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ice-cube love from,
m.chelle.

HUHUHU! Surprise! Well not really. Michelle here. Blogging on the bali's laptop! Mel's here with me going high with the keyboard :P I've been good. Preparing for the O's and stuff HUHUHUHU! Anyways, this was just a short little update! One of the reasons why is because i don't have anything to say. HAHAHA but i'll get back..soon :D

HEHEHEHE Loves! 

i've known you this long.

heart to heart.

I'm in BRUNEI! I arrived on Sunday, and it does feel awesome to be back! I'll only be staying for a week. I had a good time seeing everyone in school! To see how everything in JIS has changed slightly, attended English Lang and Biology with friends. So that was good!

My house has a different smell....... okay maybe its because i haven't been here in quite sometime, and typing on my PC feels weird too haha, oh well! I stayed over at Von's house yesterday and it was gooood, went to huaho to eat jollibee! (yes something singapore doesn't have! nyeh)

Marie Digby!!! :) has entered my favourites. Its superduperly cool how people can get famous through YOUTUBE! that reminds me YOUTUBE DOWNLOADER! :)

Well nothing much has been happening, i'm going for a movie with my parents later, good family bonding time :) I was just doing some thinking, because tomorrows my sisters 4th year. Time is like flying by, even though some days we drag to go to school and sometimes we have longggg days. But its here the 4th year. Wow. My mum told me to write in the bulletin this year, but i couldn't think of anything to write, is it safe to say that i'm still missing her? She'd be 20 this year! haha so old raeeeee, Man i miss celebrating birthdays with her urgh! She'd come up with best birthday suprises and fooood (her pasta still beats my dads! lol.) I know if Rae were still alive she'd love Marie Digby! and Youtube, and she'd be still bullying me, but then I wouldn't quite know how'd she be like by now, being 20 and all (mature?) haha. Well at least a little bit...

I love having a sister, but its okay that shes not here, i still have her @ heart. :) and I thank God for her life - 15 years! Praise God! Shes still in my heart and forever will be. So i have something to say about her.

My sister, Rachael. She had a heart for the lost and broken. Even though at times she was the victim of a terrible situation, she'd always put people before her, she loved to express her feelings through poems and songs, i'd hear them through her door almost every night, yes even pass midnight. The passion I saw in her laughter, in her songs, in her writting, i admire her the way she would score so high for english - then having my mom telling me that i should read more. haha! She loves the beach and watching oprah. The last proper movie i watched with her was "Ghost Ship" and this was after she came back from Acts 29's P3 camp. I got so scared during the movie and i squeeze my butt into her small chair - suprisingly she didn't complain, she'd tell me in the midst of me being scared that she had prayed for me.

I didn't know what any of that meant, but i've grown to understand now. She would normally get me into trouble yes, we're sisters. People couldn't see that we're related and we were happy that way. She'd stare at me in school, and i'd stick out my tougue, you know normal sister stuff. Painting nails, doing hairs, making cards all those. One thing we had in common, we loved to keep things, we're sentimental. Every chocolate wrapper, stamps, stickers, tissues, paper, you name it we had it! We'd compare and trade, believe me this was when she was 13 i think. She wore power ranger glasses in year 5, and i'd make fun of her... I had this recording where we were interviewing each other and i said in the beginning :

m: so this is my sister rachael lee kah mun
r: shut up mei! your ruining it.
m: so she is so pretty, and she has power ranger glasses HAHAHA *runs away*
r: STOP IT!! THIS IS NOT A INTERVIEW!
m: she has one two three...*gets smuthered*
r: i kiss you ah i kiss you (MUAHMUAHMUAH)
m: screams in horror!!

haha if you were wondering what i was counting, i was counting the number of pimples she had. hahahahahaha :) Oh how i love her and her sillyness, her creativeness, her smile, just about everything! I must say that i do feel bad for not being there for her, but i couldn't do anything - by then we were pretty much in our own worlds, until i faced the fact that she was dying - it changed then.

My sister wasn't a girl that loved to party, get peircings and all that craziness, yes she loved those things, but behind that she had a passion for a "Change". She had the heart for people. The things my mom showed me in her diary, really opened up my eyes to this girl that was so fair, wore glasses, loved oprah, hate mustard, my sister was all about. Its like i met her through the poems she made, and really got to know her - although i missed the chance to have this part in life with her, i'm alright with that :)

So, please don't feel sorry for me, i've told you about her. I have to say live each day to it's fullest - laugh everyday, share, make new friends, say i love you to your parents and siblings - Rae's last words were 'mei i love you, goodnight'.

When we were much younger then,
you know when i was seven and you were 10,
those were the best times with you,
where our childish games had no rules.

We'd stick gum in each others hairs,
we were selfish, even sweets we didn't share,
then threatening me with your kisses,
i'll always remember you, my dearest sister.

You were taken away,
without my last say,
when i read your words on paper,
did i then realise later.

"If tomorrow starts without me" you said,
my heart fell as i read,
you said you'd always be here,
even when i was far, or when i was near.

The last words will forever ring in me,
they brought me on a journey,
that you've always loved
you've always loved me.

I'll never take that for granted,
even as things become wanted,
i'll hold on to those words you meant,
and remember your heaven's sent.

When we were much younger then,
you know when i was seven and you were 10,
those were the best times with you,
where our childish games had no rules.

Okay i had a go with my poem skillssssss, ahah not that good but oh well! i'll update soon. :)



this is for you rae - "Unfold" by Marie Digby

cheers.

maylee

because i'm free - :D

Hello! 

So I'm updating because i'm free :)

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately, about how 'feelings' can really change you. I say this because I've seen it happen to people and experienced it. I thought about how 'feelings' could destroy you when they're not good 'feelings' if you get what i mean. haha But yet we still fall into these 'feelings' and things just go allll wrongggg.

When we see friends or even random people cry, get depressed, starve themselves etc... because they allow 'feelings' to to take over and they're heart on the wire. They blog about it, they take pictures of themselves crying, and some of them try to keep it to themselves when its eating them inside out. oh gosh I'm beginning to sound so emotional right now, haha it is the point. So what are 'feelings' exactly?

I remember the ultimate break up haha yes i call that now, I no longer feel it. Although i remember I went through a bunch of tears, sleepless nights and all that drama rama haha. But thank God that I no longer feel it :). ANYWAY, back to my point... It is then when God really open my eyes to the term of my 'feelings' and my heart, and the whole function of it, and how it could really CHANGE you. 

How having your heart broken felt like you couldn't move on and standing up physically was even hard, but it was all in my head. He showed me that feelings are just 'things'. He too showed me how his heart beats for me, beats for people. How the blood that flows with every pump from every time we inhale. When we let 'feelings' consume us, we no longer breathe in the breath of God - thats why it feels so painful when you get your heart broken. We sing in praise/worship songs, that we want a heart like Gods, one that is compassionate, one that loves people like he/she loves God. When we sing to God to ask him to renew our hearts, and to then have a heart thats 'all for Him' - that means taking that step to lay down your heart and your feelings all for Him. 

It was then, did i realize how painful it was to break my heart and turn away from someone because I knew it was consuming me and turning me away from God. What about you? Does your heart rely on 'feelings'. Nothings holding me back, because i know that 'my chains are gone, i've been set free' - I'm living for someone, whos beyond anything and anyone, and He is going to watch over me, bring me to new stages in life - overcome it with me, as i walk the footsteps that he has already walked for me, all i have to do is follow. He has my life all planned out and i definately know that i'm going to have more DRAMA RAMA MAMAs to come, but i know that through those experiences, mannnnnnnnn i get stronger. I truely believe that i'm the strongest person alive! hahaha joking! You've got this person, who loves you endlessly, laughs with you till your stomach hurts and face too! haha, who listens not to your thoughts and your heart, who knows how your feeling, who wants Your life to SHOUT HIS FAME! He is Jesus.

 

ANYWAY, thats a bit of a thought there! I'm just lazing around on my ikea table and chair heeee, getting a bit tired. I had dinner already and honestly i have to cut down on how I eat! Its like eating in Brunei wasn't enough! ugh! stop eating melissa! hahahahahaahah Well hopefully i'll be able to burn it off tomorrow; I'm going to FLAG DAY... Me and a group of friends are going to one of the MRT stations and collect money for charity if i'm not wrong its for charity. You know the coin thing? then you get stickers for donating! hahah yes :D 

Well thats all i have to update! You'll be lucky if you get another update from me - if i get one of those 'empty, i have nothing better to do so i'll blog' dayyyssss.

CHEERS! 

mElissa

Ohmyhashbrowns! I haven't blogged in what seem like a super dinosaur ancient long time! I had and have so much to say yet words fail me. Fail to reason why i have not blogged for a long long time. So there are stories. Stories after stories after stories. Struggles after struggles. I don't know. But in the midst of everything, my God was still there. Still have been and always will be. Over the past few months, after finding out that i'm not gonna be SO active in church for a while, it's been hell. That didn't shatter my knowledge of who i serve. But it really disturbed my walk a lot. It went up and down. It was hard to pray. Hard to sing. Exams were so near. I couldn't focus. Everything was a mess that i couldn't get it all together. I tried to cry out but the hurt was so cut so deep that i couldn't say a word.

Rushes of insecurity filled my heart. I didn't know what i was anymore. I felt stupid at some point. Where i felt i wasn't as smart as the others. (cheap trick played huh?) I just asked God again and again. Why why why why why...why. I thought i had it all together. Then i felt Him saying, "Michelle, you have had Me in your mind..but was I in your heart?" I think there are lots of times we tend to do our devotions half-heartedly at times or nothing even. I think i tried to avoid that fact. It shows how important it is to really be true to God. Cause we can't hide anything from Him and He DEFINITELY knows our thoughts and hearts.

And constantly need to be reminded that through the many blessings and gifts that are given to us, we still have our backfires. Trials, temptations, MORE TRIALS. Yet we have an everlasting Solution, King, Saviour, Provider to overcome it with us. Just the name Jesus itself, is so power. So powerful to break and pierce through everything that we are and everything that we do. Jesus broke through our shame. Our sins. Even our flaws and became perfected in Him. Being not just a constant support and love but EVERLASTING even after the end of this generation. He'll still be the same.

No doubt that life is tough. Like, who doesn't know that? :P But God offers us SPECIFICALLY everything we need and its always what's best for us. Whereas the world may have everything we want but we don't need them.

Philippians 4:19
19 And this same God who takes care of me will supply all your needs from his glorious riches, which have been given to us in Christ Jesus.

It's definitely a tough road down this life. But there's always one truth that will keep us standing and trusting Him..


indeed, He makes all things new (:


L FOR LINGUINI!
M FOR MICHELLE!

p.s : i might have to pull off a disappearing act once again due to the preparation of O' Levels. I don't care how much you demand for an update. You just have to deal with it :) I'm already giving and early notice anyway. NYAHHAHAHAHA!

p.p.s : jabali, i miss you. HAHA!

HELLO EVERYONE!

OKAY i know it has been long since i updated BALI! :) haha, Singapores really exciting! loads of things coming up in College, getting really tiring! BUT BEFORE I GO ON...

CONGRATULATIONS TO YVONNE LIM YEE WON!!! :D

 

for getting top in ART! A! I'm really proud of you dude, i read the message in theatre class and i wanted to scream but my teacher was talking haha, but hope you got my MESSAGE HEHE :) really happy for you! GO NG ZHI LING!!! :D

ALSO...

CONGRATULATIONS TO AHDRAH AZAMAN!!! :D 

For getting accepted into LIM KOK WING! I knew you would get in! with your amazing grades like com'on! hahaha have fun working before leaving next year! update me! and also let me know when you come to Singapore :) 

WOW 2 GREAT news today :D I know I sound really HYPER right now, but i'm actually really really really drained! NEVERTHELESS! I'm really HAPPY for YVONNE AND DRA :D I wanna hear more great news okayyyyyyyyyy 

anyway back to today! Our combine class (theatre and music) went to watch a production in the morning, and it was CHAOS in the beginning because we all didn't know where SRT was, Singapore Repertoire Theatre. So the theatre group came up with idea of meeting up at City Hall Mrt at 10.30am - then from there go as a group to SRT by 11am. AND JUST LIKE BRUNEI, that when we tell people to come at 10.30 people started to come at 10.45 hahaha, and we still had to take a bus to the theatre from there. SO IF YOU HAVEN'T GUESSED YET. WE WERE LATE. hahaha and missed the first ACT. BUT ITS OKAY. :) The play was good :D laughed loads! 

So after that we went to eat! (shh... i ate KFC... =x but i shared it with Anne :) ) haha we went back to school after our unhealthy meal, and it was raining cats and dogs! (so cliche!) BUT I brought my umbrella, however one of my friends called Anne, was wearing such lovely clothes and didn't have an umbrella, so i sacrificed the umbrella and gave it to her, and I used my really thin jacket and got drenched :). I was alright with it, i was wearing my white dress... (those of you in brunei should know which one! haha) 

Me and Bryan got to school wet, since we were using jackets and we went to the 'green' to rest, and i was shivering crazy! haha and the dancers from our foundation batch came over and offered me clothes :D, and i gladly took they're offer. SO after that i was dry! and the MORAL of this story is? BRING 2 UMBRELLAS hahahahaha :P 

We had class after that and discussed a bit of the play and why WE WERE LATE then we dispersed to our groups and practiced the play... My group did beat 1 and we turned it into a song, so a choir thing! :D We had to come back after awhile to perform hehehe, and my group was the first to perform! We had great feedback that Michael (teacher) wants the piece notated on a music score and use it at the end of this year! WOOOHOOOO went my heart! hahaha I was really happy because our whole group really put all their efforts yo. haha and APPARENTLY I'm now known as G.I.P in my foundation batch. which stands for. GOOD IN PURPLE ahahaha :) the shirt that i borrowed from the dancers were purple. (/break: THANK YOU DANCERS!!! \break) haha. 

THAT WAS MY DAY! I know Chelle has just finished her exams today! so we should be hearing from her soon yes? :) 

to truly live for You,

to truly seek Your face

to turn turn my heart towards You

a thousand times a day! 

HAIR CUT IN SINGAPORE! :O

hello everyone! 2nd week of college... So far so good, its been tiring walking and waiting for classes, but having loads of fun getting to know people :D. We've already had 1 drama haha. Scary i know. :o) but oh well! we've settled it already. muahaha. Anyway, i'm most probably going to get my mac (BLACK!) early next week hehe. I can webcam with YOU ALL :D. so yes. :)

So yesterday i went to cut my hair near by, and wasn't too happy with it, i asked them to layer and thin it a BIT. and yeah they went as usual OVERBOARD. but itsokay, this morning i woke up and took my shower and made it somewhat nice. haha, so im pretty much okay with it now. wooohooo, and yesterday i decorated my room for an hour, and got tired haha since it was very late at night already.

:D

I bought this about a few days back, hehehe PIGLET :D

Haircut :D

The wall so FAR. this is 66/223 PHOTOS haha

THIS MANY TO GO!!! O_O. hahaha

well those are the pictures so far! I'll take pictures when im in Heart of God later :D hehe So excited. wehwhehwehwhehwe 8) i hope everyone back in brunei are doing great, CHELLE! goodluck in your mocks okay?! I haven't talked to you in ages! I know your going to do amazing! haahahah :D miss you dude.

thats all from me! singapore singapore singapore. :D

mElissa

MOCKS COMING UP! NEW SEASON! NEW CHALLENGES! NEW WHATEVER! BUSY! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!



Yes, that means i will be away for a while. but i'll be back after all the crazy hecticness is gone :) HEEE!


L FOR LONGAN!
M FOR MICHELLE!

I SEND GREETING FROM SINGAPORE! :D

hello everyone!! hehe, okay so theres this long update i have to do; because there has been so many things happening! i'll start from the beginning!

Monday:

I left Brunei at 12pm, :( thank you to everyone who sent me off at the airport, i tried my best not to cry but you know it'll always get to you one way or another haha. My flight to Singapore was alright, tiring because of crying haha... but i had Rachel to keep me company, talked about many things :)

When we arrived in Singapore, we went to Parkview to do some shopping and to kill some time, as we have to go back to the airport to drop Rachel off for her flight to Sydney. So we walked around and suprisingly things were on SALE! :D hehe, 50%, 20% off and so on. :) so i bought :

Faceshop eyeliner, masacara and the eyeliner sharper, a really nice OG yellow T-shirt, hairbands and hairties :) hehe. Walked around with Rachel, went to eat and dropped her off. :D hope your flight was good Rach! (thats if your reading) hehe. After that we went to my uncles place to settle our luggages and to just 'chill' haha, was real good to see my cousins and uncle and aunty! :)

Tuesday :

Got up super duper early to go to my school to settle somethings :) - then i don't remember what we did after that haha

Wednesday :

Went out of lunch with my other uncle :) then back to Lasalle to take my picture of my student identity card! :D then after that i don't remember haha sorry!!!

TODAY! :

ORIENTATION!!! It was good!! I made friends easily and although some people there are a bit yeahhhhhhh. it was good. We had this workshop where you were put into a group of 6 people, and then the lectueres would then give you a word... With this word you have to discuss with your group and come up with a musical piece that portrays the word. We were only allowed to use 1piano (with one people playing only), sleigh bells, a mobile phone and our body percussion. My group's word was 'friction' haha this was probably the hardest but we came up with a good role play and came up with 2 ideas of how fiction could destroy music but also bring it together, we got good feedback yo! :D

Oh and yes, i'm the youngest in my year hehehehe, everyone else is 18 and above haha, but its okay! hehe BURN BRIGHT! hehe

Well, thats the updates so far, i went shopping yesterday as well at BUGIS!!! hehe =) oh yes i'll update with pictures soon, sorry yeah, i kind of left my camera in my uncles taxi hahaha so i'll get it back this Saturday :)

Hope everyone in Brunei is AWESOME!!!!!!!!!! =D, i start school this monday, and my timetable is awesome, since i'm in foundation i get to do everything!!! hehe, from Aurals, theory, performing, YOGA!!!, gamelan, percussion, keyboard skills, improvisation etc... :) and each day i go to school at different times haha.

Monday - 11am

Tuesday - 9am

Wednesday - 12pm

Thursday 12.30pm

Friday 8.30am

if im not wrong ahah i just closed my time table!

Well i contacted Joyce and Heart Of God isn't having service this sunday, so my mom wants to go to New creation church :) and tomorrow got another busy day!!!

Thats all from me, enjoy reading guys! and keep pressing on YEAH! LET GOD BE YOUR SOLUTION :D

mElissa

MEL I MISS YOU MUCHO! Please PLEASE PLEASE 1000x PLEASE take care of yourself properly okay. You gave me and M quite a scare just now but thank God you're okay :) ANYHOOS, i just came back from school like an hour ago. I'm dead tired! Especially my toes. I was wearing new shoes so i wasn't too used to it. So my big toes hurt like crazy. And my friend stepped on one when we were in the book store to top it all off. Like perfectly hit the spot. Ouch man - -"! So i just had my malay orals! I'm pretty glad to get it over with! It's so amazing what prayers can do even though you say such a simple one. I prayed with Rachel before going for it :) After praying, i wasn't as nervous as i was before. It turned out fine in the end anyways! The beauty of releasing situations into the hands of our God! He always ensures guidance when you ask for it :)! But we obviously have to mean what we say by saying that we TRUST Him. So i'll be honest. I've felt a little distant from God lately. It's so hard to do my quiet time and stuff. But i remember doing it yesterday, i think i heard Him saying about opening doors. THIS IS LIKE REALLY MY BAD! HAHA. But i'm amazed by my God! :) IM A CHRISTIAN AND IM NOT ASHAME TO SAY IT!!! (uhhhh .. facebook! :P)


I think many christians think that once they do something bad, they're likeee totally wrong already. And start condemning themselves! They get the idea that God will condemn them and will remember what they did. But that's not our Daddy man! Our God is like such a merciful God! And even if we've done wrong, we are still RIGHTEOUS in God! For this righteousness we possess is a God-given gift as us being His children! :) God doesn't condemn, God FORGIVES! :D Only the devil condemns people and keeps giving you disturbing thoughts, reminding you of what you did. SICKOOOOO! Hahaha, but RIGHTEOUSNESS IS ETERNITY IN US WHO BELIEVES! :)

and i'll leave you guys with this..

The outcome of an approximately 3-hour project! HAHA. So messy :S

This is what Wei Jin did to prepare for his orals. :)

WJ: Michelle bodoh.
M: Whatchu call me?!?!?!
*starts walking towards WJ*
*WJ starts backing away*
*Richmond comes and shoves WJ*
*starts taking out phone*
M: I'll call my brother!
WJ: Okay! OKAY! Please don't! I was talking to the other Michelle but just pointing at you!
M: - -"

Wei Jin is such a freak. :P HAHA but so funny!

L FOR LINGUINI
M FOR MICHELLE!

Homagash. Mel left like *lost count*.. HOURS ago! I still feel a little yeah but it's okay. Not as bad as this morning. MEL, IM SURE YOU'VE LANDED IN SINGA---P-Pp-OORREEE already! DO TELL ME HOW TIHNGS ARE OKAY!?!?







-- and i left this like hanging for few hours. WOOPS. OKAY OKAY a proper update soon okay? :D I PROMISE THIS TIME!


m.chelle.

I'm OFF in 12hours!!

takecare everyone, i'm super duper sorry that i can't text everyone! it's because i don't have that much credit with me :( so yeah! But i wish you all the best, my dear readers :) I'm going to most definately miss all the friends i've made! and even teachers! :O haha, its been a great time in Brunei! and i can't wait to see everyone grow up! I must admit, i was really upset today. It hit me real hard. haha, But i know that

"as we go onnn we remember, all the times we had together... as our lives change come what ever we will still be friends foreverrrrrrr."

AHAHHA, i have no idea, that just came into mind! Neways, CHELLE update okay?! :) i wanna read read read when im in Singapore.

Bah, this is it from me for now ;) hehhehehehehehh

mElissa :D

PACKING!!!

okay so today i'm listing the things to pack, and so far im listing ALOT of things down hehe. But i think its because i'm making the list really specific for example:

Accesories:

1. toothbrush
2. toothpaste

HAHA! so you can imagine how my a4 paper looks like :D I'm bringing back loads of memories :) pictures and what nots. I just got home from Aunty Christina and Uncle Hong Kee's Memorial Wake, greatest and deepest condolences to the family. I'll be going to Mira's place later, to see her before she goes off for holiday tomorrow, and after that i have a dinner at empire! so busy day!

Mondays not that far away, its about 4 more days? I'm really excited!! Can't sleep much at night hehe, thinking about how first day of school is going to be like. I'm going to have oreintation as well, so hopefully i'll get to meet people there already. :D going to be really super duperly friendly haha, next thing you know i'm quiet as a mouse. heeeeee. My family is following me there, but after a week my dad will leave me and my mom. Please pray that we'll find either a HDB that is at a reasonable cost, or i'll get a space a this hostel.

I'll post pictures soon, but after i leave i won't be posting much as 1) i'll be really busy and 2) i don't think i'll have a computer, let alone internet access for awhile. But once i do, i'll post and update hehe, Michelle ah you better find time :) after your exams of course!! i'll be waiting to read the many posts. hehe

Haha i remember this :) huaho!!!!

Yes! its raining, i love rainy weathers!

MELISSA

God, You are my strength
Through You, victory stands
In the hearts of those
Who longs for You

You reign forever
No eyes shall fail to see
That You are God
I wait on You, God.
I look to You.

‘ Surely your salvation is coming;
Behold, His reward is with Him,
And His work before Him.’”
12 And they shall call them The Holy People,
The Redeemed of the LORD;
And you shall be called Sought Out,
A City Not Forsaken.


L for lunch,
M for michelle.

(H)

thank you chelle :), the post almost made me cry! haha, well i've got a busy week ahead and the last week...

Tomorrow - Miri trip with Von, (i've been waiting for this.)
Friday - Sunday - Down to KB and Miri with Charlotte and Euodia!
Monday - Going out with Desko!
Tuesday - Going out with Charlotte and Michelle! :D
Wed, Thur, Friday - FREE most likely packing, but if anyone wants to book :D i'll make exceptions! hehe
Saturday - TALENTIME :D
Sunday - Church (L) and outing hopefully with friends
MONDAY - bye bye Brunei, hello Singapore!

I'm gonna miss everyone back here! everyone single one of YOU :D hehehe, great stupid random weird times shared here, and definately i'll come back once in a while, not sure about coming back at the end of the year! But hopefully, if not, i'll send you guys Christmas Cards :)

okay thats all from me :D

MELISSA

ps:

I (f) chelle
I (tu) des
I (r) jess
I (*) charlotte

haha i don't know who else i've gave msn thingy-ma-bobes..

Mel mel mel, I KNOW! You're giving me the silent treatment through this blog. Well only through blogs. But i don't blame you. HEE! :D Where have i been exactly? No where in particular actually. Just been really busy with COUNTLESS of activities. Some even came unexpectedly and had to be done on the spot. Which was tiring, crazy but keeps my life exciting anyways! I thank God for giving me friends. That did sound a little sad didn't it? I mean, GREAT friends. I've mingled with gazillions of people from different cultures, backgrounds, ages, names...WHATEVER! But through that walk, i've met really great friends. One will definitely be MELISSA LEE / SPONGEBOB / BALI BALI / HUMAN GLOWSTICK / it goes on :P Mel, i'm really sorry for not being able to spend as much time as i thought i could with you. We probably do run out of things to say when we talk online and PROBABLY not as close as we actually were back then. But that’s besides the point. I’m just going to be really honest about it all. It doesn’t matter how distant or close we may be. But as much as I can, I will still be here for you to listen and talk when you need someone. J The miss-yous still stand and will always be there. :P Can’t imagine you being far from me. I’m gonna miss those hugs that were so special (it almost made me cry), thoseeee totally absurd yet amusing conversations even when they never made sense at all. HAHA. I remember there was one where we talked about inventing a bubble? AHHAHAHA. I’d have a pretty good laugh at that if I still have that convo. :P

But as you go off to Singapore, I wish you the best of the best! :D You’re going to be fine there I’m sure. Life’s so exciting right!! Haha! I know you’ve gone through tough times, but you’re out of that now J God’s children always overcome I tell you! :D A new beginning ahead of you! Rawr but bring that old-time God relationship with you. J Heee. YOU’RE GONNA PROSPER SO MUCH I TELL YOU! :I’m so excited for you my dear! But thank you for bringing so much joy, craziness, lameness into my life. IT’S BEEN A GREAT PLEASURE! :P But I hope you take MY LAMENESS along with you to Singapore :P HAHA, one will definitely be the one where I couldn’t laugh like you. HAHA. That ‘muahhahhahahhaha’ thing. AHAHA BUT WHATEVER! I CAN TOTALLY DO IT NOW OKAY! :D But yeah, thank you! J And someday, maybe I’ll pop into one of your classes in a wig and shades and mah bling-blings to steal you away and you’ll take me around the place ;D HAHAHA. Okay? HAHA OKAY! MEL, I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY VERY MUCH! J BANANA BOAT!

*Walks in a room*

“Uuuuu.. block of wood”

*Mel and Char laughs*

L for Liquorice.

m for michelle.

hello hello,

We've got to keep this blog alive! haha, i know Michelles really busy for the past few days, its okay! Lifes meant to be filled with excitement and stress at the same time. haha i'm blabbering. Anyway, i've been at home for 5 days straight, and i need to go out and see people. :( I woke up today lazing in bed thinking about Singapore and how fast all this is going; i remembered the first day of year 7 for me and now i'm no longer am a Jerudong International School student. There were definately irreplaceable memories that i've created there ever since i joined JIS in 1997, where i met people like Yvonne, Rachel, Jordan, Shaun, Muiz, Annabell, Annarose, Jacob so on and so forth, and when i re-joined JIS in 2003? if i'm not wrong, i met, Dra, Jess, Pirng, Catherine, Ruby, Charlotte, Euodia and later on Karen, Janny, Diyana, and all these amazing people :)

Not only did i meet people, but after i re-joined JIS i met people like Bernard, Michelle, Ting, Derek, Ida, Vivien, Sam... people so full of life, and made my stay in Brunei such a unforgettable one. (haha it sounds like i was in Brunei only for a holiday), all of the friends that i've met over the years in Brunei have definately made me a different person, but the biggest person that i've met thats changed me inside out, is God. In 2006 (acts29 Elevate Camp), it was the most extraordiary encounter, and to meet people like Beverly, Angel, Desmond was just once in a life time!

I already feel homesick even though i haven't even left yet, i've got 24 more days and that sounds pretty long to me, but i know its going to fly by. I know i shouldn't make such a big fuss over the fact because i'm only going to Singapore which is only 2 hours away by plane, but it's just the fact that i won't see the people i usually see everyday. I know with time and with God, i'll adapt to Singapore life, and meet more interesting people to add to the collection :D So yes i don't have to worry because i know God will just take care of this future. I remember God spoke to me during a situation and this is a part of what he said...

"Focus on me, and i'll show you what i see."

So i was just "wow" haha, I just want to thank all the friends that i've made, even though some i'm not close to some right now... Thank You So Much, you have NO idea how much YOUR sharing, laughing, crying, annoying, eating, sleeping, running, cycling, jumping, rolling, farting and SO SO SO many more, has made this part of my life so exciting! :D Hopefully me and Michelle will keep this blog running, and probably when we're like 50? haha okay la 30, we'll look back and remember :), and i can gaurantee, i know this is isn't as good as it gets, because it gets better.

- MEL

HELLO WORLD!!...again

Well sorry for the lack of updates from me, been really tired and yeah lazy to blog. So far so good! the holidays are alright :) I slept up to 4 today, because i was really beat after the 6 days of going out haha so yup! Been going to Qlap mall alot well for the past 2 days, to hang out with friends :)

SO far i've watched :

They're pretty much alright (: Satistfied with the movies i've watched. i've actually lost my mood to blog, so i'll just upload a few more pictures!


eh loh vee ee,

Melissa

ps: chelle i'm so very proud of you, learning piano by yourself and all!! ahah miss you!!!

i am totally speechless and have nothing to say. But all i can say is that i am fine. Well pretty fine. hahaha. Mel, it feels like ages since we've talked and no matter how dead this is, we're keeping this up okie. HAHA. :) You're leaving like so soon. dang. hahaha.

legs > heart > lungs > heart > arms.
blood.
ahhaha. RANDOM.

untying the weight bags;

MICAH 7:8

8 Do not rejoice over me, my enemy;
When I fall, I will arise;
When I sit in darkness,
The LORD will be a light to me.

michelles.

This town is colder now, I think it's sick of us
It's time to make our move, I'm shakin off the rust
I've got my heart set on anywhere but here
I'm staring down myself, counting up the years
Steady hands, just take the wheel...
And every glance is killing me
Time to make one last appeal... for the life I lead

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're 'here' not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, can u see what I see

They're tryin to come back, all my senses push
Un-tie the weight bags, I never thought I could...
Steady feet, don't fail me now
Gonna run till you can't walk
But something pulls my focus out
And I'm standing down...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be, oh
Stop and stare
You start to wonder why you're here not there
And you'd give anything to get what's fair
But fair ain't what you really need
Oh, you don't need

What u need, what u need...

Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
Yeah I know that everyone gets scared
But I've become what I can't be
Oh, do u see what I see.

i love this. Great lyrics. Great vocals. Catchy song. I LOVE IT! I sing this like almost everywhere and anywhere i go. :P I know its always being played on tv and stuff. But to really capture what the song is all about is something not done all the time by people. Hahaha.

michelles.

I'm staying in Your arms today, Always and Forever!

Goodmorning!!!!

OOOkay its 15more minutes till afternoon, OHWELL! Today is SUNDAYYY :D hehe, bohyy am i excited for todays service!! After this i'll be going to study a bit of Physics and hopefully some Business? :) 4 more papers! just 4 more! till i'm freeeeeeeee well i've got some stuff to things to prepare for the farewell hehe...

The recital yesterday was alright, it was a little bit too long if you ask me. I had fun performing, Von was panicking that she couldn't remember the lyrics, so i had to look at her when it was her part hahaha. Hopefully i'll get to perform somemore before i leave to Singapore, got to get rid of this 'stage fright' hehehe. so excited!! got around 50 days left in Brunei ):

God,

How could i ever thank you for all you've done for me, but give this life; all that i have, to You. You took the Weight of the World on Your shoulders. You did all for me, I can't believe i serve the King the ONE and ONLY, I can't wait for you move your fire over this place, ignite Your Fire. Before i ever called Your name, you gave Your life for me. You did it all for me. You've showed me LIFE. You have my whole 'life' all planned out, You want the BEST for me. I know at times i might fall, and doubt You, but i know i find my way back to You. Nothing can ever compare to that. I love you so much, thank You.

'Take me as i am, into your new scarred hands and when i run so far away, you always call me back again.'

my light, dedicated.

el oh vee yee;

mel

Mummy OH mummy (:

" NA Happy Birthday "

a daily conversation i had with my mom :)

Me: maaaaaa did you buy and clothes recently?
Ma: ya why?
Me: can i see them :D
Ma: okay, their in my closet...

*opens closet.*

Me: wow. and this can fit you? hehehe
Ma: why not?! okay la, they might not...
Me: uh huh.
Ma: "NA happy birthday" *hands me the shorts*

HAHAHAH shes so adorable (: she was a bit blur when she said it because she was doing her 'own' stuff so i left with the shorts haha...

and i just realised that i'm taller than her now, and i look alot like her HAHAHA. yep this was such a random post.

5 more papers! :D

el oh vee yee,

mel :)

And i know You'll never let me go.

Literature is OVER :)

It was alright. 2hours and 40minutes, endured! hahaha, i was honestly drifting of a bit... haha

Anyway last night, i couldn't get to sleep, 1am passed then 2am... it wasn't because anything was bothering me, i felt excited for some reason!! Wow man i just sat in bed thinking about what God has done for me, and what he has done for friends that have told me about their testimonies, and it just blows my mind. And the coolest part is... What more now? :) He's gonna do much greater things, greater plans!,... wow.

'Oh love in the shadows
Be the light who leads me on
You're love I will follow Be my guide,
you're will be done Oh Lord'

Life's greatttttttt :D, I've seen how much my parents have grown stronger over these pass few years, and although they continue to stumble during the hard times in life, i'm just so amazed at how they are able to hang on. Especially my Daddy, like man he works from morning (around when i leave the house which is around 7.) till, 12 in the morning when i'm asleep, and yes i hardly see him, but even so i still i feel so close to him. I wanna encourage you all who have parents who are still unbelievers to PRESSON. We've heard of people who've prayed for their mothers/fathers for years and finally see the breakthrough come to pass. It's just so amazing.

We know the King of Kings, the Creator, Saviour. The one who loves us to the Ends of the earth, the one that'll never let us down or leave us nor forsake us, i'm asking you, what more do you ever need? When you have Jesus, you have Everything.

I'm so proud of both you of you, you have NO IDEA.. World, meet My mommy and my daddy, the two most outstanding people in my life. They've inspired me so much to see that life is hard, but nevertheless you still 'fight' :)

I dare you to Dream big! 8)

lalalalalove,

Melissa :D

Hahaha! Oh man! Yesterday, i made it to the blogging box. But nothing was touched. Well actually, i typed one line and then that's it. Been really busy with a lot of things. Even my blogging mood is slipping away. :P Hahaha. It's either that or i really don't know what to talk about. My business has been wrapped around school, my devotional time, issues and everything else. And i've honestly never been any busier in my life! There was Exams, Acts' Big Day, School, Magazine, songs, God.. man everything that makes my life so exciting. I've learned and been learning at the same time, to live life out of it. To really appreciate every single moment of your life like there's no tomorrow. But honestly, things feel very confusing now. HAHA. It's like half good and bad for some reason. I DON'T KNOW! HAHAHA. Sometimes i just think about too many things at a time, that i can't focus on one thing. But i'll sort things out, that's for sure. (: As much as i want everything to be fine and easy, i still need to face it that things aren't gonna be easy. I hate that fact but that's just life. But that makes it all exciting anyways. (: I've got my God, what more could i ever ask for?

jas, i miss you man.
MEL, i miss you so much too fishamazoto (oops, i think i changed it again!)
bev, i'll see you soon :) heehaaa!!

i miss Acts so much. seriously.

michelles.

Jesus, i pray so hard that You don't pass me by. If it is Your will, please take these away from me. ONLY According to Your will, God. No one else.

overcoming it.

The truth is, its so hard. I've told myself over and over again, that it won't affect me, but in the end it does. I'm so sick and tired of it, i just turned to God. He told me to get rid of the past. At first i thought to myself i can't do this on my own, i don't know why...even when i'm OVER IT.

Today, i got rid of it. Well i didn't do it myself, but i told my mom about my continous nightmares, eating disorders and a lack of concentration, i also informed her about what God told me to do. She gathered all the things, and not even a thought she got burnt EVERYTHING. You have no idea how great i feel right now, the peace that i've been lacking ever since the nightmares. I'm over it completely. Jesus is my freedom, He is the Solution, He loves me more than my parents, He wants the best for me. How is it that i can believe in something that i don't see? It's the faith.

We have to face it, even if we're followers of Christ... Life is still hard, but with the God we find things much more possible than without Him. We're still human, we fall into things like love and what not. I just want to encourage you that God has that special person for you out there, and he's planned it ALL out man, so i learnt a long time a ago when Ling preached a message about something like this, and she said not to 'experiment' with God.

People have told me that their really amazed at how i could handle things like this. It's not me, it' s God. I realised that i can't do it without Him. (L) oh my my my. (:

Another day, Another problem, Overcomed! I.M.POSSIBLE!!

CHELLE (like where are you?!)

okay, so Mich was meant to blog yesterday night, but she was busy doing something else, i can't stand the look of our blog looking so dead so yeah!!!!

Her exams are overrrrrrrrrr and mine are just never ending! i've finished...

English lang
Music
Chinese listening
Chinese reading
Maths paper 1
Business paper 1

yep! overall, all were... so far so good, except for maths :( i have to work REAL hard on paper 2 to get least a B yo! at least push my marks up a bit! Right now i have no papers for a week, till June, gotta take advantage of the 1 week break to study everything else! so far i have 8 more papers to go, im considered lucky man compared to others who have 11? or more than that! :S

anyhoots, my birthday was good, pictures are on www.xanga.com/smelly_butt if your one of those who only visits a blog for pictures :p ( haha im not saying thats wrong, i do that sometimes too =x) My days have been passing really fast because of all the revision and all the hOOhA! Thank you uber much to Euodia for tutoring me mad! She can really teach man! i think even better than some of my teachers. :)

Well this week we're launching the 3rd service on Sunday! it'll be our YOUTH service :D (i'm excited for that!) :O! We'll still be having our Acts meetings on fridays if im not mistaken however its just going to be foundation classes going on. So yep! I miss everyone back in Acts!! haven't seen them in AGESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

oh yeah have i mentioned that my finger nails are getting too long!!! their causing my typos (now i know how Rowena feels) hahahahaah Well i just got back from Business exam and i'm beat. I want to take a shower but then i wanna enjoy whats left of the weather toooo~ oh wellzah!

Well thank you all for making this 17 th birthday for me a memorable one! i loved the little suprises that i didn't expect. Special thanks to my friends in school and Yvonne, Jo and Bernard!! for suprising me :) much much much MUCHHHHH love, hehe..

HAHAHA :) messing arounddd during studyy~

WAAAA Sakai :p

oh btw, my mom talked to me about photography as a minor :O when i go back to singapore.

maylee (:

CHELLE.

oh beautiful wonderful chelle, your so gonna get it from me when i see you man! but thank you for the sweet post below the OH SO *ahem* picture. you crack me up man!

i'll miss em moments but surely i'll come back and for definate there will be more! hahaha i swear man michelle here can be the LAMEST person on the face of this earth, she comes up wit the craziest ideas ever, thats why she cracks me up. Always there for me to text and wait for like 19854091 days for her to reply, if she had a car she'd come visit me :) thats how special i am to her! anyways, i just wanted to add a post to you know 'thank' you!

love,

meliSARS.

VERY THE BALI!
I hereby present to you, the..person-who-looks-like-one-who-reacts-slow-when-slapped MELISSA LEE! Who happens to be promoting the facial product she's used. Haahahahhahahah! And while at it, she grew a beard! :) Mafia man! HAHAHA.

I've been *coughs* forced to write something about this woman! Hahaha! Haven't i done this like a couple of times? HAHA. Anyways, yeah. She's grown over the years. Shaped and disciplined by God. Makes her seem so perfect. (Right) :P HAHAHA. But she's this really really awesome girl with an awesome personality serving an awesome God! She can be so lame at times but i forgive her for that. ;) I think its safe to say that we went a long way back. From the hi and bye buddies to actually being really close. Hahaha, all those really random moments and names we'd have and come up with! The EMPIRE moments. It's something that i'd definitely keep in my heart man. HAHAHA. And who happens to be leaving for Singapore REALLY soon! HAHA. I'll definitely miss you! Haha but at the same time ecstatically excited for you and what God is going to do through you! God's going to ZOOM you into a future you could never imagine it to be. So much thrill and life awaits you. ;) We've GOT TO KEEP in touch man. Hahaha! Like on everything. HAHAHA. My Sponbob. Thank you for all the lame moments as well as, on the more serious side, all the support you've always been giving me. Truly a daughter of God. Never fails to win the heart of God in so many ways. Can't wait to see you grow dude. May God bless you abundantly in all areas of your life. To live a life of prosperity through Christ! Really reminds me of the parable of the mustard seed where it may seem so small at first, but as it begins to grow..it's gonna be HUGE! :D HAHA THAT WILL BE YOU MAN! God's going to carry you all the way. :) HEHA! Awu eh. Awsomely blessed to have you as a friend dear! :) And now i leave you all with the end results of the freakingly awkward yet cool picture earlier. :) HAHAHA.

love, michelles.

woahwoahwaoh!

(: hey guys, things have been packing up with the exams, and what nots. Prom audtions are this week if im not wrong, and hopefully me and bils will be doing something. hehe we haven't even practised, but itsokayyyyy~

Well, i won't be going to the Hillsongs Conference after all, personal finance issues at home, but itsokay, i know there are still many opportunites :) Besides that, i just got the news that i have no where to stay right now in Singapore when i return, so mommy is going back there for 5 days to settle my 'apartment?' 8).... HEHEHE The thing is i have no one to share it with, like when my mom comes back... so yeah. But i believed that God's gonna take care of all of that... Mom's told me to get some things packed for her to bring back so that i don't have to carry a whole load back when i leave~ So been choosing the certain clothes and stuff (books * ahem *, guitar, piano HAHA ) so on and so forth. I'm really excited about it, can't wait to meet new and interesting people. I know Singapore ain't that far from Brunei and stuff, but its most definately a new enviroment to adjust to, like com'on; time over there is like 'CHOP CHOP' and the drivers...However, I'll be leaving my home, daddyyy, friends, my bed. :(, but i'll certainly come back for the holidays.

I can't wait to take 'Public Transport' again~ i remember my 3 years there, it was so much fun hanging with friends after school and taking bus and MRT rides ANYWHERE! :D unlike here in Brunei where you really have to depend on cars. I know the competition in Laselle is hard, i could sense it when i walked in, but i know i'm gonna have fun. Its what i've worked for, and what i'm so proud of! so ALL THE WAY BABY hehehe.

I'll be attending Heart of God Church, its been like i think 7 years? or less since i last been there. I can't wait to get plugged in and ready to meet the challenges ahead! Hopefully when i'm in Singapore i'll meet up with Bernard, Joyce, ling and Jeremy, it'd be nice. (: Then of course theres the shopping which i have to control... oh and yes have i mentioned? I have to work haha, its going to be busy busyy bussssyyy... but you know this will be my first time 'working' as in like a proper JOB.

Exams are in like 2 weeks, or so. Some people have exams this Friday (goodluck!) First exam is English Lang (for meeeeee). Which i'm 'okay' in. Aiming for an A, since i've been getting Bs. Well i hope everyones doing fine, and Von if your reading this Miss You dude! hope your having a good time. See you Wednesday!

Emerson!

love,

mel

this was just days before.

Rae, even though we've moved houses. I think about you a whole lot, the times we fight over the the stupid tv, having dinner infront of the TV, tomyam challenges, you singing me to bed, faking sick just to make me a birthday cake, oprah freaks, i love and i miss you. I know you can hear me, right now the day you left, that exact feeling is hitting me again, yeah it hurts, and i've let go of you, i just miss you. I know thats alright right?

this much, so much, i love you.

Hello bello! Kind of reminds me of Jelly Bellies. Hmm. (AHAHA Mel, popcorn flavour..uhh :P) Anyways, i'm serious running out of things to even blog about. Hahaha School was fine today. Was still pretty wiped out from yesterday's hectic schedule but it got a little better in the later morning! BUT AGAIN, things got slightly heavy in the afternoon. I was bothered with a lot of things. Well actually not that much, just two things. But the pressure kept pushing me harder and harder. I didn't feel so good. It kept bothering me the whole afternoon that i couldn't get myself to focus on studying. I was so so so desperate for an answer then. I needed an answer from God. Honestly, this is seriously the first time i've ever had so so much compassion over a friend. I mean, i'm not saying like i've never had on my other friends. I did but this one just feels really different. What the amazing thing is i'm not even close to that friend. I believe this is really what the passion for other people is all about. Having this great unexplainable compassion over the person that you'd wreck your brains out just to help him/her. So i was having my supposedly afternoon quiet time. I was all prepared and ready after singing a few songs and all, i was so ready to talk to God and everything until...........my mom came in to my room. NICE RIGHT?!?! She wanted me to do something. I was honestly annoyed but yeah i just sucked air in and did what she asked me to do. Then i continued my quiet time. It felt good. It's one of those moments when desperation calls out loud and you'd do anything. I felt that way. I really really needed Him to guide me. My heart was heavy and was carrying a load i knew i couldn't carry on my own. I decided to release it into His hands again.

And how i was telling Him that i wasn't gonna go anywhere until i hear Him. So in the stillness, i waited on Him. It didn't take very long for Him to answer me. He started encouraging me, even led me to the Word to confirm that it's clearly what He wants me to do.


That's what i get for trusting Him. HAHAHAHA WHICH IS GREAT! I just love my Creator so much! Knowing that i can always rely on Him. Reminding me again and again of how He'll carry me through times like these. I'm just so in love with Him man! His kindness will never depart from us. :) rawr! LOVE LOVE!

michelles.