overcoming it.

The truth is, its so hard. I've told myself over and over again, that it won't affect me, but in the end it does. I'm so sick and tired of it, i just turned to God. He told me to get rid of the past. At first i thought to myself i can't do this on my own, i don't know why...even when i'm OVER IT.

Today, i got rid of it. Well i didn't do it myself, but i told my mom about my continous nightmares, eating disorders and a lack of concentration, i also informed her about what God told me to do. She gathered all the things, and not even a thought she got burnt EVERYTHING. You have no idea how great i feel right now, the peace that i've been lacking ever since the nightmares. I'm over it completely. Jesus is my freedom, He is the Solution, He loves me more than my parents, He wants the best for me. How is it that i can believe in something that i don't see? It's the faith.

We have to face it, even if we're followers of Christ... Life is still hard, but with the God we find things much more possible than without Him. We're still human, we fall into things like love and what not. I just want to encourage you that God has that special person for you out there, and he's planned it ALL out man, so i learnt a long time a ago when Ling preached a message about something like this, and she said not to 'experiment' with God.

People have told me that their really amazed at how i could handle things like this. It's not me, it' s God. I realised that i can't do it without Him. (L) oh my my my. (:

Another day, Another problem, Overcomed! I.M.POSSIBLE!!

CHELLE (like where are you?!)

okay, so Mich was meant to blog yesterday night, but she was busy doing something else, i can't stand the look of our blog looking so dead so yeah!!!!

Her exams are overrrrrrrrrr and mine are just never ending! i've finished...

English lang
Music
Chinese listening
Chinese reading
Maths paper 1
Business paper 1

yep! overall, all were... so far so good, except for maths :( i have to work REAL hard on paper 2 to get least a B yo! at least push my marks up a bit! Right now i have no papers for a week, till June, gotta take advantage of the 1 week break to study everything else! so far i have 8 more papers to go, im considered lucky man compared to others who have 11? or more than that! :S

anyhoots, my birthday was good, pictures are on www.xanga.com/smelly_butt if your one of those who only visits a blog for pictures :p ( haha im not saying thats wrong, i do that sometimes too =x) My days have been passing really fast because of all the revision and all the hOOhA! Thank you uber much to Euodia for tutoring me mad! She can really teach man! i think even better than some of my teachers. :)

Well this week we're launching the 3rd service on Sunday! it'll be our YOUTH service :D (i'm excited for that!) :O! We'll still be having our Acts meetings on fridays if im not mistaken however its just going to be foundation classes going on. So yep! I miss everyone back in Acts!! haven't seen them in AGESSSSSSSSSSSS!!!

oh yeah have i mentioned that my finger nails are getting too long!!! their causing my typos (now i know how Rowena feels) hahahahaah Well i just got back from Business exam and i'm beat. I want to take a shower but then i wanna enjoy whats left of the weather toooo~ oh wellzah!

Well thank you all for making this 17 th birthday for me a memorable one! i loved the little suprises that i didn't expect. Special thanks to my friends in school and Yvonne, Jo and Bernard!! for suprising me :) much much much MUCHHHHH love, hehe..

HAHAHA :) messing arounddd during studyy~

WAAAA Sakai :p

oh btw, my mom talked to me about photography as a minor :O when i go back to singapore.

maylee (:

CHELLE.

oh beautiful wonderful chelle, your so gonna get it from me when i see you man! but thank you for the sweet post below the OH SO *ahem* picture. you crack me up man!

i'll miss em moments but surely i'll come back and for definate there will be more! hahaha i swear man michelle here can be the LAMEST person on the face of this earth, she comes up wit the craziest ideas ever, thats why she cracks me up. Always there for me to text and wait for like 19854091 days for her to reply, if she had a car she'd come visit me :) thats how special i am to her! anyways, i just wanted to add a post to you know 'thank' you!

love,

meliSARS.

VERY THE BALI!
I hereby present to you, the..person-who-looks-like-one-who-reacts-slow-when-slapped MELISSA LEE! Who happens to be promoting the facial product she's used. Haahahahhahahah! And while at it, she grew a beard! :) Mafia man! HAHAHA.

I've been *coughs* forced to write something about this woman! Hahaha! Haven't i done this like a couple of times? HAHA. Anyways, yeah. She's grown over the years. Shaped and disciplined by God. Makes her seem so perfect. (Right) :P HAHAHA. But she's this really really awesome girl with an awesome personality serving an awesome God! She can be so lame at times but i forgive her for that. ;) I think its safe to say that we went a long way back. From the hi and bye buddies to actually being really close. Hahaha, all those really random moments and names we'd have and come up with! The EMPIRE moments. It's something that i'd definitely keep in my heart man. HAHAHA. And who happens to be leaving for Singapore REALLY soon! HAHA. I'll definitely miss you! Haha but at the same time ecstatically excited for you and what God is going to do through you! God's going to ZOOM you into a future you could never imagine it to be. So much thrill and life awaits you. ;) We've GOT TO KEEP in touch man. Hahaha! Like on everything. HAHAHA. My Sponbob. Thank you for all the lame moments as well as, on the more serious side, all the support you've always been giving me. Truly a daughter of God. Never fails to win the heart of God in so many ways. Can't wait to see you grow dude. May God bless you abundantly in all areas of your life. To live a life of prosperity through Christ! Really reminds me of the parable of the mustard seed where it may seem so small at first, but as it begins to grow..it's gonna be HUGE! :D HAHA THAT WILL BE YOU MAN! God's going to carry you all the way. :) HEHA! Awu eh. Awsomely blessed to have you as a friend dear! :) And now i leave you all with the end results of the freakingly awkward yet cool picture earlier. :) HAHAHA.

love, michelles.