stay in our comfort zone and enjoy ourselves all the time. We'd never learn or grow. So i say, don't give up hope! For Hope never gives up on you. (:

michelles.