Oh happy day! Like, hello! :D I've been great! I mean, not all that great on the pressure of all the work, meetings, projects.. whatever. They kept coming and my head was full of junk. And knowing that times when all these happens, we get weak. But i remember 2 days ago if i'm not mistaken, i was really swamped with homework, (i couldn't even finish some of them) i was in my room just doing and doing my work while listening to music (I HEART REVOLUTION ♥) so i was doing and doing.. then i just stopped. I felt myself drawing more and more to the music and suddenly i found Him. I began to sing along and my heart followed. I felt His presence flowing into my humble little room. When i was suppose to be doing my work, i stopped and just worshipped Him. Then i just started praying and talking to Him about everything. As i talked to Him about everything, i started to release the weight off my shoulders. It just really reminded me of what Derek told me about you know, everything that we do, do and release into God's hands. No matter what it is, studying, just doing something you're talented at..everything. That's exactly what i did. And i felt way way lighter. SO much better. Really highlights the verse that i just recently love which is

Romans 8:14 :"As many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are Sons of God."

Really reminds me from time to time, that i have a God where when times are hard, and i feel that i really can't go on or make it through, He's gonna carry me through it! Because i am His daughter! (: Given a beautiful promise that He will always be there to carry me through it all if only I do one thing. Release. So many times we have problems in life, where we either panic or push it aside. They add more weight to our hearts. But God is always more than willing to take it from us if we’re willing to ask Him to do so. :D I just really wanna encourage you guys out there, probably reading this, when you’re facing difficult times, to learn to trust in God, to release it into His hands. But of course when you do that, you don’t do nothing right? HAHA. I mean like take for example, your studies. You don’t just say to God, “Okay God, I’m gonna just leave it all into Your hands!” and really leave it all to Him and not study at all. No way, God will help you! Haha! When you leave something in His hands, it means you also have to do your part. To study what you can but at the same time trust God that He will help you! :D AWESOME? YES? YES! hahahHHA!

Okay, I don’t have much time now. SO I’LL BLOG AGAIN SOON! :D LOVE YOU DUDES!

michelles.

Hello! :D Hahaha i'm actually on a study break. After 4 solid hours of nothing but maths. Okay it was kind of like homework but at the same time i was revising. Hahaha really wanna get into the habit to study. I think i'm actually making a progress. Praise God! And also this morning, i found my shakespear topic that i've misplaced over the holidays in my pencilcase (yes, all these time its been there.) And almost the whole morning at home, i was wondering how i'd tell Mrs.Manik about it. So i just snapped out of it and tell myself that i'd trust God. HAHA at first like i was just sitting in my seat staring inside my pencil case for fun. Then deep down inside my pencil case (my pencil case isn't even big) i saw this white paper. Then i immediately knew it was the paper. I was so shocked. AHH! God is amazing yo!

Every single day, i find myself hungry for more of God's Word. And really, i think this is the first time, in 1 year and something months since i've given my life to Christ, i've ever felt so hungry for more of His Word. I begin to love the Holy Spirit more too who apparently is the best teacher and guide in life. It is such an amazing feeling! Getting inspired by people like Stephen (He gave his life for the gospel), Paul (AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME ministry) and Jesus Himself (for being the greatest sacrifice for us and His ministry as well). Completely inspired! And feeling this way, i'm really starting to encourage my members in newGen to build their lives on the Word. And i'm really proud of them. A lot of them spend time with God daily, or 5 times, 2 times or even once a week. This morning i just encouraged them to keep pressing on and to keep spending time with Him. OH MAN! And i just realised..its been 1 year plus already since i've given my life to God. Feels really quick! Don't know why. I didn't know it was already that long man. And those years are just flashing before my eyes right now. I've changed so much. From a nobody to actually being someone. Though there were the many times where i fell and felt dry but that's where i get disciplined and trained. I'll never regret this life no matter how many times you ask. :P Hahaha Life is awesome! :D Oh banana! I might just explode into one. Hmm... :)


love,

michelles.

Oh ma gash, mel, after so long, YOU FINALLY appeared! :P Hahaha, i almost gave up. HAHAHA. Right, just kidding. Today was a great day with the little little breakthrough that has happened. Like, praying for my friend to come to school. She did. A few of us were really worried for her and all. Because she usually comes early but after a certain incident, we didn't think she would make it today. But she did. If you're ever reading this, we love you and know that. :) You know who you are. Weehehehe! Thank you for all the wishes and hugs and whatsoever! I seriously don't feel like I'm 16 but i'll get use to it. Been really busy as usual. Lots and lots of homework. Most of them are completing incomplete ones but yea. It's all good. Really glad to at least get some things off my back! The valentine's day event (this was really fun), projects, homework, blah blah blah. I don't have any homework today so i can finally do some studying tonight. And i got something i really wanted last week. A new heart. Something i've been struggling to get ever since the year began. Being a leader of something, really makes me realize how much i need God. As this phrase echoes in my head, that through God, we can accomplish anything. So after times of struggling, it's finally done! :D Acts last friday was awesome. The message was short, simple yet so powerful. We were given this paper heart. Then Ps.Ling talked about the things that have hurt us in the past or recently. And if any were related to what we've been through, we'd tear off a bit of the paper heart. The little emotional wounds buried and sewn to our hearts. Rejection. Abuse. Peer pressure. Loneliness. Whatever. These little things could crush our hearts to pieces. As i tore of bits and bits off my paper heart, i began to realise how small it was. I realised i was hurt by so many things. Maybe not as small as some others but it was never the size i expected. I think the deadliest one i've suffered was loneliness. What it almost led to before was just so pathetic. I mean i wasn't too WOAH. Because i knew my Saviour. But it wasn't loneliness. I just needed my focus back. That passion i once had. A clean heart. That was all i needed. So i ran to the altar. I was so tired i just surrendered it all to God once again. I was so tired of holding the load, the load that over and over i have tried to give but it just won't reach. It was great. (: And when we went back to our seat, we found a red paper stuck underneath our seat. On it was drawn a new heart. And every single heart has a personalized message on it. Mine said 'Superbly unique one and only.' :D




Our hearts have been broken by so many little things in this world. How fragile a heart is sometimes. People all around the world has definitely faced the storms of their lives and thinking that there will never ever be a cure to them. But they're wrong. :) We do have a Healer. Our God. Father. He's the one that truly unites a heart back together. He's like the plaster or tape that holds it back together. By the blood shed on the Cross by His Son Jesus, we are healed. It's not just the diseases but our broken hearts. God's love and mercy is indeed immeasurable. No one can love you more than He can. :) People come and go, but God has an eternity with you. :) It's proven over and over again, through testimonies, through the Word, that He will never leave nor forsake us. No matter what :).


Amazing, no? :D


Okay, i totally need to study! :D Toodlesbanoodles!



Mel, you're so much smellier than onions! Wahahaaahhahahahaahhahahahaha.....kill me if you can. Oh wait. You can. You do know where i live. Darn. :(

michelles.

HEY COOL PEOPLE! Okay, i'm just here to drop ANOTHER quick one. (Even i know that it wouldn't be THAT quick as it ends up pretty long all the time.) Yes, as Mel is happily enjoying her break off from studies, i'm going insane over it now. I guess its my turn. :P Seriously, the homework never ends. I mean if it isn't many, it will be LONG LONG ones. Specifically, economics. Like there is only 1 question with like, 4 parts broken down. The answers are like for 101003012010102010192101 questions i tell you. Ugh. - -" Everything's been fine. Except for what happened like a yesterday morning. But it's okay. NOT A BIG DEAL AT ALL. It really made me realise that i needed feed myself more and more with God's Word. ANYWAYS, really excited for things to come. Been planning lots of interesting things to keep in prayer. New Gen has been awesome. Been growing and will keep growing! God has blessed us with a new room to hold it. :) Indeed people will come flowing in quickly! :D:D OKAY IM REALLY STRUGGLING TO END THIS! :S:S:S! Which i shall now. I'm sorry if this isn't proper but i really should be getting back to my work. But like yea, i'll update soon enough. MEL, i miss you still. HAHAHA. :) you take caree dude. AS WELL AS EVERYONE ELSE!




indeed nothing is too hard for You

How Great is Our God.

Hey everyone! My exams are Over, but i have the 'REAL DEAL' exam in the month of May and June. The papers i did over the week, were... hard. It was expected because our teachers told us that they'll be harder than the actual Os to just prepare us. So yep, i found Maths paper 1 hard and Business 2. I struggled in Chinese as well, i felt alright with English. I'm just going to keep my grades in prayer, and if i Don't get my A's, theres always the Real exam to do extremely well! :) but hopefully the grades i get for my mocks will show signs of improvement hehe.

Well today, the NEWGEN group suprised Yvonne (eban) for her 17th Birthday, and i must say i'm proud of myself that i was able to keep the secret in long enough! hehe. It was allllll goooodd Happy 17th Birthday again Von! I hope you like the suprise. It didn't hit me that it was the last day of exams, until the end of Acts service ahahah yes yes i'm happy that their all over and i thank God that he helped me through it man! So cool i remember during my english paper i was stuck because i had to remember quotes on a questions, so i kept my COOL and just talked to God and he helped me remember the quotes just like that! Just so amazing, he gave me the strength to absorb everything was cool was cool!

For now i'm taking the weekend off, to just chill~ catch up on my sleep hehe. God's power is really moving in JIS. Its just so indescribable, breathtaking. Our NewGenGroup started with 2 people by the drain just praying. God answered and it increased to 5 people then 2 weeks later, it increased to 11 people and soon to be 12! Praise God! Presson! hehehehe Take the stand to reach out, be the one to lead those who are lost. Don't be a follower but LEADER. AMEN?! We've gotta keep on rising with FAITH and PRAYER then we'll see BREAKTHROUGH!!! believe me. What else could we ever ask for? Than the Favour of God, His love and blessing that we're heading in the RIGHT direction. He just wants the BEST FOR US.

When something begins to grow...

into something special...

its those times where we want to hold on to... :)

The weirdest things...

I find the most funniest...

When we make the decision to set our hearts for the ones we love...

To share the Love we found thats beyond this world...

to hold onto memories when we leave...

we'll always remember...

the gift we all have...

to laugh

To go beyond our limits and win

to love

to care

to look and find

to walk, to fall to get up to run to fight to breathe to fly beyond because when we make it, our reward will be so much worth it.

i go speechless.

Hey! I'm here just to drop a quick post. I realized that i've been going in and out of blogger hoping to post something up but never did. I'd always stop halfway through and close the browser leaving just a draft which looks totally awkward in the list of posts. :P Why that happens? No idea. First, i'd be all enthusiastic to blog and all then lose it in just a few minutes. Weirdness. There's just been so many things happening that i just can't find a way to get it all together. There's been school and tuition and homeworks, a project which i still am completely blur about (the teacher talked about it but i did not really understand what she was talking about.) - -" , designing so many things and ahhh..whatever! I'm really still in the process of just getting it all back together. Still in the process of getting this sentence in my head that in everything i do and am doing, I'm doing it for Jesus. And all that. It makes me feel a lot better and light as i keep that in mind. It stole lots of my time that i hardly have the time to just update myself with friends i really miss and all. Like Mel and Von and Bev and lots more. I really miss seeing and talking to them like super duper much! And it felt like a week ago since i've spoken to them and all! Except for Von, but i talked to her for only a few minutes then we had to go and stuff. And i'm gonna have to go soon to continue doing my homework. :P HAHA. But all the same, i still love the same God. It's never gonna change. The same God who's been with me and always will be. So faithful and amazing. I really don't know what i'd do without Him here with me. And i'd have no one to turn to and all. That's just insane.

Now that i've mentioned it. Its making me feel more pumped up to do a whole lot of reaching out to people. I want people to have Someone to turn to when they're not feeling right. I want people to really have Someone to love and at the same time knows that He loves them back. I want them to carry the Solution with them wherever they go. To have an amazing journey with our God. To make them see that a Christian life is more than staying in the four walls of the church, wearing nun-outfits and whatever. We're not 'square' but whether people like it or not, we're gonna spread ourselves all over. (: I just wish i could just grab them all at once and yea. I bet every Christians out there would feel that way too. When you're so desperate to see people saved, that's just how you would feel sometimes. But it's okay. I want to wait on my God and see what He has to say. (:

Mel, i miss you dude. I really don't know what's been going on and all but we'll catch up yes? :) Bali bali!~ And all the best to your exams yea! You can totally do it! :D:D:D! And here is your 'something to read.' :P



and that concludes your 'something to read.'




michelles.