GIVE ME ONEEE MOMENT IN TIMEEE~

My voice is going soon and my speakers aren't working!!!! -_______-' anyway, my auditions are on the 13th of March, and im half way done with my composition piece. I haven't found my 'upbeat' song yet, and i've settled with One Moment in Time for my ballad. :D. The song is real hard to sing, and to make things worse i can't listen to Whitney Housten sing it on YouTube becauseeee my speakers aren't working :( ( OH THE HORROR ) .

On the lighter note, TOMORROWS AFC'S 6th BIRTHDAY!!! Been having dance practises with the little kids from PLK, screaming at them to stay still ahahaha, but im really impress they could learn the whole dance within 1 week! Thats why me and Charlotte will be treating them to Pizza and Icecream (thats if we can) hehe. I haven't gone to Acts in ages :(, and i really miss it! But i shall be returning next friday! I'm feeling much muchhhh better today :D, PRAYER and medicine work real fast!

I learnt alot through me being real sick this time. For the 2 days when i was sick, i really had no energy and i just wanted to sleep the day away. I was grumpy and i let the flu get the best of me. So i'm SUPER sorry if i treated anyone badly. I was real mad at myself that i was getting sicker each day and i didn't really take into thought about prayer. I totally forgot about it. Then on the 3rd day of my sickness (by this time i was sooooo tired, restless and annoyed), while showering i was convited by the Holy Spirit all of a sudden. Just one word, 'humble'. Peace and assurance just filled my bathroom (ahahahah) and i cried. I told God that i was so sorry and i asked for forgivness straight away. I know by now you would have thought that i got better right? Total opposite!

On thursday morning i went to school, noseblock free and fever down! but towards the end of the day, i started to get stomaches and at the end of the day, i vommited. I didn't just vomit blood, but i threw up blood as well. It scared the Chickendaylights out of me i tell you. I just spent time praying in tongues, hoping that it wasn't anything. The next day, a lump appeared on my head near my neck. I told my mom and she said she'll bring me to the doctor at the end of the day. I was meant to go for dance practise with the kids (friday), however i vommited 4times in school, and my mom picked me up early to see the doctor. By then i was exhausted and all i could do was just pray.

Went for my check up at the doctors, i was scared as what! But Praise God, the Doctor said that the lump was nothing serious it was just a reaction due to my sickness and that i'll go away when my infection goes away!! Praise God!!!


Dearest rae,

The suara came out not a few days ago and the theme for it was JIS'S 10th Birthday. Before it came out, i receievd an email about asking me to write in it, since i've been in JIS for that long :). I was excited but somehow they didn't follow up with me after a few replies. I wondered why, but when i saw the suara, most of the articles done by those who have studied in JIS since 1997, have brothers and sisters who are overseas now. They talked about their siblings and all. I guess it would've been real hard to write about what happened. Yours friends like Yvonne and Sam wrote about their years in JIS, it was so nice to read about them. Oh gosh i miss you so much... i'm turning 17 soon rae, you'd be the big 20 this year. You'd be in University, and i'd be... i dont know actually. I wonder about the sillest things really, like how you would have grown and looked like now. More like mom or dad? Hahaha. We'd have great laughs remember? getting gum stuck in our hair when we were small and stupid ahahaha. Play pathetic games like 'kidnapping' where we tie each other up and time how long we could get out, and our reason? to train if we ever got kidnapped! ahahahah. We'd play cooking, shopping etc... I rememeber we went swimming at mabohai with daddy you'd teach me 'freestyle' and get so annoyed with me cause i couldn't breathe and move my arms at the same time ahahah. These SMALL TINY VAGUE memories i have with you, are gonna live with me forever. I still think about you and it hasn't hit me yet, it'll take time. I still think your sleeping over your friends place... I love you, jie.

because HE deserves the BEST. :)

Oh ma gash, mel, after so long, YOU FINALLY appeared! :P Hahaha, i almost gave up. HAHAHA. Right, just kidding. Today was a great day with the little little breakthrough that has happened. Like, praying for my friend to come to school. She did. A few of us were really worried for her and all. Because she usually comes early but after a certain incident, we didn't think she would make it today. But she did. If you're ever reading this, we love you and know that. :) You know who you are. Weehehehe! Thank you for all the wishes and hugs and whatsoever! I seriously don't feel like I'm 16 but i'll get use to it. Been really busy as usual. Lots and lots of homework. Most of them are completing incomplete ones but yea. It's all good. Really glad to at least get some things off my back! The valentine's day event (this was really fun), projects, homework, blah blah blah. I don't have any homework today so i can finally do some studying tonight. And i got something i really wanted last week. A new heart. Something i've been struggling to get ever since the year began. Being a leader of something, really makes me realize how much i need God. As this phrase echoes in my head, that through God, we can accomplish anything. So after times of struggling, it's finally done! :D Acts last friday was awesome. The message was short, simple yet so powerful. We were given this paper heart. Then Ps.Ling talked about the things that have hurt us in the past or recently. And if any were related to what we've been through, we'd tear off a bit of the paper heart. The little emotional wounds buried and sewn to our hearts. Rejection. Abuse. Peer pressure. Loneliness. Whatever. These little things could crush our hearts to pieces. As i tore of bits and bits off my paper heart, i began to realise how small it was. I realised i was hurt by so many things. Maybe not as small as some others but it was never the size i expected. I think the deadliest one i've suffered was loneliness. What it almost led to before was just so pathetic. I mean i wasn't too WOAH. Because i knew my Saviour. But it wasn't loneliness. I just needed my focus back. That passion i once had. A clean heart. That was all i needed. So i ran to the altar. I was so tired i just surrendered it all to God once again. I was so tired of holding the load, the load that over and over i have tried to give but it just won't reach. It was great. (: And when we went back to our seat, we found a red paper stuck underneath our seat. On it was drawn a new heart. And every single heart has a personalized message on it. Mine said 'Superbly unique one and only.' :D




Our hearts have been broken by so many little things in this world. How fragile a heart is sometimes. People all around the world has definitely faced the storms of their lives and thinking that there will never ever be a cure to them. But they're wrong. :) We do have a Healer. Our God. Father. He's the one that truly unites a heart back together. He's like the plaster or tape that holds it back together. By the blood shed on the Cross by His Son Jesus, we are healed. It's not just the diseases but our broken hearts. God's love and mercy is indeed immeasurable. No one can love you more than He can. :) People come and go, but God has an eternity with you. :) It's proven over and over again, through testimonies, through the Word, that He will never leave nor forsake us. No matter what :).


Amazing, no? :D


Okay, i totally need to study! :D Toodlesbanoodles!



Mel, you're so much smellier than onions! Wahahaaahhahahahaahhahahahaha.....kill me if you can. Oh wait. You can. You do know where i live. Darn. :(

michelles.

and... i'm back!

Hey readers!!! Sorry the lack of updates... Been really busy with coursework and studies. Before i start my OH SO VERY LONGGGG BLOGGG (with pictures :D), i just want to wish Michelle a very...

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY!!!!! :D

Love you to bits!!! sorry i didn't message you at 12, i know many people did. But thank you so much for everything, you've been an amazing blessing to me! hehe..

Okay the UPDATE!

Things have been A.OK so far. I went to singapore to see my school, and it went well. Submitted my application form, and my results etc... and they gave me a audition date. So i'm working towards that. I'm a bit terrified about it, but i'm just giving it to God. Singapore was also a good trip because i got to spend time with my dad, and my old friends. Laughed, shopped and ate alot! of course its singapore!

yep those are pictures of my school, Laselle. It just blew my mind when i stepped foot into that place. I met up with one of my old friends Denise and her sister Delia. It was great we went to bugis street and DAYMM it was crowded. Shopped alot! and we took neoprints! Shes posted them over to me, i'm just waiting for them now. hehe

Miss 'em times alreadyy ahahahaha anyway, i also went to visit my sisters grave, to do some cleaning up. We got to get more colourful pebbles for RE-FILL haha. :) Miss you rae.

I must say, i really do look like my dad. Got his nose. ahahaha. We went to visit my dad's aunt, shes staying at home right now, and i was really happy to see her. Even though she use to steal things from me and my sister and claimed it hers, i knew it was because she was sick so yeah.


Okay now these are just random pictures from my trip! enjoy...

WWWMTD? HAHAHA 8)

dinner @ airport

i (L) you! daddddddy :D

taxii rideeeeeee

THERE WAS SWIMMING CLASS GOING ON DOWNSTAIRS! :O!

And that ladies and gentleman, concludes my blog. HAHA NAH just joking. I've got more pictures. :)

Before i went to singapore i think, me, charlotte, karen, jess, asha, dra went bowling and swimming @ empire just to chill after the mock exams. :)

and now, random pictures that are in my camera alright? :P

Okay, i'm getting kinda tired of uploading pictures, plus its ALOT OF pictures to go through, so i'm sorry this is it for today. :) i'll post again when i'm free.

Updates:

- Grade 5 theory exam 1st March!!!!
- Laselle Auditions 14th March!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Acts29 Youth camp!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- Foods coursework deadline 14th March!!!!!!!
- Music coursework deadline 7th March!!!!!

i think thats about it? for now, i can't really recall much. LOADSA things going on. and to add on, i'm sick at the moment, got the CNY BUG. Apparently thats what their calling. Flu, fever and cough. But i'm still up, not really thinking about me being sick, but about how I'm not going to be soon! Because i serve a God that heals AMEN? I know being sick makes you feel so weak and tired, i feel that and to add on, i have tuition almost everyday now. But i keep thinking to myself, everythings going to be alright, because at the end of the day, when i sleep i think about How GREAT my God is that he helped me through today. When i was almost on my knees feeling weak and all.

Keep praying, keep loving, keep on running, because the reward at the end of the race, is something that'll be worth every effort you made :)

Godbless!

Hosanna.

I wonder what would it have been like or what would have happened, if i didn't obey You. Just as we were about to take the wrong step, You warned me not to take it. Indeed You are amazing. Perhaps, THINGS would have happened if we didn't change our minds. I really wouldn't know what i'd do without You in my life. A million thanks, and it goes on. And also how important it is to have your godly friends WITH YOU wherever you go. Times when you don't know what to do, you can always turn to them so that we'd figure it out together with God. Awesome! I thank God for placing such people in my life. I got to hang out with friends today which i have not done in SUCH A LONG TIME! Been so busy with everything. We planned, and planned but never worked out. But all of a sudden today, we just did.

I don't know where did i go right to actually deserve so much from You. But again, that's love. Real love. What's best is that YOU are the love that NEVER runs dry. It all began when you CHOSE to think of us first. No force, but with a willing heart indeed. And how You sent Your only Son, Jesus Christ who was put to shame just for the sake of bringing hope into the world. That's just how much You cared for us. You thought of others. To give us a second chance to live a life so pleasing in Your eyes. Yet you only ask for one thing. A relationship with us. To be part of this one life we live. So many times we've taken You for granted in so many ways, but still You look at us with love, compassion, giving us countless and countless of chances that even if it took eternity, we can never thank You enough. That's the love that we need to give to every ends of this earth. We want to look at this world through Your eyes. Your ways. Filled with love, forgiveness and compassion over people. We wanna be more like You. Indeed, we wanna be the salt and light in this world. To raise a generation whose hearts are all out for You. As we gather, with one heart, worshipping one God. I pray that the passion, the fire..spreads. Let it overflow through this whole earth. And also that we continue to live a life for others just like You did. To give people what the world is made up of. Prayer, time, love, help. If there was ever a time where i took You for granted, oh God, i'm sorry. Times when i've hurt You. Times when i've forgotten You. I'm sorry. How i can be so stubborn at times, but You're always putting up with me. But again, You love undeserving people. You hate sin but love the sinners. No one else could ever compare to You. So with all that i am, i give it to You. So many find it hard to believe that You are real because they can't see You. Seeing is believing. But it's the other way around. Believing is seeing. As we begin to believe that You are real, You start to show Your wonders, great power. It still amazes me how You're only asking one thing from us. But then again, You are God. Words aren't enough to tell of Your greatness. Immeasurable. As we hold on to You in this crazy crazy world, i pray for our focus to be on You and only You. As we bring people closer to You, its your name that's to be glorified. Not ours. So let our lives be pointed directly at You. Be mirrors. Reflectors. Warriors for You. (:

so much more i could say. But to sum up the feelings and thoughts that fills my mind right now, i've came up with what i wanted to say.

i love You so much.

You're really all i need now and forever. Sometimes i just feel like disconnecting myself away from everything to go into that secret place where only you and i can go. Just for a while. To just stay quietly in Your arms to feel what it's like being just face to face with You. To sit down and laugh with you non-stop about the most randomest things in the world. I honestly will know that, i wouldn't know what to say when that really happens. :P But you know, that's just me. HAHAAHAHAHA. But even if i did, You'd know exactly what i want to say.

have i ever told You how amazing You are? :)

THANK YOU FOR THE BEST YEARS OF MY LIFE AND MORE TO COME! :) I give it to You.

That was seriously a moment. Where i just wanted to post things that are in my heart right now. Sometimes when we're overloaded, we're just so in need of a direction. A way. How we just wanna get away from everything. But then again, life isn't full of roses. Even being a Christian, things get tough. But we can't always stay in our comfort zone and enjoy ourselves all the time. We'd never learn or grow. So i say, don't give up hope! For Hope never gives up on you. (:

michelles.

HEY COOL PEOPLE! Okay, i'm just here to drop ANOTHER quick one. (Even i know that it wouldn't be THAT quick as it ends up pretty long all the time.) Yes, as Mel is happily enjoying her break off from studies, i'm going insane over it now. I guess its my turn. :P Seriously, the homework never ends. I mean if it isn't many, it will be LONG LONG ones. Specifically, economics. Like there is only 1 question with like, 4 parts broken down. The answers are like for 101003012010102010192101 questions i tell you. Ugh. - -" Everything's been fine. Except for what happened like a yesterday morning. But it's okay. NOT A BIG DEAL AT ALL. It really made me realise that i needed feed myself more and more with God's Word. ANYWAYS, really excited for things to come. Been planning lots of interesting things to keep in prayer. New Gen has been awesome. Been growing and will keep growing! God has blessed us with a new room to hold it. :) Indeed people will come flowing in quickly! :D:D OKAY IM REALLY STRUGGLING TO END THIS! :S:S:S! Which i shall now. I'm sorry if this isn't proper but i really should be getting back to my work. But like yea, i'll update soon enough. MEL, i miss you still. HAHAHA. :) you take caree dude. AS WELL AS EVERYONE ELSE!




indeed nothing is too hard for You

How Great is Our God.

Hey everyone! My exams are Over, but i have the 'REAL DEAL' exam in the month of May and June. The papers i did over the week, were... hard. It was expected because our teachers told us that they'll be harder than the actual Os to just prepare us. So yep, i found Maths paper 1 hard and Business 2. I struggled in Chinese as well, i felt alright with English. I'm just going to keep my grades in prayer, and if i Don't get my A's, theres always the Real exam to do extremely well! :) but hopefully the grades i get for my mocks will show signs of improvement hehe.

Well today, the NEWGEN group suprised Yvonne (eban) for her 17th Birthday, and i must say i'm proud of myself that i was able to keep the secret in long enough! hehe. It was allllll goooodd Happy 17th Birthday again Von! I hope you like the suprise. It didn't hit me that it was the last day of exams, until the end of Acts service ahahah yes yes i'm happy that their all over and i thank God that he helped me through it man! So cool i remember during my english paper i was stuck because i had to remember quotes on a questions, so i kept my COOL and just talked to God and he helped me remember the quotes just like that! Just so amazing, he gave me the strength to absorb everything was cool was cool!

For now i'm taking the weekend off, to just chill~ catch up on my sleep hehe. God's power is really moving in JIS. Its just so indescribable, breathtaking. Our NewGenGroup started with 2 people by the drain just praying. God answered and it increased to 5 people then 2 weeks later, it increased to 11 people and soon to be 12! Praise God! Presson! hehehehe Take the stand to reach out, be the one to lead those who are lost. Don't be a follower but LEADER. AMEN?! We've gotta keep on rising with FAITH and PRAYER then we'll see BREAKTHROUGH!!! believe me. What else could we ever ask for? Than the Favour of God, His love and blessing that we're heading in the RIGHT direction. He just wants the BEST FOR US.

When something begins to grow...

into something special...

its those times where we want to hold on to... :)

The weirdest things...

I find the most funniest...

When we make the decision to set our hearts for the ones we love...

To share the Love we found thats beyond this world...

to hold onto memories when we leave...

we'll always remember...

the gift we all have...

to laugh

To go beyond our limits and win

to love

to care

to look and find

to walk, to fall to get up to run to fight to breathe to fly beyond because when we make it, our reward will be so much worth it.

i go speechless.