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(: hey guys, things have been packing up with the exams, and what nots. Prom audtions are this week if im not wrong, and hopefully me and bils will be doing something. hehe we haven't even practised, but itsokayyyyy~

Well, i won't be going to the Hillsongs Conference after all, personal finance issues at home, but itsokay, i know there are still many opportunites :) Besides that, i just got the news that i have no where to stay right now in Singapore when i return, so mommy is going back there for 5 days to settle my 'apartment?' 8).... HEHEHE The thing is i have no one to share it with, like when my mom comes back... so yeah. But i believed that God's gonna take care of all of that... Mom's told me to get some things packed for her to bring back so that i don't have to carry a whole load back when i leave~ So been choosing the certain clothes and stuff (books * ahem *, guitar, piano HAHA ) so on and so forth. I'm really excited about it, can't wait to meet new and interesting people. I know Singapore ain't that far from Brunei and stuff, but its most definately a new enviroment to adjust to, like com'on; time over there is like 'CHOP CHOP' and the drivers...However, I'll be leaving my home, daddyyy, friends, my bed. :(, but i'll certainly come back for the holidays.

I can't wait to take 'Public Transport' again~ i remember my 3 years there, it was so much fun hanging with friends after school and taking bus and MRT rides ANYWHERE! :D unlike here in Brunei where you really have to depend on cars. I know the competition in Laselle is hard, i could sense it when i walked in, but i know i'm gonna have fun. Its what i've worked for, and what i'm so proud of! so ALL THE WAY BABY hehehe.

I'll be attending Heart of God Church, its been like i think 7 years? or less since i last been there. I can't wait to get plugged in and ready to meet the challenges ahead! Hopefully when i'm in Singapore i'll meet up with Bernard, Joyce, ling and Jeremy, it'd be nice. (: Then of course theres the shopping which i have to control... oh and yes have i mentioned? I have to work haha, its going to be busy busyy bussssyyy... but you know this will be my first time 'working' as in like a proper JOB.

Exams are in like 2 weeks, or so. Some people have exams this Friday (goodluck!) First exam is English Lang (for meeeeee). Which i'm 'okay' in. Aiming for an A, since i've been getting Bs. Well i hope everyones doing fine, and Von if your reading this Miss You dude! hope your having a good time. See you Wednesday!

Emerson!

love,

mel

this was just days before.

Rae, even though we've moved houses. I think about you a whole lot, the times we fight over the the stupid tv, having dinner infront of the TV, tomyam challenges, you singing me to bed, faking sick just to make me a birthday cake, oprah freaks, i love and i miss you. I know you can hear me, right now the day you left, that exact feeling is hitting me again, yeah it hurts, and i've let go of you, i just miss you. I know thats alright right?

this much, so much, i love you.

Hello bello! Kind of reminds me of Jelly Bellies. Hmm. (AHAHA Mel, popcorn flavour..uhh :P) Anyways, i'm serious running out of things to even blog about. Hahaha School was fine today. Was still pretty wiped out from yesterday's hectic schedule but it got a little better in the later morning! BUT AGAIN, things got slightly heavy in the afternoon. I was bothered with a lot of things. Well actually not that much, just two things. But the pressure kept pushing me harder and harder. I didn't feel so good. It kept bothering me the whole afternoon that i couldn't get myself to focus on studying. I was so so so desperate for an answer then. I needed an answer from God. Honestly, this is seriously the first time i've ever had so so much compassion over a friend. I mean, i'm not saying like i've never had on my other friends. I did but this one just feels really different. What the amazing thing is i'm not even close to that friend. I believe this is really what the passion for other people is all about. Having this great unexplainable compassion over the person that you'd wreck your brains out just to help him/her. So i was having my supposedly afternoon quiet time. I was all prepared and ready after singing a few songs and all, i was so ready to talk to God and everything until...........my mom came in to my room. NICE RIGHT?!?! She wanted me to do something. I was honestly annoyed but yeah i just sucked air in and did what she asked me to do. Then i continued my quiet time. It felt good. It's one of those moments when desperation calls out loud and you'd do anything. I felt that way. I really really needed Him to guide me. My heart was heavy and was carrying a load i knew i couldn't carry on my own. I decided to release it into His hands again.

And how i was telling Him that i wasn't gonna go anywhere until i hear Him. So in the stillness, i waited on Him. It didn't take very long for Him to answer me. He started encouraging me, even led me to the Word to confirm that it's clearly what He wants me to do.


That's what i get for trusting Him. HAHAHAHA WHICH IS GREAT! I just love my Creator so much! Knowing that i can always rely on Him. Reminding me again and again of how He'll carry me through times like these. I'm just so in love with Him man! His kindness will never depart from us. :) rawr! LOVE LOVE!

michelles.

Oh happy day! Like, hello! :D I've been great! I mean, not all that great on the pressure of all the work, meetings, projects.. whatever. They kept coming and my head was full of junk. And knowing that times when all these happens, we get weak. But i remember 2 days ago if i'm not mistaken, i was really swamped with homework, (i couldn't even finish some of them) i was in my room just doing and doing my work while listening to music (I HEART REVOLUTION ♥) so i was doing and doing.. then i just stopped. I felt myself drawing more and more to the music and suddenly i found Him. I began to sing along and my heart followed. I felt His presence flowing into my humble little room. When i was suppose to be doing my work, i stopped and just worshipped Him. Then i just started praying and talking to Him about everything. As i talked to Him about everything, i started to release the weight off my shoulders. It just really reminded me of what Derek told me about you know, everything that we do, do and release into God's hands. No matter what it is, studying, just doing something you're talented at..everything. That's exactly what i did. And i felt way way lighter. SO much better. Really highlights the verse that i just recently love which is

Romans 8:14 :"As many as are led by the Spirit of God, these are Sons of God."

Really reminds me from time to time, that i have a God where when times are hard, and i feel that i really can't go on or make it through, He's gonna carry me through it! Because i am His daughter! (: Given a beautiful promise that He will always be there to carry me through it all if only I do one thing. Release. So many times we have problems in life, where we either panic or push it aside. They add more weight to our hearts. But God is always more than willing to take it from us if we’re willing to ask Him to do so. :D I just really wanna encourage you guys out there, probably reading this, when you’re facing difficult times, to learn to trust in God, to release it into His hands. But of course when you do that, you don’t do nothing right? HAHA. I mean like take for example, your studies. You don’t just say to God, “Okay God, I’m gonna just leave it all into Your hands!” and really leave it all to Him and not study at all. No way, God will help you! Haha! When you leave something in His hands, it means you also have to do your part. To study what you can but at the same time trust God that He will help you! :D AWESOME? YES? YES! hahahHHA!

Okay, I don’t have much time now. SO I’LL BLOG AGAIN SOON! :D LOVE YOU DUDES!

michelles.

Psalm 23

i remember learning this verse in last years freshwinds.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death, ^[a]
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.

I really love that last line. ' i will dwell in the house of the Lord forever '. Anyway, this will probably be one of my last posts before i head off to the 3months of revision and exams! So i'm sorry readers but nothing from me till after that. But i'll promise you a long blog today.

Its been alright so far!! Ling, Jeremy and Alex left today. :( Going to miss all of them. Ling and Jeremy have set great examples of leaders in Acts and i've learnt so much from them, even though im not SUPERDUPER close, but yeah. Their going to do great stuff in Singapore, and hopefully when i'm there i can meet up with them sometime :) And Alex!! i've only known him well like for 1 month? Hes really good to talk to, and a great encourager! I'll see him in July when i go for Hillsongs! :D

Through the couple of days, i've learnt a lot during my quiet time and from the TDJakes CDs i listen in the car on the way to school with my mom. That feeling of recieving the Word in the morning i tell you is so re-freshing and it really prepares you for your day ahead :) I love how the Bible relates to us in every single way and how ALL the solutions are in a book, with a great garuntee that you'll be able to get out of any situations or approach a situation the right way! I've also sang random worship songs in the early hours and felt the presence of God fall upon me, when i laugh histerically cus we all know we serve a funny God. full of JOY. And there are those times where i simply break down and cry because i feel so grateful that He gave all for me. We hear it all the time ' the Son of God died for you ' but when you really dwell on that, you open up to see theres more than just that. The meaning and purpose behind it. just wow.



I've been quite tired lately, waking up around 2 to study and do my homework because i find it easier that way. So yep, i've got to practise for my Chinese Orals which are tomorrow and yes i'm scared to the ends of the earth, but i'm going to have fun with it :) - makes it a whole lot easier yo!

Well, i would like to dedicate this post to.... MICHELLE!

Suprised? Haha, i wanna thank you for everything man! like through all that i've done you've always been there supporting me with powerful verses, and all :) When things just go wrong and i have doubtful thinking man i come to you first other than God, cus i know you'll always have a verse or just something encouraging to say, and it does make my day way way way better. I miss those days last year when we were much much much free, where we would talk endlessly on MSN (SAD I KNOW), but we'd shared great things together, and the inspiring things i find in her are just so incrediable HAHA it sounds like my perfect mate (EWW..) but yeah, one awesome person here guys! The lyrics that i read in your 'song book' were so touching and so powerful again. :) Those prayer times, where we'd just randomly say ' OKAY LETS PRAY! ' and right there and then, we would pray, would it be on MSN or over the phone.

You made my believe in prayers more and more, the persistance you had with me. I could've not thank you more. I hope your getting well! and Goodluck with the million and one things your doing! :) i know your superduperspongebobpatrickbob busyyy, so yep.



Well i hope post is long enough! i got to go now, revise for Chinese orals! i'll leave you with a few more pictures before i head off!

oh and before i forget...

there goes the hairrrrrr


much love,

Melissa